Well, it was a bit more somber of a Thanksgiving with everyone well aware that this is the first time together since the funeral, but at the same time it was also very nice to be with everyone for a good occasion.
I expected to be flamed a bit because of the last post and how it sounded. I know it sounds cold but it's not. And I know it sounds like I'm using her but it's also very much the reverse as she's explained, that while she may not orgasm with me, that she knows she is making me feel good in a way that I need physically and that she likes that she feels she is still sharing herself with me.
The women, my wife and daughter, are out braving the Black Friday traffic heading to the movies and my son is off at a friends enjoying some kind of craft beer leaving me here to enjoy some quiet time and this is when I do enjoy posting here, when I"m not feeling rushed or pressured.
Our biggest discussion has been how we are both feeling with my upcoming business trip. She's said that it's sooner than she'd wanted but that she is going to take advantage of it and she wanted to know my thoughts about her essentially "moving in with Paul" for the week I'm away. I asked her why she said it like that and she said "it's the truth" and that she won't be coming home here at all. I told her for me it's more like she's simply going away with him but she pointed out that she'll be living with him in his place for the week. And I slowly began to understand what she was saying. She told me that she had hoped something like this would have waited till January or February when, by that point, she hoped to feel more strongly about wanting him and wanting to spend more time like this with him. As we talked she told me that she wanted to have her desires for him built up more and that this whole week, with Thanksgiving approaching, that she's been as "un-sexual" as she can ever remember. It was my turn to laugh at her because I'd been enjoying this stint of abstinence a bit more since she'd been letting me have her physically. Although she had a bit of the last laugh when she told me that was one of the reasons she'd also been looking forward to the week because, as she revealed, she's not seeing him until then and she giggled back and said "I'll surely want him by then baby".
I told her, as we began talking about my feelings about it, that it was something I too had wanted to see and experience and I also told her that it had scared me too as to how and when we'd come to talk about it - as I too had known she was going to want this at some point. As we talked I told her that it made me feel a little better knowing this had come about circumstantially as opposed to it being something she'd or we'd planned and that for me, it made it easier to let happen. She said she too had thought this way and she said it was also some of the thought she'd had about saying yes to it sooner than she had "planned". I cannot tell you how surreal it is talking like this with your wife, about her moving in with her boyfriend for a week. But the more we talked, the more I could tell that this was truly something she had wanted. She was hesitant to talk about it at first but when I told her that I thought it'd be erotic, like some of the stories I'd/we'd read where the lover moves in when the husband travels - she seemed to be more relaxed about opening up to me. She told me that she was scared to let herself admit that this was something she'd wanted but now felt she could tell me that this was also a part of what she'd wanted when she'd talked about having a "big affair" and how she wanted to feel as though she was escaping to her boyfriend's house to enjoy a week of illicit sex. I joked and asked her if that was all it was about and she said at first, in a much more serious tone than I'd expected when she said "well..... yeah!". But then she added that she wanted to feel what it would be like to truly let go of everything and give herself completely to her lover.
I squirmed as we talked and she asked me about it and I told her that it was arousing to me to her her tell me of how she wanted Paul and I told her that it really turned me on to think of her spending that time with him. She giggled back and asked me to tell he what I was horny thinking about. It was hard to tell her at first but then it got easier, she's ask me or add to what I was saying. LIke when I told her that I envisioned her being naked at his place a lot and she giggled and said "or just in his shirt or his robe?". Over the course of the conversation we both seemed to feel more and more emboldened and I think I surprised her by saying how much it turned me on that he'd likely have sex with her every morning before work. She blushed when she realized I'd remembered what she'd said but then realized that I wasn't kidding her. It led to some pretty explicit conversation where she shared that sex with Paul is very different now than it was when they first got together - she said she feels she's able to share herself fully with him ever since I wanted to assume the beta role with her. I know it is something that's surprised her both of how she enjoys it with him but also how it truly seems to turn me on and she openly told me that in some ways, Paul knows her body and can make her cum better than I could (although she also admits that when we did have sex, that I hit all those same buttons and high-spots) and that she feels totally comfortable sharing herself with him. I groaned at what she said and I told her that she knew it turned me on that he gets to share in everything she does and how it turns me on, especially in the mornings. She giggled and said "oh yeah, the whole bathroom thing....." and she smiled and said that she'd ****** herself to get past her modesty and admitted that "he's in there all the time when I'm peeing" and she told me that she even think's she could poop while he's in there with her - something that made my eyes bulge out in response!!! She'll barely fart around me and she's thinking she could let him be there when she's doing more?! I didn't respond as I was sort of grossed out and she knew it and said "sorry....." but at the same time I knew what she was telling me.
The thing is, I get it. She wants to essentially turn herself out to him - I think if he wanted more out of her she'd give it. Geez, if he only knew what he was missing! But then again, I think it's because of who and how he is that it is working for both of them - she (and I) know he's not going to stand her on a street corner. But I do get it - and I've seen it before - how she is when she can be with him more often and how that "up-mood" doesn't fade and each time lasts longer. I actually told her at one point that I want to see how she looks when I get back. She giggled and said "you know where my mind went to at first" before she realized I was talking about her face and whole stance and appearance changes and not as I suddenly realized, where her mind went to, her pussy! LOL It was surely a moment when we both had a good laugh.
Oh well, before the afternoon comes to an end, I"m going to go and get a little time outdoors. Hope everyone enjoys their Thanksgiving weekend if you're here in the US.