Denial 2015

[Harry2614]

Steve, What I understand from what you write, is that you have hopes for more than a romantic 'dinner out' with Sue tomorrow.

I think you would multiply those 'hopes,' by also buying her a corsage to wear to the dinner at the fine restaurant you have booked. That and the fact that you are not pressureing her to 'reciprocate' will do more to put her in the mood to finish off the night with a wonderful love session.

If however, you are content to 'deny' yourself (and her) of a wonderfully loving Valentines day, then ignore my suggestion and continue to make love to her 'vicariously' through other men.

"sex begins in the kitchen" (or in this case at the restaurant) Says Dr Kevin Leman.

Cheers, Harry

 

[far2easy]

Enjoy your valentines day weekend Stb!

 

[SoonToBe]

It's been a nice day so far. I got Sue some jewelry she'd wanted, earrings and a necklace and a card and some flowers.

She's over her parents right now greeting them for Valentines Day and then she'll be home later. I have some wine for us and then reservations for dinner. I already know that I shouldn't expect and likely won't have sex with her tonight - she's already mentioned that Paul will be coming to see us tomorrow so I'm sure she is already warming up for him.

Peak and others, thanks for the well-wishes and ranges of thoughts on all of this. I know it sounds so crazy but I feel very content right now. It even seems weird to me but I do. Sue has really been good so far and I know that she's probably not sharing everything she's feeling, I do feel like she is doing this for both of us and not just for herself.

 

[far2easy]

So how was your evening? Im guessing she let you have her last night. She is too sentimental not to. What is today looking like with the bad weather?

 

[SoonToBe]

Far2 - actually last night was quite romantic in its own way and when we got back home we did get amorous in bed. We both got undressed and I masturbated her till she came a little and then told me that was enough for her. She then sat naked next to me and let me look at her while she encouraged me to masturbate. She promised me a surprise and sure enough, at the very end just when she knew I'd cum any minute now, she reached over and pulled my hand away and instead - she leaned over and sucked my cock so perfectly that she held me on edge for a few more minutes until I begged her to let me cum - and finally she did just that. A few deep sucks along with her hands feeling just so wonderful had me spewing in her mouth enough that she gagged a little. When there was no more to suck out of me I collapsed back against the bed and sure enough, she moved up and lay naked against me and we shared an incredibly passionate french kiss where both of us wound up giggling over how much I'd cum as she smiled and at first pushed it all into my mouth after which our tongues danced away. Afterwards we spooned in bed and she both said thanks as well as how much she loved me and how she felt so close to me.

Of course it was also obvious that she wanted to be horny for him today. And yes, despite the bad weather, he will be coming over later today. She hasn't asked about him spending the night but I suspect that I should know bettter than to question that especially with all of us being off of work tomorrow. The snow has stopped, it's just a bit cold and windy right now.

 

[far2easy]

Well i was wrong! Glad to hear she gave you a treat. Other than how it felt, what are your thoughts? You are being a wonderfully supportive cuck, enjoy your evening. Are you going to jerk off watching them the first time tonight? Perhaps sleeping in the spare bedroom listening? Making breakfast for them tomorrow...

 

[raksdeer]

I also wished that you two would have made love yesterday. It spells a remarkable shift in relationship. When fantasies become more important that realities it's sad. I know you wanted it, she wanted it and all that, but where is the love between you two? I am not saying that you don't love each other, but it has taken a backseat for sure.

 

[peakmb]

Steve, it looks like Sue has created a truly memorable weekend for you both, artfully weaving together her love for you. Her desire to keep herself pure for her lover and her compassion in making sure you had something of her on Valentine's Day itself. Neat. I hope you see the effort she made in creating this delicate balance and reward her tonight by giving her space before she actually asks for it. Sleeping early in spare bedroom maybe, or some other reason to create some space for her. It also allows Paul to believe you are still managing your own time, and gives him no chance to do so. Important maybe as I still believe you are still not totally comfortable being completely beta with him. Either way, I hope you all have a good night and are not too uncomfortable in the morning...

 

[SoonToBe]

Peak, again you've captured pretty much how I feel right now. I don't think she's ever sucked Paul to completion so that's also something rather unique about last night. And there is something so special about her doing it for me knowing how she feels about sucking cock in the first place. I really felt close to her feeling her orgasm next to me and with my fingers guiding the way. I knew early on last night that she wasn't going to want much intimacy and that's obvious from how she has been today.

Right now she's in the shower getting ready for him and as she reminded me as she opened the new package of razors, that she was going to "give it a once-over". It's actually quite funny as well as arousing to see her so horny for him and to see her not really trying to hide it from me.

Gotta run

 

[SoonToBe]

He's here now. He didn't make a big deal out of Valentines day and said he hoped that was the right thing to do, he just got her a simple card.

They just took a break - he's been fucking her for a while now. And I got naked and even stroked myself.

Gotta go back - I think they're going back at it. I think she needed to pee.

 

[far2easy]

Play by play! I hope you all enjoy yourself! Really i hope you showed them how much you appreciate watching them!

 

[SoonToBe]

I admit that I miss fucking her bare. Especially after seeing them tonight. The sounds and the obvious meaning of just how wet she was for him is something that I definitely miss.

The beers I had tonight aren't helping right now but I am so friggin' horny. No, I didn't cum with them. I was close at one point but I got self conscious and I guess that's what it is because I just felt weird moving over so I could be closer and watching him fuck her. I thought I might cum when he did or after that, but instead I am going to relieve myself after I post here.

Yes, this is harder than I thought at times. Even now I can hear murmurs from the room and I know he'll be fucking her probably all night as he admitted to both of us that he's been waiting since Tuesday to be with her.

We talked earlier and last night and stuff and she told me that this feels a lot more intense for her and she feels a lot more desire than she thought she would. She assures me it's really physical with him and she swears she's not in love with him. From seeing him with her tonight, he does her really good. I will admit, better than me so I am sure that is part of her desire.

I loved watching them but at the same time I know that I am starting to miss her a bit. Why does that feel so good to me. I know she's lying in my bed with her right now feeling her warm body against his on this cold night and the thought that turns me on the most is hoping to hear her cry out loud at some point later tonight.

I'm so horny, my cock is dripping away. I'm going to end it here and enjoy myself.

 

[peakmb]

Steve, beware what you ask for! You sound like you have got it. If Sue is coaching him right and continuing then of course he's going to be better than you. Why would she continue with otherwise? She doesn't love him. He's there for one reason so he has to be good. You wouldn't get a plumber in if you could do a better job would you? Neither would Sue.
I suspect in that tiny bit of attention Sue had over you last night while she was being fucked she may have been a little disappointed that you didn't come with them. She asked you to, wanted to see that badge of your arousal so you need to be honest with her about why. Maybe next time.

 

[far2easy]

It might be a good thing to not cum while you watch them to keep your arousal high, i think you are making the right decision waiting until you were in your own room. In truth, the longer you go with denial, the easier it gets. Relieving yourself with Sue's help is surely the answer. You should consider telling her why like peak indicated, and while your at it, tell her that you are ready! You are, she obviously is, just let her get her penetration from her lover, it will turn up the heat and make her happy! You will be jerking off all the time for her!

 

[SquirmingSub]

Steve it would seem that you had an amazing weekend.

 

[SoonToBe]

Well, it was a fitful night of sleep. No I didn't hear them again so I did get some sleep. But he's still here right now and they're still in our room.
I mean they both got up and joined me for breakfast and that wasn't the easiest for me seeing them both come down to the kitchen, her in a just her nightshirt (that left nothing hidden including her stiff nipples and a wet-spot in the back when she stood up) and him in one of my bath-robes. He said he hoped I didn't mind. They were cordial to me and Sue greeted me with a big hug and a kiss. I took care of my needs last night so it wasn't so much that I was horny, it was just how in my face they were including them silly-like staring at each other.

We had some coffee together and I thought maybe he was going to leave but when I got up to get a refill, I came back in to find he had pulled her night shirt up and was kissing and playing with her pussy right there. Her hand was in my robe he was wearing and he was hard already.

I really hoped he was leaving but instead they are now back in our room and I can hear them going at it.

 

[SquirmingSub]

Steve I am sure that we all appreciate the update. What you have described is a natural progression and I am sure that you will have many emotions, feelings and thoughts to reflect on. Try to enjoy the remainder of the day and know that this is something that you had asked for as part of your beta desires.

 

[far2easy]

Like i said, jerking off may have been a bad idea. Keeping yourself on edge when Paul is around might help stave off negative emotions, make you excited. Edging is the best that way you can keep the tension high until you 2 can come together and complete your sexual connection through your masturbation while she talks to you. I think this is critical. Its why chastity works so well for the short term in most cases. I know you have amazing self control but the passion and thoughts are what makes it all worthwhile and it seems to dissipate once you cum and it becomes as if its all in your face.

With any luck maybe when he does leave you can have a taste of them?

 

[SoonToBe]

The door is still closed so I'm not sure if I should open it and look in or not.
Far2 - it's not that I'm down or anything after having jerked off, shit, I'm hard again already and can probably get off.
It does turn me on that she's obviously getting more and more into it with him. And I did love watching them last night and even now, relish the thought of seeing her so turned on. I admit that it is surely stinging a little bit right now that it's starting to really hit me that we are really doing this. Maybe that's what I'm feeling.

She reminded me the other day that I was the one who "started all of this" and that I should be happy that she's found a way to enjoy my fantasy. That kind of struck me, how she said that and on top of really coming to accept my beta desires, it's kind of romantic in a way what she said.

But right now, I was so hoping that we'd enjoy our day off together, maybe we'd still be in bed. I know she'd be warm from being with him, but spending the day next to her knowing how she feels and knowing we shared it in our own way together, was what I was hoping for in my mind. Obviously they had different ideas.

 

[peakmb]

Steve, can't say I agree with the waiting to jerk off. Sounds like a coping mechanism for something you find difficult to deal with. Problem is that Sue wants you to get it out of the way so your reconnection can be equal and loving. Not her watching you desperately trying to get off while she wants to hug and make nice. If you get off when she asks and you want and then it all gets too much after, then that is real. It is maybe too much too soon and you may need to tone it down. The display at breakfast was a good case in point. A bit insensitive and not exciting for you at all. Sue needs to know this, not you need to find a way to cope. Just be calm when you say it.