I was pleasantly surprised last night when Sue came home and was more playful than I'd expected her to be. Even more surprised when I followed her up to our bedroom and she asked me if I wanted to "lick down there". I smiled and said "as if you need to ask".
She lay down on the bed and I helped her wriggle out of her jeans and then her top leaving her lying in just her bra and panties. I told her it turned me on that she was wearing this when she was with him just a little while earlier. She giggled and said that I was so easy to get turned on and horny. She reached behind her back and unclipped her bra but left it for me to take off. I was so hard kneeling there next to her undressing her.
We have returned to our former schedule for sex now that we have returned to using condoms. This weekend will be our first time starting to use them again.
It was as she raised her butt and I started to slide the panties off her that she began to talk and tease me. She again told me how happy he was to see her when she got there and that he has now told her that she is to continue as she has and to get undressed when she got there only this time she said he came into his bedroom and watched her. She asked him if this was something new and he said yes, that he wanted to watch her from now on. She didn't say it but I could tell from how she was telling me that she liked his efforts at taking more control with her.
Her panties were quite damp and wet in the center and as she lay back and let me spread her legs apart, it was incredibly erotic to see her pussy lips appearing to be stuck together towards the top, but open at the bottom and now, as she lay back again, a thick dribble of cum appeared. She got up on her elbows and talked to me as I moved in closer. She told me how he'd made her ".... feel so good baby, you know, just before I felt him and I knew he was almost ready...". That was all I needed - I leaned forward and I held the backs of her thighs and gently pushed them back. Her pussy lips stuck together for a second longer and then so erotically began to separate and reveal everything. I stared for just a moment before I leaned forward and began to lick every little bit of her that I could get to. She cooed and teased me to "get it all baby" and something about it being thick but a lot of what she said was muffled by the slurpy noises that I was hearing as I licked away at her. It took a few moments before I realized she wasn't going to stop me and I licked her to a mild orgasm. She was still lying back but reached forward and pushed my head back after she'd come down a bit and said it was too much and she needed a break.
She was surprised when I moved back on my knees and started to stroke myself while looking down at her explicitly posed body in front of me. She giggled and told me to enjoy myself and she began to play with her pussy. I love watching her but this was even better as there was apparently still more semen in her that she seemed to bring out and play with. I didn't need much more after that before I came all over her thigh and my hand and my own leg. So I am quite well drained this morning for sure.
I guess I will try to share what she says is her side of all of this.
She said that my "coming out" to her about my beta desires and what I told her I wanted, even though we backed away from it, that she said was when she began to think more about all of this. But it was that she also said that it was one of the first times when she saw that this gave me some satisfaction that I had been looking for. As she put it "there was just a change in you". I agreed with her. She continued that she realized that I trusted her and that I wasn't going to lose her by letting what she calls "your true self" come out.
Now as I said this was spread over a few different days. We were talking about the condom usage. As I said, it's something that has become easier to talk about. She asked me as I may have mentioned, whether I did want to go back to using them. It led to her again talking to me about trying to express my thoughts about how it made me feel and I simply told her that it just felt good to be denied that with her. I told her that it made me feel good to give that up and as I'd said many times, the arousal I feel from doing that - knowing what I am doing - in a way feels better than actually cumming in her. She giggled and said that it turned her on in ways that she too finds it hard to explain. But for the first time that I could really remember she did talk more openly. She told me that as a woman, it made her feel amazingly empowered to deny her husband the most intimate part of sex. I told her that she sounded like me and she giggled and said that she hadn't always felt this way but that even early on when she was seeing Don - she says she recalls that I gave in very easily to denial-play back then. I asked her what she remembered and she said that while I said I hated it, that I always seemed okay about it nonetheless.
Without much warning she turned and said to me that she hoped that maybe for New Years, with my new attitude (and later what she revealed about my getting myself upset), that maybe we could retry going for more denial. As I had said here - I did ask her if that was what she wanted and she said yes. I asked her if she wanted it because I did or because she did. She said that it will always be because I want it, or rather as she put it, that I go along with it. The changes that Paul is trying to make for her is another thing she mentioned that is making her want to explore more with him too. I told her that I knew that but as we talked I also began to realize just how long ago she probably started coaching him. So I came out and asked her how long she's been thinking about this and she said it's been a while now. She again said how when I came out that she began to think and she actually said to me "I asked myself how could I enjoy this more for him". She said it was hard at first - as I shared long ago - she said that it was very hard for her to make herself look to him for her sexual desires. But at the same time she knew how it was turning me on.
I've used the term 2 sides of the same coin. It was Sue who said it to me about how she felt about my not having to feel shy about my desires - when she said that she wanted to fulfill my desires, she began to think about how she could do that - and just as she said she would always love me regardless of my fetishes - that she began to think about the other side of that coin. She told me she thought about how it would be to truly fulfill all of that - how could she enjoy her side of the coin (my words but her sentiment). All she could say was that she has come to appreciate the way it makes both of us feel and that just as I want to see how it feels to go further down the rabbit hole (my words again) - that she has taken a fancy to the thoughts of the opposite actions.
I told her that it scared me that she wanted to go into this again but with no specific time period. I told her what I'd long shared here - that after a while of her being exclusively with Paul, that it seemed to get to me. And that's when she asked me why "it gets to you?" and she pointed out all that I'd posted earlier - about how she does more with him (referring to the ski weekends specifically) when she went on the golf-weekend with him that time as well as other times when they'd had more time together. She made me think about it and my only answer was that I perhaps felt jealous after a period of time. She looked at me and asked me "or is it more that you start to get scared about how much it is with Paul?".
As I'd mentioned already, it made me think and as we talked more I began to agree with her. She asked me if the thought of not having sex with her for perhaps an extended period of time was scary for me to think or talk about. I told her no, and admitted that I had a level of arousal thinking about it. She giggled for a moment but then asked me what changes to when it starts to feel like too much. And to be honest, I wound up agreeing with her because it sort of made sense to me.
So I asked her again, so why the desire to resume all this on her part. She smiled and said she would admit it. When she began to think about our beta-talk and all that's gone on since she said that it awakened something she hadn't felt for a few years. Her own desire to feel more sexually devoted to him. Not the full-blown-affair thing as she openly admitted that she doesn't want to fall for him emotionally. But she said "since you opened the door, it's something I've wanted to try". And as she talked, she basically said she would like to take me up on the things I told her a few years back now when I revealed my beta-desires to her - and more so that she told me "I think we can make it work for longer this time".
LOL - she also said we aren't getting any younger!
I'm sure my trying to type this up before work this morning didn't help make sure I got everything clear as I don't have time to re-read and worry about rewording something.
She lay down on the bed and I helped her wriggle out of her jeans and then her top leaving her lying in just her bra and panties. I told her it turned me on that she was wearing this when she was with him just a little while earlier. She giggled and said that I was so easy to get turned on and horny. She reached behind her back and unclipped her bra but left it for me to take off. I was so hard kneeling there next to her undressing her.
We have returned to our former schedule for sex now that we have returned to using condoms. This weekend will be our first time starting to use them again.
It was as she raised her butt and I started to slide the panties off her that she began to talk and tease me. She again told me how happy he was to see her when she got there and that he has now told her that she is to continue as she has and to get undressed when she got there only this time she said he came into his bedroom and watched her. She asked him if this was something new and he said yes, that he wanted to watch her from now on. She didn't say it but I could tell from how she was telling me that she liked his efforts at taking more control with her.
Her panties were quite damp and wet in the center and as she lay back and let me spread her legs apart, it was incredibly erotic to see her pussy lips appearing to be stuck together towards the top, but open at the bottom and now, as she lay back again, a thick dribble of cum appeared. She got up on her elbows and talked to me as I moved in closer. She told me how he'd made her ".... feel so good baby, you know, just before I felt him and I knew he was almost ready...". That was all I needed - I leaned forward and I held the backs of her thighs and gently pushed them back. Her pussy lips stuck together for a second longer and then so erotically began to separate and reveal everything. I stared for just a moment before I leaned forward and began to lick every little bit of her that I could get to. She cooed and teased me to "get it all baby" and something about it being thick but a lot of what she said was muffled by the slurpy noises that I was hearing as I licked away at her. It took a few moments before I realized she wasn't going to stop me and I licked her to a mild orgasm. She was still lying back but reached forward and pushed my head back after she'd come down a bit and said it was too much and she needed a break.
She was surprised when I moved back on my knees and started to stroke myself while looking down at her explicitly posed body in front of me. She giggled and told me to enjoy myself and she began to play with her pussy. I love watching her but this was even better as there was apparently still more semen in her that she seemed to bring out and play with. I didn't need much more after that before I came all over her thigh and my hand and my own leg. So I am quite well drained this morning for sure.
I guess I will try to share what she says is her side of all of this.
She said that my "coming out" to her about my beta desires and what I told her I wanted, even though we backed away from it, that she said was when she began to think more about all of this. But it was that she also said that it was one of the first times when she saw that this gave me some satisfaction that I had been looking for. As she put it "there was just a change in you". I agreed with her. She continued that she realized that I trusted her and that I wasn't going to lose her by letting what she calls "your true self" come out.
Now as I said this was spread over a few different days. We were talking about the condom usage. As I said, it's something that has become easier to talk about. She asked me as I may have mentioned, whether I did want to go back to using them. It led to her again talking to me about trying to express my thoughts about how it made me feel and I simply told her that it just felt good to be denied that with her. I told her that it made me feel good to give that up and as I'd said many times, the arousal I feel from doing that - knowing what I am doing - in a way feels better than actually cumming in her. She giggled and said that it turned her on in ways that she too finds it hard to explain. But for the first time that I could really remember she did talk more openly. She told me that as a woman, it made her feel amazingly empowered to deny her husband the most intimate part of sex. I told her that she sounded like me and she giggled and said that she hadn't always felt this way but that even early on when she was seeing Don - she says she recalls that I gave in very easily to denial-play back then. I asked her what she remembered and she said that while I said I hated it, that I always seemed okay about it nonetheless.
Without much warning she turned and said to me that she hoped that maybe for New Years, with my new attitude (and later what she revealed about my getting myself upset), that maybe we could retry going for more denial. As I had said here - I did ask her if that was what she wanted and she said yes. I asked her if she wanted it because I did or because she did. She said that it will always be because I want it, or rather as she put it, that I go along with it. The changes that Paul is trying to make for her is another thing she mentioned that is making her want to explore more with him too. I told her that I knew that but as we talked I also began to realize just how long ago she probably started coaching him. So I came out and asked her how long she's been thinking about this and she said it's been a while now. She again said how when I came out that she began to think and she actually said to me "I asked myself how could I enjoy this more for him". She said it was hard at first - as I shared long ago - she said that it was very hard for her to make herself look to him for her sexual desires. But at the same time she knew how it was turning me on.
I've used the term 2 sides of the same coin. It was Sue who said it to me about how she felt about my not having to feel shy about my desires - when she said that she wanted to fulfill my desires, she began to think about how she could do that - and just as she said she would always love me regardless of my fetishes - that she began to think about the other side of that coin. She told me she thought about how it would be to truly fulfill all of that - how could she enjoy her side of the coin (my words but her sentiment). All she could say was that she has come to appreciate the way it makes both of us feel and that just as I want to see how it feels to go further down the rabbit hole (my words again) - that she has taken a fancy to the thoughts of the opposite actions.
I told her that it scared me that she wanted to go into this again but with no specific time period. I told her what I'd long shared here - that after a while of her being exclusively with Paul, that it seemed to get to me. And that's when she asked me why "it gets to you?" and she pointed out all that I'd posted earlier - about how she does more with him (referring to the ski weekends specifically) when she went on the golf-weekend with him that time as well as other times when they'd had more time together. She made me think about it and my only answer was that I perhaps felt jealous after a period of time. She looked at me and asked me "or is it more that you start to get scared about how much it is with Paul?".
As I'd mentioned already, it made me think and as we talked more I began to agree with her. She asked me if the thought of not having sex with her for perhaps an extended period of time was scary for me to think or talk about. I told her no, and admitted that I had a level of arousal thinking about it. She giggled for a moment but then asked me what changes to when it starts to feel like too much. And to be honest, I wound up agreeing with her because it sort of made sense to me.
So I asked her again, so why the desire to resume all this on her part. She smiled and said she would admit it. When she began to think about our beta-talk and all that's gone on since she said that it awakened something she hadn't felt for a few years. Her own desire to feel more sexually devoted to him. Not the full-blown-affair thing as she openly admitted that she doesn't want to fall for him emotionally. But she said "since you opened the door, it's something I've wanted to try". And as she talked, she basically said she would like to take me up on the things I told her a few years back now when I revealed my beta-desires to her - and more so that she told me "I think we can make it work for longer this time".
LOL - she also said we aren't getting any younger!
I'm sure my trying to type this up before work this morning didn't help make sure I got everything clear as I don't have time to re-read and worry about rewording something.
