Linda and I had last night together alone because Tom had to be gone. This gave us some much-needed time to talk and catch up on how each of us were feeling and our thoughts on how our lives were progressing.
We are both happy with how things are going for the most part, though each of us feel things are changing and will continue to change. It’s just a matter of how far we are willing to let things progress.
First, Linda asked me how my weekend was and what I liked and disliked as well as my feeling on our lives in general. I replied that I had enjoyed being able to experience an in-depth baby lifestyle and felt I really got into my role as well as liking how Karen acted as my sitter. I told Linda that I enjoyed having someone besides her treat me as a baby because she had a different approach to it than Linda.
Linda asked if I liked having that side of me ******* to Mike and having to interact with him intimately. I said that it was embarrassing at first having him seeing me dressing and acting like a baby, but that I soon became comfortable with it. The intimacy part was a little more difficult to be comfortable with, but I soon relaxed and enjoyed it. Linda then asked if I would be okay with others seeing me in baby mode, including friends as well as strangers out in public. I answered that I wasn’t sure I was ready for that yet. I also told her that I worried about our kids finding out about my baby side and she said that it was bound to happen eventually. That made me nervous and I asked if she was planning something. She said not at this time, but I shouldn’t be too surprised when it happened, both the public ******** and family ********.
Then Linda asked how I was feeling about her and Tom. I said that I understood that she would become more involved with him and expected that she would want to spend more time alone with him, and that I was growing in accepting that. I told her that I was a little shocked to hear her tell him in front of me that she loved him. I asked her if she loved Tom and was in love with him like she had been with me. She looked me right in the eyes and said, yes, she was in love with him and loved him as much as she has loved me. I asked if she loves him more than me now. She said yes, she loves him as her lover and her man, but she loves me as she loves our children and thinks of me as one of them now, no longer as her husband, but as her third child. I asked her if she ever sees us having sex together again and she said no that she didn’t think that would be possible ever again.
We were quiet for a few moments and I asked if she plans on staying married to me or if she wanted to marry Tom. She kind of shocked me when she said that she and Tom had discussed that very thing over the weekend, and he wants to move in that direction. She said that she wasn’t ready to divorce me yet but that it would probably happen in the not too distant future. I asked what would happen to me and Linda said that I could continue to live with them as long as I was in the baby role but would have to move out if I ever decided to go back to being a man.
I asked ‘what happens now?’ and she said that she didn’t see any reason for things to change for now and that I should just be happy being Baby Bev as she continued to be Tom’s girlfriend and lover. She said that she would tell me if and when things started to change.
So, it was good for us to have the discussion, but also somewhat unsettling at the same time. So, I guess that I made my (baby) bed and now have to lay in it.
We are both happy with how things are going for the most part, though each of us feel things are changing and will continue to change. It’s just a matter of how far we are willing to let things progress.
First, Linda asked me how my weekend was and what I liked and disliked as well as my feeling on our lives in general. I replied that I had enjoyed being able to experience an in-depth baby lifestyle and felt I really got into my role as well as liking how Karen acted as my sitter. I told Linda that I enjoyed having someone besides her treat me as a baby because she had a different approach to it than Linda.
Linda asked if I liked having that side of me ******* to Mike and having to interact with him intimately. I said that it was embarrassing at first having him seeing me dressing and acting like a baby, but that I soon became comfortable with it. The intimacy part was a little more difficult to be comfortable with, but I soon relaxed and enjoyed it. Linda then asked if I would be okay with others seeing me in baby mode, including friends as well as strangers out in public. I answered that I wasn’t sure I was ready for that yet. I also told her that I worried about our kids finding out about my baby side and she said that it was bound to happen eventually. That made me nervous and I asked if she was planning something. She said not at this time, but I shouldn’t be too surprised when it happened, both the public ******** and family ********.
Then Linda asked how I was feeling about her and Tom. I said that I understood that she would become more involved with him and expected that she would want to spend more time alone with him, and that I was growing in accepting that. I told her that I was a little shocked to hear her tell him in front of me that she loved him. I asked her if she loved Tom and was in love with him like she had been with me. She looked me right in the eyes and said, yes, she was in love with him and loved him as much as she has loved me. I asked if she loves him more than me now. She said yes, she loves him as her lover and her man, but she loves me as she loves our children and thinks of me as one of them now, no longer as her husband, but as her third child. I asked her if she ever sees us having sex together again and she said no that she didn’t think that would be possible ever again.
We were quiet for a few moments and I asked if she plans on staying married to me or if she wanted to marry Tom. She kind of shocked me when she said that she and Tom had discussed that very thing over the weekend, and he wants to move in that direction. She said that she wasn’t ready to divorce me yet but that it would probably happen in the not too distant future. I asked what would happen to me and Linda said that I could continue to live with them as long as I was in the baby role but would have to move out if I ever decided to go back to being a man.
I asked ‘what happens now?’ and she said that she didn’t see any reason for things to change for now and that I should just be happy being Baby Bev as she continued to be Tom’s girlfriend and lover. She said that she would tell me if and when things started to change.
So, it was good for us to have the discussion, but also somewhat unsettling at the same time. So, I guess that I made my (baby) bed and now have to lay in it.