Well - I wanted to bring everyone up to date on how this is progressing this week. Despite some growing desires on Tuesday I didn't push things with Sue and actually had decided to play the week out the way it normally goes - meaning no sex on Tuesday. I had thought of pushing to have sex with her (and use a condom for the first time) but then thought better of it. And I was right - going to bed Tuesday night Sue said that she thought for sure I was going to want her and when I shared my thoughts that we might follow our normal routines I thought I even saw some tears in her eyes as she hugged me really deeply and said "thank you ... thank you for letting me have this for me". So despite falling asleep with a hard-on, it was definitely the right thing to do for Sue and yesterday morning as she pranced around the bedroom naked she thanked me again.
What I want to recap here is last night! Sue came home a bit later than usual from work and I didn't push or ask about it - I knew she had a ton of crap going on at work and although I suspected she might have seen Frank, I didn't ask because there was just as good a chance she was simply working late. Our daughter was home and we got busy with her and homework/projects/play status. It wasn't until we were heading to bed that Sue came up to me and asked if I wanted to follow our normal Wednesday routine and she smiled again when I said "yes" - she briefly asked why I didn't want to have sex with her and I repeated again that I thought we were going to follow our normal routine.
She came out of the bathroom in just her night-shirt - even pulled the front of it up and teased me by flashing her pussy as she climbed into bed next to me. "Are you ready baby?" she asked and I pushed the blankets down and showed her that I'd already taken off my boxers and my cock was stiff and ready. She moaned a bit at "how hard you look already" and as she lay next to me and her shirt rode up she turned to me and said "you know I saw Frank after work" and she again said thank-you to me for letting her have her time with him. She asked me "are you sure you wouldn't rather have me?" and I turned to her and said "is that what you'd rather?" and then I added "I don't mind doing our usual if that's what you'd rather?".
She was quiet for a moment and then passionately kissed me and told me how wonderful I was and then she said "if you don't mind, I really would rather you waited, but only if you don't mind". How could I possibly say otherwise. Knowing she'd seen Frank earlier was clearly in my mind - but to be honest, my head was in a cuck-place and the idea that I'd masturbate instead of having sex with her was really turning me on. I even started without even thinking about it - my hand just went to my cock and started stroking as we talked. I was hard already and she leaned over to me and - understanding where my head was at (enjoying a cuck-moment) and she said that she "would love to watch me".
I started stroking more intently and she kept on talking to me - whispering in my ear about how horny she was watching me. And then she started to tell me "I'm so wet from Frank earlier". But when she asked me "do you want to feel me?" that my brain really went crazy. She took my free-hand in hers and put it on her pussy - I could feel her curly pubes between my fingers and I looked over and watched her guide my fingers down between her legs. A second later I felt her spread her legs and she guided my index and middle-fingers into her vagina.
Oh my god - it felt so warm and wet in there. As I tried to finger-fuck her with one hand and continue jerking off with my other hand she started to talk more in my ear. "Frank came a lot in me - can you feel it?". "I'm going to see him again tomorrow and tomorrow night you can clean me up if you want to - but tonight - I just want to feel him". I was kind of in my own world by this point - after hearing that, my brain just went off in all sorts of directions - I could hear her talking more but honestly, all I could think about was the feel of her pussy on my fingers. I know at one point my right hand was going wild on my cock and I'd almost forgotten about my left-hand until I felt her moving them with her own hand.
She asked me to talk to her and tell her what I was thinking. I managed to get my thoughts focused enough to tell her that I'd gotten over some of my initial apprehension and that I was excited to see her wanting things like this for herself. She interrupted me to say "I want you to enjoy this too" and I told her that it was incredibly sexy to think about her and what she was doing. She encouraged me to talk more and I told her that "thinking of you giving your pussy to Frank like this is driving me crazy". She cooed back in my ear again thanking me for letting her do this and she ramped up her talk in my ear. She asked me how it felt feeling "so much" of Franks cum in her and "knowing it's none of yours". I didn't need to answer her as the speed an intensity of my hand on my cock gave it away. I could feel her own arousal in my other hand under hers in her pussy - I could feel her pussy spasming, clenching down on my fingers as she guided them in and out.
It was all too much for me - I'd wanted to take longer to cum but couldn't take it - and literally, 5 maybe 10 minutes into all of this - I started to moan and she knew I was close. She whispered in my ear "come on baby, let me see all that cum that you used to put inside me".
That did it - the next stroke set me off and I spewed all over my stomach and chest and one or two landed up by my neck. As I let go - I felt her hand plunge my fingers deep into her pussy where they were when I felt her cum a moment later. It was sooner than she'd expected too - and just a minute or two later, we were both lying there exhausted and breathing heavily. She laughed when she pulled my fingers out of her pussy when I instinctively put them in my mouth to lick them off as I'd normally do after fingering her - and yes, I could definitely taste Franks cum in her. As I licked them off a second later she brought her own fingers up to my mouth and I realized she'd pushed them in herself and brought me more of their juices to lick off. It just felt very sensual to share that moment with her that way while I lay there with my own cum all over my body.
She slowly moved to her knees next to me and began to again - like most Wednesdays, she started to push my cum together into a larger pool and this time she was playing with it a bit - rubbing her fingers together in it. She had this intense look in her eyes like she was lost deep in thought. I touched her with my left hand and that brought her out of her trance-like state and she looked at me and said in a calm plain voice - about how much it turned her on to "see how much you cum .... and to know it's not in me". She suddenly turned to me and hugged me and said "this is really okay with you?" And I hugged her back a bit and said that I'd gotten over some of my issues over the past few days/weeks and I simply told her that I wanted her "to have this experience the way she wanted". She leaned over and kissed me and wound up smearing my cum all over her t-shirt where it draped onto my stomach. As she leaned back away from me she said something about "not wasting it" and she went back to pushing my cum around and feeding it to me. When she was done and content that I was cleaned up she again leaned over to me and kissed me - sharing the taste of cum in my mouth - she told me how much she loved me and again said thank-you for being so good about all of this. I told her that "we've gone this far already - as long as you make me feel this good - lets see how it goes". She squealed at how lucky she was and how wonderful she felt.
We lay there in bed together for a while - we were quiet for a bit as there didn't seem to be much more to really talk about right then. We turned the TV on and watched an episode of Chopped which was fun. I thought we might turn in at that point but she leaned over and reached under the covers and grabbed my cock and said "is he done for the night? or can I wake him up again?" (him referring to my cock). I groaned that she could see if "he" responds. Sure enough, a moment later she was eagerly stroking me to full hardness again.
i was ready to jerkoff again for her - but instead she leaned over and gave me a passionate kiss and then said "you deserve this for being so wonderful" and with that, she pulled the covers down and before I could say anything, she leaned over and started to suck my cock. I started to move my hand towards it but she pulled her mouth off and said "let me do this for you, okay?". How could I say no, however, she did tell me "you talk to me - tell me what you're thinking and what's turning you on".
So - I lay back and as I enjoyed her mouth doing a wonderful job, I put my hands on her back and in her hair and as I caressed her I told her that I loved how we were able to talk and communicate so openly now. She moaned "uh huh" but didn't miss a suck. I told her that at first I was kind of upset about not having her pussy for a while - but that now, the idea turned me on a lot - and I told her outright that "it turns me on that my wife of 25+ years wants another guy to fulfill her sexually". I said that I did feel threatened at first but now, she'd made me feel so good with her that I felt I would do anything for her.
