Well, I have more time than I'd thought - she dropped our daughter off at her boyfriend's house and Sue asked, or rather, told me that she's going off to see Frank till later this afternoon.
And with a little more time, I thought I'd pen more of my thoughts on all of this. First I suppose is that I guess it's not so bad using a condom with her. I really enjoyed feeling her bare for a while and by the time I felt the urge rising, it wasn't that big a deal to put the condom on and finish off that way.
I am kind of struck at the feeling I have about all of this. For so long I'd valued cumming in her as a big part of our sexual release together that it's a bit different to not have that, or at least not have it in the same way. But at the same time - it is quite the turn-on. Now that we're actually doing it - and I know it's her that wants it - it actually feels good to give her what she wants. In a way, sort of returning what she's done for the past few years, that's given me what I've wanted.
Thing is, I know that when Sue had told me Don wanted this, that I really didn't want it and I also don't think she really wanted it. But I know that at the time, the thought of not cumming in her was something that I thought was a huge thing. But now looking at it - I can see that while I wasn't ready for it at that time, I can also see that my response was (I think) so much more in response to what I definitely felt as her not wanting (or also her not being ready) it.
I know it's only been one time now that we've fulfilled this new desire of hers - but I can already say that I think I'd be okay with it if she were to say she wanted it for a longer period of time. It's crazy but I actually felt like I was so much more involved and a part of her own desires by me putting on the condom last night and fucking her. In a way, it's like it's a reversal in my mind of what's been going on between us.
I think what mattered to me most was that we were both able to cum as we did. She seemed to feel it as much as if I'd cum in her - and I know that, from what she's said, that despite missing feeling my semen in her, that it's obvious from last night that we still are as intensely sexual together as we had always been - she orgasmed, relatively easily as did I - something I think I feared wouldn't happen.
Crazy to think this way but with a few hours alone here to ponder, I find that I'm relishing the feeling I have right now knowing what we're/she's doing. What's more, I find pleasure in knowing I'm fulfilling her desires - and it's weird to say that - most definitely the cuck in me talking - that it feels wonderful knowing I'm okay doing this for her. And it's most definitely the cuck in me that is excited and most definitely aroused at knowing what she wants. I am sure that as days and the next week passes, that this feeling will wane and I'll miss feeling her warm wet pussy around my cock as I cum deep in her - but a the same time, I also know that the cuck part of me wants to see where all of this will go to.
Cuck-Rick - as far as seeing them together - it's something that we haven't done in a while now. Perhaps it'll be something we'll talk about later when she gets home.
Joncondon - a lot of people here have said that they see that day in the future but I don't feel it, or at least I don't see it - not right now, not with Frank.
That's about all of my thoughts for now. It's weird to think how far our relationship has come - to where her with Frank is, in a weird way, almost a comforting thought knowing she's there because she wants to. I think back to my earliest fears of her being too intimate with her lovers. It's weird to now not be upset by those same thoughts, instead, being aroused by them.
