George said:
Please give your many readers some closure on past adventures, say Soo-Yun, Korean artist and Caleb.
So yeah, there it is. There is something I need help with, something I've been putting off for a while but can't keep putting off. The Korean artist -- he is visiting the U.S. next week for the exhibit Min-Ju has been helping curate. So there is this.. reality that we both knew was coming yet at the same time are flummoxed by, and we've been hemming and hawing about it for a while. They've been exchanging emails about it -- about the visit but also about the possibility of.. other kinds of things. Min-Ju says he's been polite, indirect, but, well, "firm" is the word she used once. Apparently he has been pretty clear that he's expecting to see her again while he's here, and she.. hasn't discouraged that expectation. So my wife has been exchanging emails with another man, a former lover -- well, let's be direct: the man who first fucked her after our wedding -- she's been exchanging emails with him about his upcoming visit. Just what she has been saying I don't know, as she won't show me the emails. Not that it would do me much good if she did, of course.
It's a sexy but also kind of scary situation that we naively maybe didn't fully think through: he's been with her, very intimately and several times, but I think both of us thought of it as a one-time thing. Even as we knew it wasn't. We knew, I knew, she would see him again. And now it's happening. And as I've said, we've been trying to decide what we want to do. Min-Ju and I have fantasized about what it would be like to have him stay with her in our apartment while I clear out for a few days. "You could stay in the hotel instead," she said. She's said that several times, actually, and cruelly, knowing how it would prick me. We've talked about embracing it fully, letting them be together like a couple for the few days he's in town. We've made each other cum imagining what it will be like at the reception, the three of us chatting, knowing that she will go home with him after, leaving me behind to get a taxi to my empty hotel. We've already decided that he will enjoy her bare. Of course, we've also talked about the possibility of keeping things in control. She could simply visit him at his hotel once or twice. Or she could keep things entirely professional and nothing need happen at all.
So yeah, the thought of him having my wife again is thrilling but also a little scary, though I'm not quite sure what we're nervous about. Well, I guess I do know part of what makes us nervous. It's something we have both talking about and that she first brought up. When she was with him in Korea it was in relative isolation, outside our usual realm of friends and family. (Although even that is maybe a bit naive, or we wouldn't be facing this decision now.) Aside from a few of her friends like SooYun and Jisu who sort of knew what she was doing, there was no real risk of ********. But now, with him coming here, he will be squarely amid many of our closest friends. He will be at the gallery reception standing next to her along with friends and co-workers. Even if he is entirely discrete, which we both think he will be, there is always that chance that a perceptive friend might realize that.. something.. is happening between them. I don't want to be outed, but if you've been following this thread then you know part of me does want that. For Min-Ju, she doesn't want anyone judging her as a slut. I don't think anything will happen to betray us, Min-Ju doesn't either, but, well, nerves.
I'm rambling here, I know. Min-Ju and I have been talking about this off and on for several weeks now, once he confirmed that he is coming. I think... I think both of us want to do this. We can't quite seem to drop it or talk ourselves out of it, or maybe it's me who keeps bringing it up. Honestly I don't know. But the thought of her submitting to her again.. of welcoming him into our bed.. of stepping aside for them to be together.. is powerfully rooted in my psyche. The truth that she wants to be with him is .. is mind boggling. In some moments I also worry this might be too intimate, something that might make me too jealous or leave her too hung-up on another guy. I know that's not the case, I know we're solid. This is why I saw we've been spinning around. The other issue is that this time there will be no hiding behind indirection: if he gets between Min-Ju's legs again he will know it will be because he is taking my place. He will know he is making me cuckold. And that... clearly seems to fascinate her.
What do you guys think? Should we do this? Does this seem hot to you, or a bad idea? Should we back off?