So - I'm working from home today and the reality of her being away is really starting to get to me.
Our conversation last night was nice. To answer Harry's question about what she meant by what she'd said "she needed it". I obviously asked her what she meant and she was quiet and then said in a soft voice "I really came last night" and then a second later "it was what I needed to feel". I wasn't really ready to hear that but after I got my composure back I said "that sounds nice for you" and she said "you said you wanted to know, right?" and I said "yes". She suddenly seemed to have a concerned sound in her voice and asked me if I was okay. I told her that this was more difficult than I'd thought and told her that both the empty house and the empty bed were sometimes hard to take. She said she was sorry and then in a lower voice asked me "does it still turn you on?". I groaned back an affirmative "uh huh" and she asked me in a sexy sounding voice whether I was "enjoying thinking about her?" and again I grunted a "yeah". She giggled and said "so, tell me... how many times? ... I'm telling you....". I didn't lie to her when I said "four". (and now that's up to 6, soon to be 7 after this note).
We talked about what they'd done the night before and what she'd done all day. She said she'd met some of Franks acquaintances and all seemed polite but she said she felt a little weird at times too. That's why she wasn't at the hospitality-suites with Frank - the guys were into drinking and some of them were a bit too coarse for her at times. Plus, there weren't that many wives/girlfriends there too. She said that they'd gone out to a nice restaurant for dinner and I think she told me what she'd had for dinner but I confess that I was taken with the thoughts of her just being out to dinner - yes - a romantic dinner with Frank. Is it a date? Is she now going to go out with him here at home? Now that her dad is more stable, she does have a lot more time on her hands?
Yes, I've been thinking a lot about this. But those thoughts are tempered by what she's said both on Sunday and now in this call. I didn't hear much about Frank himself - she didn't talk about him much, more of what they'd done. It was a friendly conversation - my thoughts about the absence of Frank in her talk is in retrospect thinking about her call. At one point I joked back with her that I was "kind of disappointed" that they'd only "done it twice" and laughed that she's "ruining my fantasy!". She giggled and said that she'd "make up for lost time tonight".
She'd texted me another goodnight message last night before I started my missive about Sunday - in it she said the same sort of stuff as Tuesday night and then added "2 more x". But last night as I struggled to fall asleep - sometime shortly after 2am (2:11am to be precise) my phone buzzed with another message from her "make that 3
" I was too tired and too spent from stroking earlier but damn - that message was surely behind my solo-fun this morning!
And now, as I said above - recapping all of this - plus her "good morning sweetie" text this morning to me has my brain in overtime again. I can imagine him having mounted her at 2am to relieve his desire and again, I can picture him leaving her naked in bed as he gets up to get ready for the day. Oh man - why does that turn me on to think about.
So - going back to that comment in her text that she "needs it" - i imagine it indicates that she is fulfilling her desire to feel this heightened state of sexual arousal with him. I can only imagine (and enjoy imagining it) of just how she must feel letting go with him.
I'll post more later - but my thoughts are just still all over the place. I can say that knowing I haven't had her now for 11 days while she's been steadily filled with his semen this whole time is just driving me insane with desire. And I can also say that come tomorrow morning - if it's the same as this morning - after my daughter leaves for school - I find that when I'm in our bedroom and I see her rings in the jewelry-box - and I look around and realize that is all of her that is home with me - I'll openly say that this morning like yesterday morning - I felt an almost uncontrollable urge to relieve myself. And again, all I need to do is to just think about what she is doing and wow - I'm ready to pop!
I'm sorry if I seem kind of scattered lately - but my brain is literally all over the place. Every time I start to write I seem to get off track or seem to focus on a thought that consumes me. For right now - it's just after 11am and I can imagine her still lounging in the hotel bed - perhaps naked - perhaps in just one of those fluffy robes. That thought alone is a turn on but when my mind goes to her having had sex at like 2am and, fulfilling my fantasy, going at it again this morning, oh man - it's so intense to think about and even though I've cum so much - it is still incredibly fulfilling to let my mind go and stroke off again. Sorry for being so explicit - but in some ways this is also what I've wanted - I've wanted to be here alone and to masturbate to the thoughts and knowledge of what she's doing and that I'm not doing it with her.
Our conversation last night was nice. To answer Harry's question about what she meant by what she'd said "she needed it". I obviously asked her what she meant and she was quiet and then said in a soft voice "I really came last night" and then a second later "it was what I needed to feel". I wasn't really ready to hear that but after I got my composure back I said "that sounds nice for you" and she said "you said you wanted to know, right?" and I said "yes". She suddenly seemed to have a concerned sound in her voice and asked me if I was okay. I told her that this was more difficult than I'd thought and told her that both the empty house and the empty bed were sometimes hard to take. She said she was sorry and then in a lower voice asked me "does it still turn you on?". I groaned back an affirmative "uh huh" and she asked me in a sexy sounding voice whether I was "enjoying thinking about her?" and again I grunted a "yeah". She giggled and said "so, tell me... how many times? ... I'm telling you....". I didn't lie to her when I said "four". (and now that's up to 6, soon to be 7 after this note).
We talked about what they'd done the night before and what she'd done all day. She said she'd met some of Franks acquaintances and all seemed polite but she said she felt a little weird at times too. That's why she wasn't at the hospitality-suites with Frank - the guys were into drinking and some of them were a bit too coarse for her at times. Plus, there weren't that many wives/girlfriends there too. She said that they'd gone out to a nice restaurant for dinner and I think she told me what she'd had for dinner but I confess that I was taken with the thoughts of her just being out to dinner - yes - a romantic dinner with Frank. Is it a date? Is she now going to go out with him here at home? Now that her dad is more stable, she does have a lot more time on her hands?
Yes, I've been thinking a lot about this. But those thoughts are tempered by what she's said both on Sunday and now in this call. I didn't hear much about Frank himself - she didn't talk about him much, more of what they'd done. It was a friendly conversation - my thoughts about the absence of Frank in her talk is in retrospect thinking about her call. At one point I joked back with her that I was "kind of disappointed" that they'd only "done it twice" and laughed that she's "ruining my fantasy!". She giggled and said that she'd "make up for lost time tonight".
She'd texted me another goodnight message last night before I started my missive about Sunday - in it she said the same sort of stuff as Tuesday night and then added "2 more x". But last night as I struggled to fall asleep - sometime shortly after 2am (2:11am to be precise) my phone buzzed with another message from her "make that 3
" I was too tired and too spent from stroking earlier but damn - that message was surely behind my solo-fun this morning! And now, as I said above - recapping all of this - plus her "good morning sweetie" text this morning to me has my brain in overtime again. I can imagine him having mounted her at 2am to relieve his desire and again, I can picture him leaving her naked in bed as he gets up to get ready for the day. Oh man - why does that turn me on to think about.
So - going back to that comment in her text that she "needs it" - i imagine it indicates that she is fulfilling her desire to feel this heightened state of sexual arousal with him. I can only imagine (and enjoy imagining it) of just how she must feel letting go with him.
I'll post more later - but my thoughts are just still all over the place. I can say that knowing I haven't had her now for 11 days while she's been steadily filled with his semen this whole time is just driving me insane with desire. And I can also say that come tomorrow morning - if it's the same as this morning - after my daughter leaves for school - I find that when I'm in our bedroom and I see her rings in the jewelry-box - and I look around and realize that is all of her that is home with me - I'll openly say that this morning like yesterday morning - I felt an almost uncontrollable urge to relieve myself. And again, all I need to do is to just think about what she is doing and wow - I'm ready to pop!
I'm sorry if I seem kind of scattered lately - but my brain is literally all over the place. Every time I start to write I seem to get off track or seem to focus on a thought that consumes me. For right now - it's just after 11am and I can imagine her still lounging in the hotel bed - perhaps naked - perhaps in just one of those fluffy robes. That thought alone is a turn on but when my mind goes to her having had sex at like 2am and, fulfilling my fantasy, going at it again this morning, oh man - it's so intense to think about and even though I've cum so much - it is still incredibly fulfilling to let my mind go and stroke off again. Sorry for being so explicit - but in some ways this is also what I've wanted - I've wanted to be here alone and to masturbate to the thoughts and knowledge of what she's doing and that I'm not doing it with her.
