She Is His

[SoonToBe]

I feel very conflicted right now as I"m dealing with work here and she's likely out by a pool right now (or in bed with him).

A part of me is hugely turned on - I won't lie about that part as everyone knows. But her absence and knowing where she is, plays on my mind continually right now. I know it's nothing to be concerned about - again, it's not like she's running off with him or never coming home - but that she is going to truly be his all weekend is something that continues to sort of gnaw at me at times.

Still, knowing she's just a text-message away makes it a little easier. I teased her that she should send me a selfie. We'll see if she does it.

 

[BigdaddyToronto]

I feel very conflicted right now as I"m dealing with work here and she's likely out by a pool right now (or in bed with him).

A part of me is hugely turned on - I won't lie about that part as everyone knows. But her absence and knowing where she is, plays on my mind continually right now. I know it's nothing to be concerned about - again, it's not like she's running off with him or never coming home - but that she is going to truly be his all weekend is something that continues to sort of gnaw at me at times.

Still, knowing she's just a text-message away makes it a little easier. I teased her that she should send me a selfie. We'll see if she does it.

"conflicted"...like jealous or resentful?
its interesting that you desire a selfie...for many, that would be like twisting the knife. but in your situation, it seems to be a way for you to be included in her adventures.

 

[dutch12]

Mmm, long time reader that joined the site only this morning but no matter, you make some interesting observations wocka.

Peak, your remark to Wocka about being a long time reader is just guessing. (No pun intended). After reading several threads from Soon To Be on Ourhotwives, I did read ALL threads by Steve on Slutwives from the beginning, June 2007. It took me weeks to do so. I did get the same remark from somebody on this forum, after I became a member some years ago.
To read threads you don't have to be a member at all (just lurking)!
To comment or take part in the discussion you have to be a member. So, I welcome Wocka. He isn't spamming, just giving his opinion. A fresh wind is always a good thing. This shows Steve's journey is still alive.

 

[peakmb]

Steve,
Surely part of the conflict is that ideally for Sue she could spend five days essentially behaving as if you don't exist, never thinking or contacting you and focusing only on Paul and his group. For you, it might be ideal to have a camera in the room beaming in all the activity and having Sue deliver a running commentary. The problem is, if Sue thinks she has to 'deal with' you too much she might think she hasn't got what she wants from the weekend and want to do it again until she does.

 

[BigdaddyToronto]

Steve,
Surely part of the conflict is that ideally for Sue she could spend five days essentially behaving as if you don't exist, never thinking or contacting you and focusing only on Paul and his group. For you, it might be ideal to have a camera in the room beaming in all the activity and having Sue deliver a running commentary. The problem is, if Sue thinks she has to 'deal with' you too much she might think she hasn't got what she wants from the weekend and want to do it again until she does.

I agree with this. this trip is her realizing her fantasy of "playing wife" with Paul...inside and outside of the bedroom.

 

[SquirmingSub]

Sue has gone similar trips in the past although not when her relationship with Steve was at the level it is. So this extended weekend will indeed be interesting.

 

[ShadowCuck]

Curt,

Is another chapter of Journal coming soon? I want to get caught up, and I can’t find any material between Book Twelve and this thread!

 

[SoonToBe]

Well, I thought maybe a few beers and I'd sleep but no. That's not happening. I don't think I can cum any more either right now and so the other half of that ambien awaits now that a few hours have gone by.

But her thoughts are not totally on him - we talked, briefly but we talked, earlier and she told me she'd had a 'fun day' and that his buddies started to arrive late this afternoon. She said she missed me and that was that. I did text her a 'good night' and she texted me back "luv u 2 xoxox" so that was also nice.

Right now though, I guess it's that I miss her - that and thinking of her lying there next to him asleep is also keeping me very awake.
I knew tonight would be the longest of them.

 

[BigdaddyToronto]

Well, I thought maybe a few beers and I'd sleep but no. That's not happening. I don't think I can cum any more either right now and so the other half of that ambien awaits now that a few hours have gone by.

But her thoughts are not totally on him - we talked, briefly but we talked, earlier and she told me she'd had a 'fun day' and that his buddies started to arrive late this afternoon. She said she missed me and that was that. I did text her a 'good night' and she texted me back "luv u 2 xoxox" so that was also nice.

Right now though, I guess it's that I miss her - that and thinking of her lying there next to him asleep is also keeping me very awake.
I knew tonight would be the longest of them.

well, theres a good chance she isn't asleep either

 

[SoonToBe]

I finally fell asleep about 3am. Even then it still feels so weird with her not here for so many days now.

I heard from her just a little while ago. Paul's out golfing and she sent me a smiley and said she was "having lunch with the other golf widows" and another smiley. I told her I hope she's having a good time to which she sent back a smiley. I was tempted to send her back a question of "how many so far" but I didn't.

 

[far2easy]

her sitting there with her wet panties talkkng to the other girls, so sexy!

 

[Bdsub]

I've found that having my hotwife cage me before her trips with her lovers makes things go much more smoothly. I stay at a heightened level of arousal. Anxiousness has no room to enter into my horny mind set

 

[peakmb]

Ha! You're going to get far2 going again with that one bdsub! Not going to happen though.

 

[SoonToBe]

Well, he's out on the links already and she just called me. I thought she sounded funny and she giggled and said she's still lying naked in bed there and that she thought I'd like knowing that. I moaned in response and she giggled. We talked for about 10 minutes or so and she knew I was getting hornier and hornier. She asked me how many times I've masturbated thinking about her and I just told her that I'd lost count and that my cock is sore! I asked her "how many for you" and she giggled and said "this morning was 9" and she told me again how she is his "good luck fuck" in the morning and how it seems whenever he can have a quickie with her in the morning that his golf-game goes really well. I wanted to talk about more but at the same time I just couldn't.

One more night.

 

[far2easy]

I've found that having my hotwife cage me before her trips with her lovers makes things go much more smoothly. I stay at a heightened level of arousal. Anxiousness has no room to enter into my horny mind set

He’s right btw Peak! LOL

 

[SoonToBe]

I am trying to stay sane here for this last day but it is really getting to me. It's hot outside here and I know she's likely lying around the pool there. I am also skeptical about 9 times. I don't think I could cum that much even when I was a teenager, but it surely hasn't left my mind right now either. But then again, away for this long. A part of me isn't surprised at all. If this is what I think it is, for her, I think she wants as much as she can get.

Just 24 hours left. I wouldn't have thought I'd say this but I am feeling a desire for her that I haven't had ( or let myself have ) now in a while.

 

[peakmb]

I'm sure a moment of quiet reflection would tell you that many others are and you yourself could be in a far worse position. Particularly as you knew it was coming (sorry), and you agreed to it all. I do believe it is also part of Sue's plan to get you back to really wanting her, as opposed to merely acquesing to her desires for sex of some sort with her. Even if that doesn't come about (sorry again) for some time, you need to remember your current feeling of raw desire. Think not of what Sue can do for you but what you can do for your wife.

I still believe that Sue's return will be in part a painful readjustment for her. However much she loves you, currently you are just not desirable to her, nor do you act like you desire her. After she comes out of her decompression chamber you need to find a way to show that desire without trying to force the issue. Not easy but I'm sure you'll find a way..

 

[Enigma632]

... However much she loves you, currently you are just not desirable to her,

@peakmb Got to say that I (partly) disagree with this bit. For me Steve's Fathers day treat went from being a two second test to love making because Sue still desires him as her husband.

Yes, 99% of her sexual satisfaction is from Paul, but she clearly derives satisfaction from getting helping Steve get-off on a Wednesday evening and this must be from some level of desire for Steve, I don't think that it's all from mercy

 

[peakmb]

Enigma,
You are right and I probably didn't word it well. Sue does desire Steve, but it is the Steve that desires her, not the Steve that desires denial that she wants to see in the future. For now in her extremis Paul phase it is convenient for her is Steve acts the way he does. What her test showed was that he still had it in him, but that it was almost as if he made love to her against his will. As if he didn't truly need it / desire it in his bones. That is what she is trying to switch on again, that is why after she said it was 'too early'. The conflict in my view is that Sue does not desire the Steve that Steve currently desires to be.

 

[SoonToBe]

Well, I can't seem to fall asleep so I thought I'd reply to the last post. I think you have part of it. But that part has always been easy for her to go back to - all she needs to do is signal that she wants me and I"m all at her beckon call. Do I feel the need to drag her into the bedroom when she returns home and "reclaim her" - absolutely not. Plus, I am quite sure she will not want anything sexual for days and I'd be surprised if I were wrong.

I've been thinking about a lot of stuff tonight not sleeping. Those 9 times - I"m sure he didn't/couldn't cum in her that many times but I"m sure he fucked her that many times. It still surprises me at how that turns me on, that he's had her that much - that her body has been his now for so long.

Did I want to make love to her last weekend - yes and no. No for the main reason that I didn't want to mess her up either before she was going with him or in general. But yes - my god - feeling her creamy soft and wet pussy - even through the condom - it was heavenly.

The thing is, I really do understand her. If she's gotten out of this trip what I think she is wanting, she is going to want to bask and enjoy these next few days - yes, I'll say it, feeling herself ache. My god it's what she used to talk about sometimes after we'd have gone away a weekend when we were just starting to date, that she liked that she could feel me afterwards. I hadn't really thought it might be feeling me physically vs. feeling my cum (or his) in her? Its weird where my mind goes at night when I'm tired and can't sleep.

But the thing for me that I feel from this weekend, in addition to my cock feeling sore from my right hand, is that it really tweaks the denial need in me. I still feel such a need for that with her and between us. So if your view of our future is that our sex returns and is passionate at times but limited at others, I would guess that isn't too far off. It might work for me.

Anyway- my writing is starting to ramble and I do feel a yawn at times. One thing - I do miss her - the nightly "I love you" we exchange does ease the sting a bit.