Squirm - yes, overall things are becoming more at ease with what we are doing. She is reassuring me constantly that my wishes to be the beta for her are okay with her and that it's again something that she says we are both doing that we've both come to this acceptance.
I will say that I do still most definitely want to be the beta sexually for her. It is something I've been thinking about more lately and I think her attitude towards wanting me to be fulfilled in my own wishes and okay in that choice is helping me. I will admit I am scared and hesitant, at the same time I know that I do want this. I am working my way up to being able to tell her this and to tell her more openly what and how I want to feel and I'm actually pretty sure I'll be up for doing that in terms of my own mental fortitude by the time Labor Day comes around.
For many, outside of Squirm and others, this must seem crazy but the more time goes by and the closer Labor Day weekend gets, the more I am feeling arousal and excitement by it and while yes, I am still hesitant and scared as I said, at the same time, I cannot deny that I really do want this for us. I want to feel being a true beta and giving her completely sexually to Paul. Even as I type this my cock is rock hard and I have a wet-spot already growing. Just the thought arouses me intensely. I know it won't be easy at first, but I want to do the best I can with this to give Sue what she wants to experience too. The thought of her only sharing her sexuality with him is something I want, or I will even say, need to feel and experience.
I will say that I do still most definitely want to be the beta sexually for her. It is something I've been thinking about more lately and I think her attitude towards wanting me to be fulfilled in my own wishes and okay in that choice is helping me. I will admit I am scared and hesitant, at the same time I know that I do want this. I am working my way up to being able to tell her this and to tell her more openly what and how I want to feel and I'm actually pretty sure I'll be up for doing that in terms of my own mental fortitude by the time Labor Day comes around.
For many, outside of Squirm and others, this must seem crazy but the more time goes by and the closer Labor Day weekend gets, the more I am feeling arousal and excitement by it and while yes, I am still hesitant and scared as I said, at the same time, I cannot deny that I really do want this for us. I want to feel being a true beta and giving her completely sexually to Paul. Even as I type this my cock is rock hard and I have a wet-spot already growing. Just the thought arouses me intensely. I know it won't be easy at first, but I want to do the best I can with this to give Sue what she wants to experience too. The thought of her only sharing her sexuality with him is something I want, or I will even say, need to feel and experience.