Wow - I just read the last few posts and I guess maybe you are right. I hadn't put the pieces or the pattern together to quite see it.
To the question of why Frank hasn't found another girlfriend - I haven't asked him but I will. My impression and memory of conversations early on were that - and this may be also a flaw that affects Sue - but my early impression was that he's not a pussy-hound and that I thought he'd conveyed (or maybe what was gleaned from his ex-wife) that he wasn't all that into lots of sex. I'd always assumed that was all he wanted.
What I hadn't noticed so much was her pattern of distancing herself afterwards. I'd assumed it was her way of making sure she separated fantasy from reality and kept things in check. I have seen that she is much more aware of this part of herself of late. Perhaps the openness that we can talk with now is helping?
She texted me again late last night - after 1am and said "love you lots - having a wonderful time here, hope you are okay tonight. miss you and can't wait to be home. 1x
" I didn't see it till I woke up but it immediately triggered a huge morning hard-on. My daughter said she'd get herself out this morning so I could sleep in a bit. After jerking off to a massive orgasm last night - I can't believe I was not only so horny again this morning - but am again now too. But this morning - oh my - that was wonderful - lying in bed and letting my imagination go. I loved the vision of her on her knees, face down into the mattress and picturing the moment he pulls out of her. That was enough to get me off for sure. And now - oh man - I do so want to wait and let this build for her tomorrow.
It is really starting to hit me that she's been gone a while now. I don't know that I feel as good about that as I thought I would - but it is done now and even if I wanted to, I can't change anything. It is such a crazy intense feeling to know that Frank has, by now, shared all of Sue. It is so incredibly arousing that he knows her body so well now - seeing them last Sunday - it is obvious they are comfortable with each other - she readily allows him to to most anything. Actually one of the things they did that seems to hit me the deepest is seeing how comfortable Frank is in playing with her pussy with his hands and fingers. How comfortable and confident he is. It is just crazy to watch another guy put his fingers in your wife's pussy and pull it open as if it's nothing. Even more intense is seeing her react and respond to him.
But it is more than just the sex that turns me on. When I think about it, once they've had a lot of sex, this is just more of it. But then I think about sharing all of the intimacy together for 5 days now, oh god, it drives me crazy with arousal. Just as it turns me on to see her prance around our bedroom with her panties on - it's almost the same type of arousal to think of her sleeping next to him naked - or as I posted yesterday - sharing time in the bathroom and getting dressed together. Or - oh wow - this one is also from yesterday but it's almost enough to jerk-off again to - the thought of him leaving her naked in bed in the morning after a before-conference quickie! I love that she wants him to do it to her.
She is due to call again tonight sometime in the next 30-45 minutes. It's their last night there. It's weird - I don't feel upset as I thought I might talking to her - it is what it is - I guess. But I thought our conversation would be more emotional at times, I suppose it's good that it's not.
I dropped my daughter off to watch the HS football game w/her friends tonight so she'll get a ride home later. The urge to masturbate is already rising so I am not sure I can be on here later tonight without provoking things further. I know I just need to get through tonight.
I'll end here with Cuck-rick's and Will's thoughts. I suspect you are both right regarding the type of lover Sue would go for - as I well know, she enjoys being dominanted and as Cuck-rick says, there IS a fine-line there. I can play the dom role at times and she definintely responds and it is fun - but I love her too much to play that role all the time. Don found he could play that role but didn't understand his boundaries. I'm laughing at the thought that she grows tired of Frank but then grows frustrated in not being able to find, or even know where/how to look for a guy that could know those boundaries?
I am going to go get into a movie or work in the garage on something to give myself something else to focus on. I am quite sure though that later tonight will be another bout with insomnia - I don't wonder why though - the empty bed next to me alone is enough to trigger all sorts of thoughts in the middle of the night.
