For Dana - our kids will both be home either late on Sunday or on Monday. They both are allowed to stay in the dorms till then and with most of their friends finishing finals this week, we know that this will be a party-weekend there. Good for them, enjoy the time when you're young as Sue and I would say.
She did see Paul last night and again came home earlier than expected. And yes, without sharing all of the details, we followed our Wednesday ritual. I wont' share details because - well - while it is continually exciting to me to regale about how turned on I was seeing her take her clothes off and show herself to me - I am thinking that I likely write the same things week after week and with having less time this morning I'll simply say that she looked radiant last night and she had no qualms about letting me see all of her including where Paul left 2 loads of his cum inside her. She encouraged me to masturbate while I watched her finger and rub her pussy as she told me what she has many times now, to just stay on the outside and not suck at her vagina too much. Even I could feel my cock respond as she said that. I didn't last too long and in the end she cooed in my ear that she loves sharing what she does with Paul with me.
What I can share that we've talked about touches on what Golf asked about and what others have also asked about. Essentially what we've started to talk about is about either of us having more desires and whether we would continue "exploring". In a nutshell, she asked me about whether I still had desires for more or different kind of denial or other things. I had to admit to her that it was hard for me to talk about but that with us feeling like we are and where she's said that it's okay, I told her that I would only want more if it was also what she wanted as my arousal continues to come from her being the one to want more sexually. She asked me how I felt that she might want more sexually with Paul and not with me and I told her that was part of what turned me on - but I also emphasized that she and I still needed to have some kind of sexual interaction. As we talked she was the one who asked me if "Wednesday's were okay?" and when I said that they were but not as something that I could see as all we have forever she laughed and said that "nothing is forever" and that no matter what she still wants me as her husband and partner.
Now those aren't all of the exact words nor all of the conversation so all the gloom-and-doomer's here don't jump all over that. What our conversation included was that she admitted she was feeling more desire for Paul. Clearly not in an emotional way - as I said - that's one thing I didn't feel threatened about at all even with their naked-chase - was that I never felt or heard or we ******* to any time when I thought they were perhaps too emotionally close. Yes, hugging and kissing before/during/after sex which is strange to say that I am somewhat used to now, but I didn't see (and I was looking) any clandestine longing glances or furtive moves, etc. No, they just seem like 2 close friends who fuck the heck out of each other. But she did say that at times she would like to feel more with him - and again she mentioned that sometimes when she goes from him to me and back to him, that she feels somewhat self-conscious and not liking how she feels. So the conversation did go towards her perhaps being more exclusive with him again - perhaps not as rigidly as our earlier playing with this but she did say that she would like it if, sometimes, he were the only one she was having sex with for a while. When I asked "how long is a while" she wasn't descriptive at first until I asked her again and she just said "maybe a week or two or three".
This obviously led to a bit of a bigger discussion where I told her and admited that for whatever reason, this just turned me on like crazy. But at the same time, we both said that we knew it was playing with fire. From her perspective, she was much more concerned about how i was going to feel if she wanted to deny me more at times and whether that was or wasn't going to work for me. In return I told her that I was concerned about her getting more emotionally connected with Paul as a result of all of this. Her response to me was very honest. She said that while she isn't "falling in love with him romantically" she is feeling more physical desire for him and she said she hoped that didn't upset me too much to hear that she is really really enjoying sex - and "all the fun" that goes with it. She said she thinks it's a bit of a phase she's going through as she's started to feel more of this recently. I told her I could tell and she again apologized for being so in-my-face about it but I told her in return what I said above, that it did turn me on. And that clearly led to us talking about the ski-weekends and she was pretty clear that if they're together that they are going to be playful and that I should tell her if I wasn't going to be okay with it. She did say that she didn't expect to be running around the condo naked all the time but at the same time she wanted to know from me whether I was going to be okay with it and also that there would likely be no sexual contact with me. I told her that was okay and asked her about when we would go away alone together and she turned to me and said "then it'd be just like it always is with you and me having our fun together".
What I wanted to close with for now is that in our talking about more denial and all of that was that we were both very open and honest with each other. As she'd said, she expects to want some periods of more exclusive time with Paul and as we talked we both sort of agreed that the way we both feel, that this might continue to grow. But - to answer one of Golf's (and I guess everyone's other than me) question about limits - both of us immediately said that nothing can come between us and that if either of us ever felt like things were being jeopardized - that if either of us felt that way that we both agreed we would stop and talk and re-evaluate. Of course the flip side of that was that we agreed that talking about the future didn't do either of us any good and that we both agreed that like it's worked so well for us in the past - that if we continue to talk openly about what's going on - that when the time comes and her or my desires rise in certain areas, it will likely be something that seems comfortable at the time instead of awkward at trying to talk it out ahead of time. What I told her was that if she felt the need/desire to come to me to ask me for something more or different, that it'd probably be something that we were already moving towards and that I would feel more comfortable about it seeing her wanting it then than trying to talk about it now.
All in all - it felt really good the way we talked and what we said. I got the feeling that she is a little reluctant to let herself go more with Paul and enjoy him more. Although I cringe at the thought in some ways, it also turns me on in others as I know there are sexual things that Sue enjoys that she doesn't seem to have shared or enjoyed with Paul just yet - I haven't heard of any bondage play, no spankings or similar - and while Sue's not into (and likely never will be) anal sex - I know that when we are together and it's a time for us (not her giving in and letting me have her) that she enjoys me fingering and playing with and even pushing a finger into her ass. In the year-plus I've seen them together, other than a playful swat on her butt, i've not seen any of this shared with him yet. Will this happen in year-2 of their relationship? Not sure - but this is the longest I've seen her happy and content with another guy.
Gotta run.
She did see Paul last night and again came home earlier than expected. And yes, without sharing all of the details, we followed our Wednesday ritual. I wont' share details because - well - while it is continually exciting to me to regale about how turned on I was seeing her take her clothes off and show herself to me - I am thinking that I likely write the same things week after week and with having less time this morning I'll simply say that she looked radiant last night and she had no qualms about letting me see all of her including where Paul left 2 loads of his cum inside her. She encouraged me to masturbate while I watched her finger and rub her pussy as she told me what she has many times now, to just stay on the outside and not suck at her vagina too much. Even I could feel my cock respond as she said that. I didn't last too long and in the end she cooed in my ear that she loves sharing what she does with Paul with me.
What I can share that we've talked about touches on what Golf asked about and what others have also asked about. Essentially what we've started to talk about is about either of us having more desires and whether we would continue "exploring". In a nutshell, she asked me about whether I still had desires for more or different kind of denial or other things. I had to admit to her that it was hard for me to talk about but that with us feeling like we are and where she's said that it's okay, I told her that I would only want more if it was also what she wanted as my arousal continues to come from her being the one to want more sexually. She asked me how I felt that she might want more sexually with Paul and not with me and I told her that was part of what turned me on - but I also emphasized that she and I still needed to have some kind of sexual interaction. As we talked she was the one who asked me if "Wednesday's were okay?" and when I said that they were but not as something that I could see as all we have forever she laughed and said that "nothing is forever" and that no matter what she still wants me as her husband and partner.
Now those aren't all of the exact words nor all of the conversation so all the gloom-and-doomer's here don't jump all over that. What our conversation included was that she admitted she was feeling more desire for Paul. Clearly not in an emotional way - as I said - that's one thing I didn't feel threatened about at all even with their naked-chase - was that I never felt or heard or we ******* to any time when I thought they were perhaps too emotionally close. Yes, hugging and kissing before/during/after sex which is strange to say that I am somewhat used to now, but I didn't see (and I was looking) any clandestine longing glances or furtive moves, etc. No, they just seem like 2 close friends who fuck the heck out of each other. But she did say that at times she would like to feel more with him - and again she mentioned that sometimes when she goes from him to me and back to him, that she feels somewhat self-conscious and not liking how she feels. So the conversation did go towards her perhaps being more exclusive with him again - perhaps not as rigidly as our earlier playing with this but she did say that she would like it if, sometimes, he were the only one she was having sex with for a while. When I asked "how long is a while" she wasn't descriptive at first until I asked her again and she just said "maybe a week or two or three".
This obviously led to a bit of a bigger discussion where I told her and admited that for whatever reason, this just turned me on like crazy. But at the same time, we both said that we knew it was playing with fire. From her perspective, she was much more concerned about how i was going to feel if she wanted to deny me more at times and whether that was or wasn't going to work for me. In return I told her that I was concerned about her getting more emotionally connected with Paul as a result of all of this. Her response to me was very honest. She said that while she isn't "falling in love with him romantically" she is feeling more physical desire for him and she said she hoped that didn't upset me too much to hear that she is really really enjoying sex - and "all the fun" that goes with it. She said she thinks it's a bit of a phase she's going through as she's started to feel more of this recently. I told her I could tell and she again apologized for being so in-my-face about it but I told her in return what I said above, that it did turn me on. And that clearly led to us talking about the ski-weekends and she was pretty clear that if they're together that they are going to be playful and that I should tell her if I wasn't going to be okay with it. She did say that she didn't expect to be running around the condo naked all the time but at the same time she wanted to know from me whether I was going to be okay with it and also that there would likely be no sexual contact with me. I told her that was okay and asked her about when we would go away alone together and she turned to me and said "then it'd be just like it always is with you and me having our fun together".
What I wanted to close with for now is that in our talking about more denial and all of that was that we were both very open and honest with each other. As she'd said, she expects to want some periods of more exclusive time with Paul and as we talked we both sort of agreed that the way we both feel, that this might continue to grow. But - to answer one of Golf's (and I guess everyone's other than me) question about limits - both of us immediately said that nothing can come between us and that if either of us ever felt like things were being jeopardized - that if either of us felt that way that we both agreed we would stop and talk and re-evaluate. Of course the flip side of that was that we agreed that talking about the future didn't do either of us any good and that we both agreed that like it's worked so well for us in the past - that if we continue to talk openly about what's going on - that when the time comes and her or my desires rise in certain areas, it will likely be something that seems comfortable at the time instead of awkward at trying to talk it out ahead of time. What I told her was that if she felt the need/desire to come to me to ask me for something more or different, that it'd probably be something that we were already moving towards and that I would feel more comfortable about it seeing her wanting it then than trying to talk about it now.
All in all - it felt really good the way we talked and what we said. I got the feeling that she is a little reluctant to let herself go more with Paul and enjoy him more. Although I cringe at the thought in some ways, it also turns me on in others as I know there are sexual things that Sue enjoys that she doesn't seem to have shared or enjoyed with Paul just yet - I haven't heard of any bondage play, no spankings or similar - and while Sue's not into (and likely never will be) anal sex - I know that when we are together and it's a time for us (not her giving in and letting me have her) that she enjoys me fingering and playing with and even pushing a finger into her ass. In the year-plus I've seen them together, other than a playful swat on her butt, i've not seen any of this shared with him yet. Will this happen in year-2 of their relationship? Not sure - but this is the longest I've seen her happy and content with another guy.
Gotta run.
