Well Steve, I suppose no one could have anticipated or wanted the events that have overwhelmed Sue and yourself over the last few weeks. I do think that in times of stress that Sue immediately reverted back to her default setting, and I’m glad that the default was you. I’m also glad that you didn’t seem to question either her need or your fetish in doing so. You now of course have irrefutable proof (if any was needed) of what Sue regards as the best sex and what she regards as putting her closest to her man is, and that does not involve condoms.
You also now know that Sue will revert back to their use to again separate you from Paul, to indulge your fantasies and to also show her control. None of which really do much for her sexual relationship with you. This weekend must therefore be a little bittersweet for you in that you probably want to use a condom even now, but yet you realise this may be your last chance for some time without. What a conflict. Sue will see it differently of course. To her it’s the end of something with you, not a beginning, and it’s the start of a reboot with Paul. It gives you a glimpse, if you can see it through the fog of your fetish, of the depth of desire that is being transferred from you to him next week.
The good thing is that you both have seen that the switch back to a different state can be made, and it can work. So you can play with it safely more often without worrying about some record of ‘time without’. I’m sure Sue will control these events but I do think it’s important that you play along when she does, no doubt on special days, holidays and the odd surprise times. You’re still playing with fire a little, but I do believe the last few weeks have shown you are now less likely to get burned.