Denial 2015

[peakmb]

Squirming, I have noticed politicians, priests and teachers all use phrases like, "I'm sure we can all agree." Usually it's a control gesture to make it more difficult to disagree with them. One of the greatest things about this site and this thread in particular is that we don't agree about many things. We sometimes passionately disagree in fact. If some of us detect a car crash in Steve's future we're going to say so, not passively watch it happen. And we'll all see different problems and issues. As we have over the past week. It's what makes it all so riveting.

 

[SquirmingSub]

Squirming, I have noticed politicians, priests and teachers all use phrases like, "I'm sure we can all agree." Usually it's a control gesture to make it more difficult to disagree with them. One of the greatest things about this site and this thread in particular is that we don't agree about many things. We sometimes passionately disagree in fact. If some of us detect a car crash in Steve's future we're going to say so, not passively watch it happen. And we'll all see different problems and issues. As we have over the past week. It's what makes it all so riveting.

Peak - WOW

I can say that was not my intention. Simply that we all have our respective view points, some of us have actually been down a similar path as Steve while others are all about the fantasy. Some people have been successful with the path while others have not. Some would even suggest this forum is all about sex based on the name of the site.

As you know, we (you and I) are both are on this and other forums with a similar topics, some of those forums are more robust on there topics then this one is although this lifestyle is not simply about sex for everyone. Even reading Steve's post he sees his own evolution within his relationship with Sue and this lifestyle overall for him also seems to have something much deeper for him than just the sexual aspect.

If they (Steve & Sue) are truly a strong couple they will find what works best for them no matter what our respective view points are. Our own published views point may actual cloud the issue. You are right, seeing the various view points and opinions can be riveting. LOL

 

[manon]

Suggestion

With any relationship a balance of give and take, meaning each party gets their way at times creating a balanced state where each person has a "positive" take away or something they want or.......... need.

What has transpired here of late is mostly a one way ticket with Sue taking lead while Steve has gone without year to date. Earlier, I suggested regularly scheduled in advance vacations/timeouts just between Steve/Sue where they can really reconnect as husband and wife to balance out the trials of Steve not having the actual physical re-connection with his wife.

It would appear that this is really needed now as the structure and balance has been somewhat negative for both.

Steve, may I suggest you get Sue to agree to taking one week every two months to reconnect as husband/wife without Paul during the period. This way Sue can live out her "dreams" 7 weeks while you get every 1 out of 8 weeks to look forward too!

This is a more than reasonable agreement which I think is really needed and will allow you to both touch base once every two months instead of going full tilt.

 

[peakmb]

Steve, so much seems to be in play at the moment. The mice have filled four pages with nary a comment from you. I do hope all is well in the house.

 

[SoonToBe]

Well, it will be interesting to see everyone's response to last night.

But before that, I do want to thank everyone for their thoughts and opinions.

Yes, Paul is coming over this evening and will be spending the night. We talked a lot more, amongst other things as I'll get to, but we talked a bit more. She repeated some of what she's long been saying, that at some point she feels the excitement of it is going to wear thin. Of course she admits that she is nowhere near that right now. I pushed her and she admits that she does have some emotional feelings for Paul, but she swears to me that it is not something she feels in her heart and joked that it's about 2 feet lower!

And that sort of led to her, I guess, in a way admitting her own desire, that she is finding herself very turned on by what we're doing. She said it again and I asked her when she mentioned something about being married and "doing this". Over the course of her sputtering out all sorts of things, I began to see what she was (I think) trying to say. That it turns her on to be this married "old lady" who is so sexually turned on by her boyfriend. And she admits that - how did she put it - something like "I guess I have my own kinkyness" and admits that its something she just feels and that is why she said that she feels it's her adaptation to my fantasy, but she is very turned on by what she wants with Paul and that - again, knowing it turns me on - that she wants to fulfill what we've started for herself to experience too. She giggled and told me, in a loving way this time, that I had started this and that somehow, with Paul not making demands on her, that it's just working for her.

What made me think though was when she said something about beginning to question my 'beta-desire' because of how I'd been and she mentioned waiting for sex for her and that sort of stuff. But she admitted that she'd felt a change and that she'd finally, in a way, 'believed me' when we talked earlier about it and I said that I realized what I was doing - and yes, when I took care of myself while she was with Paul.

I'm trying to make that part a bit more brief because of what happened next.

We talked about Paul coming over today and she asked me how I was going to be and she told me that she'd begun to tell him more about 'us'. She told me that he'd asked - something about whether I was really okay watching and that sort of stuff. She said that she explained to him again that right now, we're playing a bit with him sort of 'replacing me' in bed.

I got a little annoyed at how she'd put it but she explained that was how she made him understand what turned me on and she said that it's kind of a phase that I'm going through (I told her I hoped she didn't make me sound like a mental patient) and that she told him he's lucky that he's the guy she's chosen to 'replace me with'. She giggled and said that he understood what she meant. And she also told me that part of his response was that I don't have to worry about replacing-me and that he was enjoying this as much as me if that's truly how I am feeling. So she said that I should feel more at ease around him and that he too said he'd try to be a bit less distant.

What totally surprised me was when she came out of the bathroom with nothing on last night and lay down on the bed next to me. At first I thought - maybe she's going to let me look at her or watch her masturbate while I get to do the same. I was about to start to get into position when she surprsied me again and handed me a condom.

At first I was really psyched, but as I opened the package I looked at he and asked her why she was doing this? She smiled and said she wanted to feel close and make love with me. I asked her if she was going to or wanted to cum with me and she said "if you really want to know, 'no'" but then immediately added "but I don't have to cum to enjoy it with you baby and that's why I want it tonight".

I felt really conflicted and annoyed too. I told her that it felt weird to use her that way but she said again that she truly just wanted me to feel good and that she wanted it. She did make me laugh when she said "you are good baby, but you know I faked it sometimes and I never minded at all because it still felt so good to make you feel good". And with that she literally raised and spread her legs and told me to use a little lubricant and to go slow at first.

I tried to stay annoyed with her but she began to tease me a little bit and told me that it would be easier on me when Paul is here if I "got off" last night. And then, she ran her finger down and just teased her little bud and said "you can think about Paul having me tomorrow". Well, that did it, and I admit, I was horny enough by then that I had reasoned that it was what she wanted, then who was I to say no.

There is something so erotic about seeing her still bare this time of year. Usually she'd have let her pubes grow in a bit by now but not this year. But what was very intense was that she physcially held me back and away from her and that she, in a way, controlled how slowly I did move with her. Of course I could ****** her if I'd wanted but it was so incredible to let her control things. It was only afterwards that I realized just how in-control she was the whole time.

She teased me and asked me whether she "felt different inside" which made me groan at what she was implying but she held me back so I could only push into her an inch or so. I was so hard it was amazing. Each time she'd say something sexy or teasing she'd let me push in a bit more until finally I was in her all the way and it felt like she was on fire inside. She told me to pull back and to move slowly as she still felt very tight and I joked back that she "ain't kidding". I started to move a bit more and more and as I started to get into it I guess I started to really pound into her and she pushed back against me and told me she just wanted me to cum soon if I could and that she didn't want "to be all worn out for tomorrow". Wow did that turn me on and when I pulled back out of her I felt she was starting to get wet and a bit more slippery. A moment or two later as the thought of what she'd said and that she might be getting wetter because of me, I don't know how to explain it but as I thought of how she must have felt saying that to me, that she said it because she wanted to save herself for Paul, that I let go in just a moment later.

I was annoyed with her afterwards but she truly was happy as she pulled the condom off me and said "there now, doesn't that feel better now baby?". I told her that I didn't like "using her" like that and she said that she HAD enjoyed it and again said "it feels so good to know you are so turned on".
I wasn't sure what to say so I hugged her and told her she was the best.

Now, of course, it's the next morning and I admit to having a bit of queasiness knowing what will be happening later tonight. She's already crooning around the house and was definitely a bit more into contemplating what to wear while standing with just her towel on her
.
I know that none of this makes any sense at times, even to me. But then I know that even as we head towards what is obvously coming in terms of denial, that I am so intensely turned on that I don't know that I would change anything even if I could.

More in a bit.

 

[far2easy]

Its cool how she lets you get off with her pussy. Nothing wrong with that if she likes it right? Its a shame that she doesnt let you lick her a bit to share the moment but i get that too. Enjoy the evening! Totally exotic watching your wife in a live porn!

 

[peakmb]

Can't agree far2. I can see why Steve disliked that gesture. The whole point to me of that sort of reconnection is the emotional bonding not the jerking off in her pussy.

 

[Jaxunman]

Peak, ease up man! You are acting as if the fate of millions is at stake here. Steve is just posting his recollections of his time spent with his wife. Take a breath. You have been kind of tense towards other posters and their opinions as of late.

Did it ever occur to you that Sue might not be feeling the need to reconnect just yet? She seems to be running things along smoothly and their communication remains strong. I see their bond as being stronger than ever.

What Steve may be perceiving as using Sue, she may not be seeing it that way at all. She wants things to continue to run smoothly and is simply trying her best to ensure that. Steve took a suggestion from here, brought the idea up with Sue in discussion that maybe he should not delay his pleasure and expect to get it with her after she had been Paul. Sue agreed with that idea. Last week-end it was Steve masturbating while listening to them make love down the hall, last night, Sue used her pussy to masturbate Steve. Same thing, different technique.

Sue admitted to Steve she is, for lack of a better word, merging his desires with her's so she can give him what he wants. Sue is controlling things now. Steve will still get what he wants, but it may not be exactly how he wants.

 

[SoonToBe]

Well, she's getting antsy with the snow but Paul has told her that he'll be here but may be a little late.

I can't spend too much time now but I'm sure I"ll have time later. We talked and she said she'd like if it I stayed with them for "both times" and then if I'd leave them alone for the rest of the night. She said she wanted to share the night with me and that I shouldn't feel like I can't be there if I wanted to as she's commented that I seem to leave them alone for their second time together usually.

Anyway - she's off the phone with her sister - filling her in on the earlier visit over to her parents.

Let me run. More later for sure, even after last night I"m still horny.

 

[far2easy]

Cant wait to hear the play by play! Enjoy the scene!

 

[Knk069]

So many thoughts, so little time to address.

I'm glad Sue is fessing up to having feelings for Paul. She may claim it is not in the heart, but, unfortunately, I fear she may be underestimating her feelings or intentionally glossing over them for Steve's benefit. Paul has cum inside her more than a dozen times over the last 7 weeks. His sperm and chemicals in his semen have now invaded every nook and cranny inside her pussy and changed her sexual chemistry and desire hormones. From that standpoint, he has completely replaced Steve. It's just natural that her emotional attachment to Paul is growing.

It is good that it is working for her because Paul is not putting demands on her. What happens if Paul starts to put demands on her? I would suspect that he may be feeing a growing attachment, too. Will it still work for her or will she start giving in to them to keep him?

 

[Knk069]

Steve, i hope your Saturday night is wonderful and the storm doesn't strand Paul at your house all day Sunday.

Sue has you on the way to eventual denial, which you seem to want, although with some trepidation. (Maybe just not ready for it, but and end goal?) She doesn't want to feel obligated to have sex with you. My guess is that the gift of sex Friday night may have been more to keep/make you happy than to satisfy a desire in her to have sex with you. Nothing wrong with that, just where things seem to be.

We are in the first weekend of Lent. Maybe you could offer to give up penetrative sex with her for Lent. That would signal that you would not expect sex from her for the next six weeks, which would free her from feeling an obligation to give you sex. You would likely masturbate any time you were horny and get away from any thought of holding off for your time in her. Come Easter, you and Sue could take that one week No-Paul reconnect week suggested by Manon. The absence of sex with you for six weeks might increase her desire to reconnect sexually with you - maybe even a bare turn! I'm sure it would be a very tough six weeks, but based on her declining rate of sex with you (once every week or week and a half at this point) you would probably only miss 4, maybe 5, times in her.

Thanks for all your posts. Your documentation of your highs and lows in the journey have provided me with many insights that I hope will help me when my wife finally begins our journey.

 

[SoonToBe]

Hmm, not sure where to start so maybe this time it's easier to just try to replay the night. I'm still so turned on by everything. Yes, they are still asleep and I'll even say that I peeked in and it seems so weird to be turned on by seeing her lying next to him.

Where to start - okay - about 7pm after waiting around I told Sue I was going to get the snowblower going and clear off the driveway. She thought that'd be nice for Paul but that wasn't why I was doing it, sitting around waiting for her boyfriend to come over was starting to get to me.
Anyway - sure enough, halfway through the driveway, he pulls in. Surprise number 1 was that instead of going in to see her, he parked at the end of the driveway and he actually got out a shovel from our porch and helped me finish off the snow before both of us went in. Honestly, it made me feel good about him and in a way, it made me want to see him with her - like he earned it or something like that in my head. Whatever it was, it was something we needed as once we were inside it really felt good to see him hug and kiss her and I"ll even go as far as to say that I didn't feel queasy like I usually do when they first start to get amorous.

The conversation really was easy between the 3 of us and we talked in general terms about skiing next weekend. Sue left the room for a moment and he looked at me and asked me if I was cool with the plans. Now I knew that she had told him more about us and I don't know why but at that moment, that thought went though my head and almost without thinking and clearly without much effort, I told him something like "yeah, it's good with me, she really wants to do it too". I don't even think I really thought about it at the moment, even now I can recall feeling like it just didn't phase me and the weird part is that right now, after seeing them last night, that it's something I do want to do.

But I'm getting ahead of myself. The thing was that I'd seen her all horny yesterday and that she wasn't shy and wasn't afraid to show me that she was. I can't explain it, but it was the most intensely arousing as I saw her letting it spill out when she came back and she sat next to him.
Like I said, maybe it was all that we talked about, or maybe it was his helping me with the snow, but at that moment - and even now with them lying in there together - I feel like I"m flying in a dream.

I'll say that I watched them together last night and - well, I think I am passing the angst phase. I was feeling very comfortable with them and it seemed to be easy to talk to him/her/them and when she came back and asked "what are my guys talking about?" Just as easily as I said it to Paul, I told Sue that I'd just told him that it was going to be fun and I added that I was looking forward to it.

That last part just came out, it was how I'd felt and what I had wanted to say when I talked with him alone and now it was out there. I know that I froze for a moment as I was looking at Sue but I know that I pointed my eyes at Paul and I knew that I was looking for some sort of look on his face that would tell me how he was going to respond. I saw him smile and then he just said calmly "yeah, it's going to be a lot of fun" and he pulled her to him and hugged her.

I will probably sound cliche but I swear that I felt that moment was somewhat significant in that I really did feel that way, and I can't explain it but knowing that I was about to see them have sex together only made it more exciting to think about. I know that I miss her sexually already but at the same time, seeing her let go with him again so easily, I swear that my arousal just outweighs that feeling of missing her right now.
We had a few drinks and by now the mood was decidedly changing. Sue giggled that she had to go pee and that again left Paul and I alone. He told me that Sue had talked to him about us and he looked at me and he said that he thought it was cool that we could let this happen and he started to talk more openly to me and he told me that he loved having sex with my wife. He said that he had felt uncomfortable at first but now, he said that he found it "interesting" that I liked what was going on. I told him that it was something that we'd talked about for a long time and that he seemed like the right guy at the right time. He laughed for a moment but then turned more serious and he said to me "you know what she wants in the future?" with a strong question in his voice.

I cannot really explain how I felt this whole time other than to say that I felt like I was on auto-pilot in a way, that words were just coming out of my mouth and in a way, I felt like I was just hoping I'd say and do the right thing. I say auto-pilot because I barely flinched when I answered him "yeah, to just be with you and not me". Maybe it wasn't just me because he seemed to go speechless for a second (or was that just in my head) and then he just said "she said you were going to be okay with that" and all I did was nod yes. Just about at that moment (or was she listening in?) she came back in and we both looked at her. Yes, she'd changed into one of my dress-shirts and we both knew what that meant and it felt kind of cool that both of us smiled about it. He stood up as she walked in and she went up to him and they started to kiss. Her back was to me but that made it easy to see her move her right leg to the side and from the light in the other room I could see a shadow of his hand moving between her legs.

Now, normally at this point I know that I would have had a bit of queasiness, but not last night. They stood there and kissed and I could hear her soft moans. Finally a few moment later he removed his fingers from inside her and when she turned around and they both sat back on the couch she looked like she was so turned on - the look in her eyes first gave it away but then as she moved and sat next to him, eventually her pussy peeked out and I could see how wet and swollen it looked. We talked for a bit longer and she began to tease me by saying to him how much she missed him (to me even emphasizing a bit that I hadn't "taken care" of her). At one point when they were kissing she leaned back and they moved to almost a lying-down position. The top of the shirt she'd put on was open and her breasts were totally ******* and Paul wasted no time in sucking on them. What surprised me was when he turned to me and said something like "she always gets wet when I suck on these" and I watched him - like it was nothing at all - I watched his hand simply fall onto her knee and then I watched her just spread her legs for him as if it was the most natural thing. He did his thing where he uses his index and ring fingers (I watched him) to separate her pussy lips and then he just snakes his middle finger right into her.

Yes, it was normally a moment that gave me a churning feeling in my stomach and I did feel it, but at the same time she looked just so beautiful. I watched her moan and arch her back as he slowly finger-fucked her and I got to see him open up her vagina and reveal just how wet and waiting she was. I swear I could have watched them for forever. I know I was lost in a bit of a daydream because a moment later I heard her say that they were going upstairs. I followed them and watched for a moment from the doorway as they lay on the bed and touched each other and kissed. She raised her leg and I watched his hand cover her pussy and his fingers gently massage her there and almost immediately went back to what he was doing to her downstairs.

Earlier in the day Sue had teased me that Paul had "waited for me" which I knew meant he was very horny for her and that was apparent as she fished out his cock and he held her head gently in place while she sucked him until he began to moan and he pulled out of her mouth. He still had his pants on and it was funny to watch he with his belt. It seemed like it was slow-motion - which is interesting to remember right now because so much of the rest of the night flew by.

Okay, yeah, seeing her with that big head on his cock in her mouth was pretty erotic It was all shiny and darker purplish as she'd lick it and then suck it. The whole time he was lazily stroking her pussy from top to bottom and back again just as I'd seen him do before - it's actually kind of a sexy move now that I've seen it up closer. Yes, I moved much closer as they got started. It made me feel good that she smiled and reached out and held my hand when I first got on the bed next to her even while she was still licking and stroking Paul's cock and I swear she moved her legs so I could see bettter what he was doing to her.

I'll be honest and say that in a way his cock looked pretty sexy in her hand. Something about how big the head on it is. I can't explain it but I became very aware at that moment just where it was doing soon. Somehow seeing it in her hand and knowing it was going to be in her pussy shortly was incredibly arousing to think about. And sure enough, after she gave him a little more oral, even I knew it was time. Her pussy was very wet. I felt so proud at how she was really letting herself enjoy him. Her legs were spread apart and she had them back just a little bit and it's going to sound totally crazy but seeing her pussy start to almost gape open as she sucked at him as he continued to finger her, it made me want to start to tell him to start to fuck her already.

More in a bit - I think I heard some noises.

 

[far2easy]

Seems like a great start to an exciting night! Now that everyone is on board, is next weekend when it happens?

 

[Mundyman]

STB I've been reading and following yours and your wife's journeys all these many years that you've shared them. First thanks for sharing.
I had a couple of questions:
1) When you talk to your wife, does she give any indication that this is how she acted with past boyfriends when you weren't able to watch? The sex, their interactions when they weren't having sex. Given the strong feelings she developed for Robert are the actions and interactions the same with Paul?
2) In my experience the most intimacy in sex is not leading up to the act, or during the act itself, but rather after. During the glow and warmth of the post orgasmic bliss when a person's soul is most open and vulnerable. Words are spoken and feelings bared that are often closest to truest feelings and hard to hide; especially for women. The question is, do you worry about the feelings and plans that Sue and Paul share with each other during these times? The potential for the "I love you's" and "it could be like this if we were together all the time" are spoken. How do you keep track of these times?
Best of luck to you and your wife. I don't know how you are doing it but I hope it all becomes everything you want it to become.
Thanks again for sharing.

 

[SoonToBe]

Mundy - I'll answer you and Knk's while I have a few minutes as Sue is just getting around right now. Paul left about 45 minutes ago and Sue asked if I'd let her just lie in bed for a while longer.

I think she's acted pretty much like this with all of the guys she's been with once she gets into feeling really comfortable with them. It took me a while to accept it and now, be aware that I'm very aroused and in a strange way, satisfied by it. I know she'll tell him that she loves him while they're having sex and I know from our talking about it over the years, that at that moment - yeah, she does mean it - but she says (and I believe her) that it's purely about that moment. I've listened from the doorway at times as well as now having been there several times, and I believe her. I should clarify that and say that I believe her right now.

But don't think I'm simply dismissing the risk. The thing is, as others here have said, she did develop feelings for Brad and Robert and I would be surprised if she did about others too. I'll sound like I'm crazy to say it, but a little emotion isn't a bad thing and I am realistic that if she's not having that post orgasmic moment with me, that some emotions are going to be involved with Paul. The thing that makes me feel it's alright is that she isn't hiding it from me and that in a way, I think we both expect it's going to happen. Yes, I'm scared, but I also know that we've got 30+ years together and much more than sex keeping us together, in a way I'm actually quite curious and almost eager for us to discover those other things, non-sexual, that really brought us together. Skiing is one thing, yes, she may fuck Paul next weekend but she's skiing with me all day and we're together for those moment when we'll share a drink over lunch and will nuzzle up to each other on the chair lift.

I know that we are, especially after last night, heading towards her denying me more completely. I am pulled in 2 directions on it. I want it to happen, I can't explain it but after seeing her with him last night, I know that when she says she wants it, that I'll be ready. I don't think she's there yet though and that's good because the other part of me is a little scared to know that at some point there won't be any contact between us.

Knk, yes, I am well aware of it being 7 weeks now and it being over a dozen times already that he's cum in her. She tells me, teasingly but also seriously that she feels she is always wet and that it is a feeling that really turns her on. I know that I've barely filled 7 condoms in that time but at the same time, after last night, I do feel very satisfied. I know that Manon suggests that by now it should be my turn with her, but the reality is that right now, neither of us want that.

After I posted earlier I actually lay back down for a bit and what woke me was the sounds of the shower running and noises in our master-bathroom. The bedroom door was still just barely closed so I peeked in and saw that they were both in the bathroom together. I know I just stood there listening to them, something about how warm the water was, something from her about how hot he was. I felt like I was eavesdropping. I swear my cock began to throb when I heard her say "pass me the bodywash" and I realized they were both in the shower together.

The bed was a mess and I could see some wet spots where I knew she was sleeping the night before.

Fuck I'm horny again.

 

[peakmb]

Steve, slowly the onion gets peeled. We have Paul just about to enter Sue and we have them in the shower in the morning. We have you saying some of your issues are settled after what happened, but not yet what did happen. Do hope to read that.

 

[far2easy]

You should go in and change the sheets for them and launder her panties!

 

[Pnisnvnh]

So Steves last line was " Fuck I'm horny AGAIN" sounds to me our beta friend relieved himself last night. Big question is if he did, did he make Sue happy by doing it in front of her/Paul?'

 

[SoonToBe]

Yes, I realized I shouldn't have jumped the tracks. She's now up and sitting downstairs on the phone with her sister catching up so I have some more time.

So the thing is about last night. Like I said, I really was into it - maybe something was different between them, not sure. But I can say that neither of them were shy and maybe that's it, that Paul is now getting used to it and maybe he's just more comfortable with it all. What I can say is that it didn't feel weird (or maybe as-weird) this time with him - actually it was incredibly sexy to see him pull out of her mouth and to see just how big and flared the head of his cock is. It still comforts me to know that I'm a lot thicker than him the whole way down but at the same time, I can only imagine how different he must feel to her. But what really surprised me was when he moved between her legs and he turned and looked at me and he said "I love doing this to her" and I watched him take the head of his cock and rub it up and down her pussy lips. Even she got up on her elbows when she heard what he said and she just moaned softly and very sexily. He turned back to her and he said something about how good she felt and I started to recognize that what I'd said was likely true - that he was feeling more comfortable around me.

She moaned each time he rubbed it up to the top of her pussy and once he spread her pussy lips apart again each time he rubbed it up the length he spread her wetness along with it. I was watching but still not right next to them and that was when she finally said it - she looked over at me while she was still up on her elbows and she whispered (loudly enough that Paul heard though) "you can get closer if you want baby....". And as she said that, Paul changed his angle slightly and gave me a better view. I told her that she looked beautiful and I wanted to say something to him but I couldn't come up with anything other than to moan a bit. I was kind of lost in the moment until I heard her again whisper "watch" to me, I looked at her face and then realized she wanted me to watch what he was doing to her and I guess he saw me turn because as he flicked his cock up and down this time, he began to push into her. I saw her stretch around the big head on his cock and when he pulled back and wiped it around I could see he was opening her up slowly. The next time he pushed more into her and this time I saw he'd left her open a bit. The next time when he pushed and he slipped into her a bit she let out a loud moan but she stayed up on her elbows and held herself still.

I looked up at her face and while her eyes were open I knew she was really into it and when I heard her moan and saw her eyes flutter I immediately looked back at her pussy and saw him almost all the way into her. I think it was just the light and how he was holding his cock but it looked even bigger and the head on it was all wet and the entire scene just was so friggin' intense. I know it all took maybe 30 seconds or so but it was such an awesome 30 seconds at that. As he moved it around for what I was sure was the last swipe he turned to look at me and I got the courage to say "...she loves that..." to him. He smiled and she moaned loudly when she heard me. i'm not sure but I swear I thought he shifted his position a little bit because as I knelt there next to them I had this birds-eye view of him pushing into her for the first time that night and seeing it sort of just 'pop' into her and I swore I thought I could even see a little bulge above her pussy as he pushed into her deeper. What really turned me on was the sound she made as she obviously had some kind of climax as he pushed into her because she let out this guttural "uhhhhh ahhhhhhh ahhhhhh!!!" sound and when he pulled back a bit, I could see how wet she was. He was still holding himself away from her and it sort of looked obscene as he pulled back and I saw him draw out her inner labia and how they looked to stretch as he pulled back. But before he pulled out he pushed back into her, this time all the way so that his pubes rubbed against her body and she groaned again out loud and this time, she flattened herself back against the bed and even pushed up at him.

For as much attention as I garnered during what was apparently the end of their foreplay, that was all somewhat forgotten as she pulled him down to her and wrapped her legs and arms around him.

Yes - as I heard how wet she was it made me painfully aware of what I was no longer having with her. And don't get me wrong, I do miss it - I miss it a lot - but at the same time - I have to say again that kneeling/lying there on the bed with them literally at times less than 2 feet from where he was fucking the shit out of her - it does get to me. It both turns me on as well as gives me this nauseous angst feeling. But I wouldn't trade that moment for anything else in the world. There is just soemthing so incredibly exciting to me seeing her like that with him - seeing him having her so aroused that her pussy is oozing wet around his cock. Seeing her nipples so rock hard and hearing her moans and deep breaths in between. I know it's crazy but it's just so intoxicating at that moment.

He was very physical with her. Taking one and then both of her legs and pinning them back. At another point, raising himself above her - assuming it felt good for him or did he do it just for me so that I could truly see him taking her. Either way, it didn't matter - she was writing beneath him and they'd literally just started. I could tell she was building up to a big orgasm and I guess he could too because of how he moved with her and how at one point he knew to reach down and rub her button because a second later she screamed and thrashed beneath him obviosly cumming intensely.

She lay still for a moment beneath him and he looked at me and when he saw me look his way he again positioned his body away from hers leaving his cock buried in her still. When he saw me looking, he slowly pulled out of her. He was totally hard and when he pulled that huge head out of her it was covered with a foamy whiteness that i knew was Sue's cum churned up. It sort of popped out of her and she moaned and almost cried out as he pulled it out of her. It seemed like a dream - but they were just so comfortable with each other. He sort of just tapped her thigh and then touched her butt and she lazily rolled over and got up onto her knees and groaned out "oh god, you like this position" to Paul but I heard clearly. As he knelt up behind her he answered her with a gentle slap on her butt as he said "you know I do".

Again he let me see her before he took her. Her knees were apart and her pussy lips were spread apart and hanging downward. She wasn't gaping open but it was obvious she'd been fucking as her whole pussy mound from behind was swollen and darkened in color. Again he rubbed the head of his cock up and down between her pussy lips and then he sort of pushed her butt cheeks apart as he ran his cock up and all around her vaginal opening. I said something about how wet she was and he smiled and said he loved how she felt.

I know that at that moment I felt really good - he was being so good about all of this and I guess her coaching was paying off because whatever he was saying and however he was acting with her - it was really tender and made me feel so good about letting him have her (as if I had a choice). She squealed again as he pushed at her opening with his cock but this time, after just a few seconds, he just pushed back into her. So again, I was maybe 2 feet away from him penetrating her and hearing her moans through the pillow she was leaning and clutching onto.

Mind you again - all of this - maybe 5-10 minutes in reality! I mean she was well on her way by the time they'd gone upstairs and now - well, they were into it. I know that once they again got into a rhythm that they again seemed to forget about me and I was content to just watch. I moved away from them a bit because I just felt I was too much in the way and I will say that I got off the bed and got myself undressed a bit - down to my boxers and t-shirt and yes - my cock was rock hard but I fought the urge to stroke it. I was wicked excited and I'll say that I know I felt very cautious that I didn't want to disturb them.

He really does fuck her good. I mean it's different, she's said she doesn't feel like she's being stretched open or anything like that, but she has said as I mentioned, the he feels very different to her and that she feels him really intensely when she's in this kneeling position and I'll say that I loved watching him make her cum yet again as he just held her hips and gently fucked her steadily and then slowly - faster and deeper. Just as when we would enjoy this position, I could see her hand and her fingers twiddling with her clit helping herself along and enhancing every thrust from him. But it really is beautiful to see her succumb to him and to see her fingers in a frenzy for a moment and to then see her almost go limp into the pillow as she came deeply with him.

And now, none of the 3 of us are at all surprised, we all know to expect it, that when it's time for him to finally cum - just as it had always been with me - she loves to be on her back under him. She could barely move as he tapped her hip and gestured for her to move onto her back but when she did it was just beautiful... I can remember so vividly just a few years ago when she would have been so self-conscious to lie there like that with her pussy spread for the world and looking so just-fucked - but now she eagerly lay there for him. Just when I thought though, that I was totally out of her mind - I saw her turn her head towards me and when she saw me looking and smiling - the most angelic smile swept over her face and I swear I thought she even pulled her legs back a bit more as Paul climbed back up on top of her.

Again he turned to me and said "your wife is really beautiful" and then he turned back to her and he leaned down and they kissed passionately for a moment before I saw HER hand snake its way down and guide Paul back into her waiting pussy. I thought about holding her hand but then decided to let her have her time with him.

He wasn't gentle this time with her. She was wet and open and I've said it before but his cock had an almost angry look to it. He pulled it all the way out and then pushed back into her over and over - I had the thought of "so much for her opening remaining tight" and each time she would squeal louder and louder until he was doing it effortlessly and yes - by then, with him holding her legs back, she was now truly gaping open. I probably couldn't see it - but in my mind, each time he pulled out of her I swore I could see her cervix deep inside her as well as the gush of wetness he pulled out of her each time. But as I said, he wasn't gentle and after just a few minutes he stopped pulling all the way out and instead, he stayed deep inside her with these deep almost circular movements that I noticed he likes. She obviously liked them because she was moaning away and clutching at his back and shoulders while her toes went pointed every few moments.

I dont' know how long they were at it. As I said, I truly like watching her fuck like this, there is something just so physical, so almost animal seeing her let her body be used by him. I just know that I don't think I'll ever tire of watching her - could have been 5 minutes, could have been 50 minutes. But then I knew it was coming. I've seen them fuck enough times that I know the signs and I knew he was getting closer. She would moan louder and louder as he'd become more intense and I even said "yeah" out loud a few times (or at least I thought it was out loud). But then - even I knew the moment was at hand and sure enough, just a few deep strokes later he pushed into her one last deep time, she moaned with this low moan and he groaned "uh.... uh..... uh....." over and over - had to be at least 5 or 6 times and I just knew each one was a squirt of cum into her waiting pussy.

I knew he was done cumming when he started to pull in and out of her in longer strokes again and this time, each stroke brought out a glassy foam around the shaft of his cock that coated her pussy lips. I was staring I guess because he said to me "looks good huh?" and I realized he was talking to me and I was embarassed for a moment but managed to say "uh, yeah....". But I think he really wanted me to watch because as I did, his pace increased and I saw her start to shake beneath him and I realized he was about to fuck her senseless into the Big-O. He grabbed at one of her legs and left the other down and he almost turned her onto her side as he almost straddled her leg and I watched him fuck her over and over. She began to shake and tremble more and I saw her clutch the pillow to her as he fucked her. The deeper he went in that position, the more she moaned and soon she was thrashing back and forth and as I watched she convulsed beneath him and a flood of wetness covered her thigh where he straddled her. I was too busy looking at her pussy to realize she'd gone limp and didn't know until a moment later he pulled his cock out of her and when he let her leg go she just lay there, motionless other than breathing with a thick bead of cum running down the back of her thigh onto our bed. Paul knelt there at the end of the bed with his cock finally going soft and he looked at me and said "that is just incredible".

Can I say that I felt proud at that moment.