msbevw said:
The emotional bond does scare me a little. I wasn't expecting to hear her say that to him, though I'm sure that she has said it many times before. That's just the first time I have heard her exclaim her love for Tom. and on top of that she has told me that she wants to spend more time alone with Tom and is planning on spending Friday, Saturday, and Sunday with him, I just found out. So I know it's more than just sex between them. And I know that she sees Tom as having taken over the role of man of the house, and almost like her husband now instead of me. It's Tom that she wants to be intimate with, to go out and be seen in public with, and be close with. And since she has seen me (and pushed me) to have oral sex with Tom, I'm not really sure how she sees me now. I know she definately doesn't see me as her husband anymore and is happy to see me in diapers and assuming a baby role most of the time. One of her friends (Karen) and her husband know about my baby side... can it be much longer before others will know, including our Kids and our family??
It is truly understandable that the emotional bond between Linda and Tom would scare you on some level. If you truly were not expecting to hear Linda express herself so openly to Tom in your presence I can see where those expressions of emotions would concern you, even scare you. As you mentioned, it is likely that they have shared expressions of love to each other considering were they seemed to be within their relationship and wanted to come out publicly.
While it also may be uncomfortable in the early stage, it is good that Linda is being honest and open with you about her feelings and desires as it relates to Tom. While my current wife has not yet spent an extended weekend with another man, my prior wife would routinely have extended weekend visits and other creative arrangements with her long-term lovers. She would also keep essentials at the other man’s house and in one case, she even moved in nearly half of her wardrobe. So I do understand those feelings that you are having when you realize that Linda and Tom have a deeper connection between them, that is much more than simply sex only.
As your aware, your approach to the lifestyle begun with Baby Bev and Cuckolding followed. Based on some of your prior remarks, Linda did not sleep around with multiple men, she found ‘Mr. Right’ and has committed to him. In many ways you have experienced what you asked for, to be able to fully embrace being Baby Bev and you encouraged Linda to see her sexual gratification from another man. She has since done just that and yes, I would agree with you that Linda does likely see Tom has being the Man within your marriage. She has accepted your more subordinate role and, in many ways, yes Tom has been assuming more of the husband responsibilities and benefits alike.
Once a wife, sees and accepts that you enjoy doing things that she perceives as less manly, submissive, etc., she will gravitate more towards the Alpha Man, in this case happens to be Tom. Yes that would includes Linda’s desire to be much more intimate with Tom. As you have realized, something that many of this forum to not realize is that intimacy takes on many forms and when we speak of intimacy we are not simply talking about sex, we are talking about all form of sexual and non-sexual intimacy. As the intimacy evolves, and deepens, yes they will want to go out and be seen in public with, and be close with each other as you have described.
As the more submissive within the marriage at this point, giving Tom oral is a submissive act and it may have confirmed to Linda that she does not and will not see you as an equal partner, or be sexually attracted to you. Although I have a feeling this began to change when she embraced you as Baby Bev before the introduction of Tom within the marriage. It is something that you two should talk about in the future so that you both will have a better understanding of how each of you feel.
As to your last point, are you truly concerned about what others think? Linda was the one that seemed to be more concerned about your baby side being ******* to others although if your concerned that your adult kids and associated family will find out from someone from the outside, you and Linda may want to discussion options and ways to bring them more in the loop before it gets out.