Peak - my reference to "psyched" was regarding last night.
Far2 - so far, unlikely to be 2 nights in a row - we actually haven't talked much about that yet, but logistically 2 nights in a row presents a lot more to deal with for her to pack enough stuff, etc.
And last night - well, other than the condom between us - it was a really sensational night. Our daughter had gone out over a girlfriend's who is also home on spring-break so we had the house to ourselves for a while which certainly reduced inhibitions and increased the noise-level!!!!
We talked a bit while we got into things last night and Sue really made it clear to me that she's/we're not doing this because she wants to hurt me in any way and she even said that while the sex is really great with Paul, that alone isn't what's driving her either. She again said that she loves how she feels doing all this with Paul and I and that she again said that she doesn't think this can last forever and that she wants to enjoy it as much as she can. What she did say was that she feels this is something she wants to feel and try - to see how it is to truly "be with another man" and to fulfill her sexual fantasies with him. As we talked and got naked together she held me close and asked me again whether this is something that I still wanted - again looking for that continued reassurance.
I told her that it was hard even for me to understand but I told her yes, that I did still want to try it out. I told her that I was sure it wasn't going to be easy for me seeing but not having her. She asked me if it'd be easier on me if she didn't parade around naked or that sort of thing and I told her no - that was part of what I wanted - in a way - as someone online told me - that in a way I want her to become someone else that I am horny about but cannot have - and in a way, at least partly in my head, she becomes like a Penthouse model - someone I long for, love to masturbate to thoughts about and love seeing sexually but knowing I can't have her. She blushed for a bit and said that she'd not thought of it that way before. If anything, what I told her was that she should do what she feels is right for her. She giggled and she admitted that it is a lot more fun and enjoyable for her now that she's let herself understand and accept that it turns me on for her to deny me and that she even says she gets some enjoyment herself (obviously) at knowing how I feel and that it's something i want.
I was totally hard when she handed me the condom and I think I got even harder as I rolled it on! As I pushed into her she looked at me and said "you know I AM going to miss this" but I think we were both too "in the mood" to really talk much more. She was very responsive and loved when I reached down and rubbed her clit as we fucked. She orgasmed several times with me - and I didn't feel she was holding back at all. We changed positions and I know that she loved feeling me behind her as she knelt at the edge of the bed. She teased me a bit but it was truly much more love-making that even surprised me in her ardor that I felt and saw. I know I was deep in her and I could really feel her - not just her pussy but her whole body and self. It wasn't just for show - she was very into it.
At the end - she had her legs wrapped around me and pulling me in deep - we both shared an awesome mutual orgasm and it felt great to feel her cum right along with me. I know that had I not had the condom on, that I would have fucked her into oblivion, but at the same time, it was still beautiful to share that moment with her even if she didn't have the Big-O. And yes, I'll say again that even mid-fuck and even mid-orgasm, that a part of me was definitely titillated by knowing she hadn't had the Big-O and that it would likely increase her desire with Paul next time.
I pulled out of her and she sat up and leaned forward to take the condom off of me and she had this look on her face said it all - a look of excitement and a huge smile - and as she tied a knot in the condom and held it up in front of me and said "I can tell this turns you on" by how much cum was in the condom! She kissed me and hugged me and promised me that we will have more nights like this before Easter weekend.
Far2 - so far, unlikely to be 2 nights in a row - we actually haven't talked much about that yet, but logistically 2 nights in a row presents a lot more to deal with for her to pack enough stuff, etc.
And last night - well, other than the condom between us - it was a really sensational night. Our daughter had gone out over a girlfriend's who is also home on spring-break so we had the house to ourselves for a while which certainly reduced inhibitions and increased the noise-level!!!!
We talked a bit while we got into things last night and Sue really made it clear to me that she's/we're not doing this because she wants to hurt me in any way and she even said that while the sex is really great with Paul, that alone isn't what's driving her either. She again said that she loves how she feels doing all this with Paul and I and that she again said that she doesn't think this can last forever and that she wants to enjoy it as much as she can. What she did say was that she feels this is something she wants to feel and try - to see how it is to truly "be with another man" and to fulfill her sexual fantasies with him. As we talked and got naked together she held me close and asked me again whether this is something that I still wanted - again looking for that continued reassurance.
I told her that it was hard even for me to understand but I told her yes, that I did still want to try it out. I told her that I was sure it wasn't going to be easy for me seeing but not having her. She asked me if it'd be easier on me if she didn't parade around naked or that sort of thing and I told her no - that was part of what I wanted - in a way - as someone online told me - that in a way I want her to become someone else that I am horny about but cannot have - and in a way, at least partly in my head, she becomes like a Penthouse model - someone I long for, love to masturbate to thoughts about and love seeing sexually but knowing I can't have her. She blushed for a bit and said that she'd not thought of it that way before. If anything, what I told her was that she should do what she feels is right for her. She giggled and she admitted that it is a lot more fun and enjoyable for her now that she's let herself understand and accept that it turns me on for her to deny me and that she even says she gets some enjoyment herself (obviously) at knowing how I feel and that it's something i want.
I was totally hard when she handed me the condom and I think I got even harder as I rolled it on! As I pushed into her she looked at me and said "you know I AM going to miss this" but I think we were both too "in the mood" to really talk much more. She was very responsive and loved when I reached down and rubbed her clit as we fucked. She orgasmed several times with me - and I didn't feel she was holding back at all. We changed positions and I know that she loved feeling me behind her as she knelt at the edge of the bed. She teased me a bit but it was truly much more love-making that even surprised me in her ardor that I felt and saw. I know I was deep in her and I could really feel her - not just her pussy but her whole body and self. It wasn't just for show - she was very into it.
At the end - she had her legs wrapped around me and pulling me in deep - we both shared an awesome mutual orgasm and it felt great to feel her cum right along with me. I know that had I not had the condom on, that I would have fucked her into oblivion, but at the same time, it was still beautiful to share that moment with her even if she didn't have the Big-O. And yes, I'll say again that even mid-fuck and even mid-orgasm, that a part of me was definitely titillated by knowing she hadn't had the Big-O and that it would likely increase her desire with Paul next time.
I pulled out of her and she sat up and leaned forward to take the condom off of me and she had this look on her face said it all - a look of excitement and a huge smile - and as she tied a knot in the condom and held it up in front of me and said "I can tell this turns you on" by how much cum was in the condom! She kissed me and hugged me and promised me that we will have more nights like this before Easter weekend.