Steve3416,
steve3416 said:
As soon as it began it ended just as quickly. Mostly because I stopped it. I wasn't ready for how I would feel.
Interesting.
steve3416 said:
After the dust settled between us she finally told me all the details of her encounter from the beginning to the end. She told me all the years of [my] telling her it was ok to have sex with other men finally gave her the courage to take the leap. She insisted it was my fantasy that helped her along to realize she was missing out on great sex with other men. I could not argue with her, she was right. All the pillow talk and sexy pictures eventually lead her down this path.
Your wife's evaluation is reasonable. It sounds, as you say, like she's probably right.
steve3416 said:
Obviously I was upset, but my cock was hard as a rock while she told me all the details. Strange I would react this way, but deep down I savored the details as my wife got fucked. Her tight pussy penetrated by a larger cock, her big tits squeezed and sucked, and her sweet lips around his cock.
Ah.... so your now-denied but deep-seated desire for your wife to make you her cuckold, and your erotic memories of her finally responding to your desire and doing so, will stay with you for a long time.... perhaps the rest of your life.
steve3416 said:
Currently, she has stopped seeing anyone at my request....
You can take this as indicating you're sufficiently important to your wife that she chose complying with your wishes, in order to calm your alarmed psyche when you de-compensated and in order to maintain her home and her relationship with you, despite having discovered the pleasures and lure of taking lovers. That's a plus.
steve3416 said:
....but she still yearns for cock, and not mine.
Yes. As pointed out by Cherry Lee (on her unfortunately-defunct web site), it tends to be difficult for a married man to persuade his wife to make him her cuckold — but after she begins experiencing the pleasures of taking lovers, it's harder to get her to stop.
steve3416 said:
Last night in bed, I wanted to desperately fuck her, but she kept insisting my cock would not fit. I didn't get the joke, but she whispered it wasn't that it did not fit, it was because I could not get her to orgasm.
And now your wife, having complied with your demand to cut herself off, is letting you know her sex life has taken a big step down. To increase her sexual pleasure, I suggest becoming her cuntsucker (if you aren't already), and always bringing her to orgasm in that way prior to asking her for intercourse. See:
Cunnilingus: A How to Guide for Orally Stimulating the Vulva
I also suggest letting her know you will suck her cunt whenever she wishes without any implication she will fuck you afterwards. I.e., let her know that giving her an orgasm in that way will give you pleasure also, and if she feels satisfied by that you will not expect more.
In addition, I suggest asking your wife to always take you on top when she feels like sex so she can move in ways that maximize her pleasure. Then, after you cum, I suggest asking her to straddle your face (i.e., queen you) so you can clean your cum from her pussy with your tongue while lying on your back beneath her.... thereby bringing her to another orgasm, if possible. Toward this end, you might point out
The Fine Art of Queening
to your wife.
Finally, at some point in the future you and your wife may be ready to revisit the question of whether her being in love with you, and you with her, should preclude her taking lovers while you remain faithful as her cuckold. Perhaps both of you will find you are ready to try again from a more mature perspective.
Best regards—
Custer