Well, she clearly has given this a lot more thought in it's entirety than I had anticipated. Last night during our weekly fun as we talked, she revealed some things that I told her made me concerned that might be more than I would be wanting or enjoying. She calmed my concerns as we talked but I am clearly seeing that she definitely wants to do this - I'd almost say that she needs it after some of what she shared.
One of the things she said was that she feels she "needs" to do this as she has it in her head that she wants to feel this kind of sexual intensity again with "someone new" (other than me) before she gets too old (in her mind) - but she also said she needs to feel it to reinforce how she feels about herself sexually and as a woman - that she wants (needs) the re-validation of her sexuality and desire by other men. I told her that she knows all of this already from how many other guys - but she says she wants to feel that same kind of rush of excitement and fulfillment that she says she feels she will get from being with Paul. I told her, some what teasingly, that "I didn't know we were definitely going ahead with all of this so quickly". She came over to me and hugged me and kissed me and said "I know you're kidding, but if you really don't want to, then you need to tell me that" and she smiled and reached down and felt that my cock was already hard and straining against my pants and she smiled and said "I guess this is my answer" and she kissed me again and then said "baby, we've talked about this.... I know it's something that's not what you'd thought or might be a bit more than you'd wanted....." and she hugged me and said "I promise to make it as good for you as I can honey." We talked for a bit more and she said that she'd been thinking more and more about it (which I hadn't really understood that she was still thinking about everything) and that she felt more and more strongly that she needed to do this. At one point she said something about "proving it myself" that she feels so elated about the kind of sexual feelings she is having and wants to explore more.
It wasn't until maybe an hour later when we were in our bedroom, this time with the door locked and with her eagerly pulling my shorts and boxers down and her exclaiming that she "loves to see your big hard cock". She pulled off her night-shirt but kept her panties on and said "lets talk first baby, there are some things I want to talk with you about" and she giggled and said "I want to watch you play with it while we talk" and I knew she wanted to see how I/it responded as she talked - I've been down this road before. As she started to talk she slid on the bed closer to me which made her panties reveal quite the camel-toe! But more so - as she talked to me she held both her breasts in her hands and I loved watching her caress them and tease her nipples as she talked - I could easily tell she was getting turned on.
She started to tell me about what she wanted to happen after Labor Day. Of course one of the first things she said was that she hoped that after our fun weekend over the Labor-Day holiday that she turned to look at me and said "that's when you know,..... you'll stop being inside me.". And she stopped for a moment and looked at me and said "does it turn you on that I have my panties on tonight?". I groaned my "yes" reply and she giggled and said that I was very predictable! I told her what she already knew, that her teasing me with this kind of sexual-denial stuff was something that really affected me. She giggled and watched me tugging on my cock.
I have to say that I really do love lying there and letting her watch me. I haven't mentioned it but she'd asked if I could do a little "man-scaping" (actually she told me that Paul does it for her now as she complained about his curlies too) and my pubes are now trimmed pretty short and she thinks it's wonderful and lets her see more of how big my cock is. I felt it a little more last night as she told me she liked how my cock looked several times and let out some ooh's and even reached over and wiped off a drop of pre-cum at one point.
She started to tell me what she was hoping she'd be able to be doing with Paul "after we get into it" and she proceeded to tell me "either me at his place or him here, but I'm going to be spending 2 nights in a row with him" and then she looked at me and said "I'd like to be able to do that every week baby..." and it was just sooo sexy hearing her talk about it as she was. Just the way she said it was incredibly sexy. I moaned back a response of something like "we'll see.." and "maybe....". My response changed however when she began to tell me more of what she was thinking. It wasn't until she said that "you remember when he chased me down to the kitchen that time" and I nodded and affirmed "uh huh" - she looked at me and said "I want more time to feel like that with him, to feel sexual with him and to not have it end the next morning" and she proceeded to tell me how she felt "crazy horny" when she told me that she wanted to know she could come home to him and have him again the next night. She held my hand and said "it's nothing more than how it was when we were away skiing or when I went with him alone" but she looked at me and said "but if we are at our house, then I don't want it to only have to be in our bedroom" and she proceeded to tell me that "you know how we are at his place" and I knew what she meant both from with Paul as well as in the past.
I told her that I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to deal with that and she immediately said "that won't be at first baby, but if it's okay.... you know, when we talk after a few weeks of trying it out.... then? then maybe we can start trying some of that?". When I grunted back a somewhat reluctant sounding "ok" she giggled and said "baby, it's what already happens at his place, it'd just be here too.... I just want to make sure you know that honey". My god - it was how she said it that was intense - and the following moments I admit that all sorts of scenes played out in my head. As I was enjoying my thoughts (obvious to her too) she continued and said that "we're not just in the bedroom at his place baby.... I was hoping that it could be that way in our house too....".. I was moaning away. She obviously knew what to say and how to say it to really get to be because she continued ".... so, you know, when he's going to be here, you know.... you may have to move some of your stuff into the other room....". I must have looked at her with crazed eyes because she giggled and said "that's part of it baby, I want to feel it with him". She smiled and I could see her nipples were now really hard so I knew this was turning her on too to think about and share this stuff with me. For as much as it scared me, it was just so erotic and intense to see her struggle at first but then feel more comfortable saying it to me. She giggled a little and then said "you know baby, you know it's going to turn you on that we're going to be in our room and in our bathroom in our house". She knew. "I want to wake up with him baby and know that I'm his and that we'll have another night and morning together". I cannot deny how beautiful and how sexy she sounded - and how it sounded like what she was saying was coming from deep inside her thought too. Her hands had gone back to her breasts and I could feel her legs squirming and rubbing as she continued.
"I can tell it's turning you on.... what I'm saying to you..... mmmm, your cock looks so good" - she was talking and I was hearing but I was struggling to reply in other than grunts by this point as I was getting closer and closer to the edge. She giggled and said "you can be with us sometimes baby, but I really want some alone time with him too.... " I began to moan with I guess some concern and she must have recognized it and said "we'll work up to that baby.... I told you, I want this to be good for you too....". And with that she snuggled down closer to me and I felt her nipples on my arm and shoulder as she slid next to me. Now she started to whisper more in my ear and I have to admit I got hard when she rubbed her panty covered pussy against the edge of my hip. It was what she started to say to me that I guess leaves me no doubt that she understands me. She cooed in my ear that ".... I think you'll like watching me with Paul baby..... ....when I can really get into it with him (like a second day) he can really make me cum baby...." and she would even sort of kiss my ear. ".... I know it's not going to be easy for you but I can tell it turns you on...... it'll get easier for you baby and I think you'll like it .... I know I will....". I know I grunted at that and I moaned and she eased up onto one elbow and looked down at me lying next to her and she started to tell me "look at how hard your cock is..... and how much it's dripping....." and she turned to look at my face and she said "it's okay if you aren't ready to admit it but it sure looks like this turns you on". I moaned back a "yes" and she giggled and obviously seeing me on the edge she smiled and said "maybe you can have a peek..." and as if it were nothing she said "at Pauls pussy" and I watched as she moved to her knees and slid down her panties. Even in the darkened bedroom I could see her pussy was swollen and even almost wet looking. She saw me staring intently lost in her fingers gently rubbing up and down and she smiled and said "you'll get to watch" and she patted her pussy with her hand and then said "but this will be just for him baby". As she said it I watched her let one of her fingers slip between her pussy lips and the fingertip disappear which made her moan intensely.
I don't know what was in my mind at the time but when I focused on her fingertip emerging looking slightly wet I just grunted and began to cum almost without stroking my cock it just started to spurt. I of course grabbed hold and worked the rest of it out but it was a surprise at how suddenly it hit me. Sue was very appreciative when I did cum and she moaned along with me making me wonder if she had continued her own pleasuring. When I was done she looked at me and told me that she found that to be incredibly erotic and told me that it got her wet whenever she would watch me. I told her that I liked doing it for her and that it felt good to be close to her like that. She hugged my shoulders as she began to play with my cum like she usually does and again she commented "I really do think this is all turning you on a lot honey... I mean look at this, there is a LOT here!" and I glanced down and saw that she'd collected as much of my semen as she could into a pool around my navel and I had to agree with her, compared to what I remember from I guess not so long ago, there is a lot more now, both on my stomach and chest as well as in the condoms. She leaned down and kissed me as she held my balls in one hand and told me how it made her horny to see what it's doing to me and she kissed me again and told me "I know it's going to be okay for us baby". With one more hug of my shoulder with her right arm, her left reached further down and did as she always does and brought out the last dregs of my cum. It's always thick and she always makes a point of holding as much on her fingers as she can.
Everyone here knows I don't mind my own cum (or Pauls for that matter) so licking it off her fingers wasn't a big deal but it started her to talk again and with our anxiety levels lowered a bit, it was easier for me to listen and respond. She told me that she wanted to feel that she wasnt' going to have to walk on eggshells around me once things get more involved with her and Paul. I asked her what she meant and she told me honestly that they have cutback on sex over the summer and when they talked last that they both said they'd missed it. He apologized for his golf schedule and she apologized (even thought not necessary) about her schedule regarding our daughter. She then told me that she wanted to have more sex with him and hoped that in addition to the 2 days in a row together that she could possibly have one other time with him during the week and she told me that she didn't want it to be a 3rd day in a row and she said she wanted to be honest with me and told me that "without being with you, I'm going to want him so that, you know..... I feel like I want to...." I told her that it turned me on and made me nervous to hear her say things like that. She said she loved that it turned me on and that she "wants to work on this nervous thing" before we get to mid-end September.
