As I expected, last night was more revealing as well as pushing things further along.
It was actually quite interesting as she was very taken by the enjoyment she's beginning to really feel as relates to me. She said that she could totally understand the way I felt wanting her so and how that makes me feel about her when I let the two of them have their time together and she knew I was patiently waiting for her. She actually said that the way I was when we finally had sex late Saturday night was something she recognized about me and how even before we started to fuck, not just how horny I was, but how I acted towards her - she knew that I wanted her to signal what we would do together, whether we'd fuck, if I'd jerk-off or if I'd wait till Sunday morning to have her. As many here have pointed out, she is enjoying the control for sure but she's also seeing the way it turns me on and she knows it. She said that she felt more certain in how she dealt with me at times and more so, she said she says she's continuing to learn what turns me on when she's teasing.
There was no doubt that she wanted to watch me last night and I was eager to let her. I stripped naked for her (she smiled and said she liked seeing all of me) instead of just sliding my boxers down and I let her watch me stroke slowly as we just talked. I loved seeing her eyes wander down to my cock from time to time and see the look in them. She asked me how I'd felt about the last weekend with Paul and she told me that she was really feeling comfortable with him. Before I could say anything she said "I know it made you horny that I had just your shirt on, didn't it baby?". When I nodded she told me again how that it is when she goes over Paul's place (just as with all her earlier bf's too - but I didn't say that) and she gushed about how it makes her feel so sexy to know that she's naked beneath my loose shirt and that she is so horny for her lover. I said that Paul seemed surprised at first and she giggled and said that she'd told him she was going to do it and that he didn't believe her. She looked at me and said "I thought it might make it easier for you to talk to him" to which I told her that it did and she smiled at that.
The conversation flowed easily. I told her that it really turned me on that she would be so comfortable with Paul and that after I got past the 'shock' of it, that I found it incredibly arousing too. She asked me how I was going to feel about it when I wasn't going to have her as much and whether it would still be okay. I started to answer her when she continued and said that she really wanted to know whether I was going to be okay in general once I started to use condoms again with her. As I went back to answering she added "....because, well, you know that I'm not going to want you as much then, you know, with Paul being my alpha man..." and she smiled at me. I stopped talking and she said "what? you knew that was going to happen baby...." and she went on to tell me again how "yeah, I'll still probably cum with you sometimes" but she added again that once Paul assumes the alpha-role and I am using condoms with her, she came out and said again that she will always want me to feel good and connect with her sexually but that it really will be much more for me that she's having sex with me. She saw a concerned look on my face and she said to me "baby, it was good for you when I was with Robert, right?" I didn't tell her that actually being there and seeing her so totally giving herself to Paul was a bit more difficult than knowing but not seeing as it was with Robert - and I didn't tell her that now I had some misgivings about Robert actually seeing how she is. But I guess I had a look on my face because she said "well, it was.". And she proceeded to tell me that she loved having sex with me when I was using condoms with her but that she got more enjoyment by knowing it was something that really turned me on. She said it didn't matter whether she felt pleasure from knowing it made me feel good or from directly receiving it herself ( and she admitted that maybe it was something played up in her head too), but that it didn't matter to her and that it shouldn't matter to me and that it was still us having sex in one way or another.
She was very complimentary on how I was when Paul was over and she asked me how I felt having to wait for her and she giggled and added "while still hearing us" and then she added "and you spying on us too!". Just as she's repeated so much to me over time, it was my time to say the same back to her. I told her as I had before that I thought Paul was a good match for her and she smiled broadly when I told her that I felt good about him being her boyfriend to which she added "and more?" which made me laugh with her for a second to which I replied "yes...". She asked me to tell her more and I did, I told her how I loved hearing her cry out at times and that having seen them together made it more exciting for me because I could put all sorts of images in my head, she giggled and said "I can only imagine what you must think about". Which made me laugh out loud and I said "me - what about you? ..... what about that bombshell you landed on me last week?".
Well, that led to about 20 minutes of pretty crazy intense talk. She told me that the whole thing about her having another baby was something that was in her head and turned her on to think about. She asked me "is that so bad?" and she told me that it's something she enjoys fantasizing about and that she's admitted to thinking about it when she has sex with me, Paul, etc., going back to Robert when she admits that she became more comfortable playing with the fantasy. She looked at me and said "that was something big for me, to learn to enjoy fantasies like that....". I told her that it excited me too and in a similar way, that I didn't know if it would have really happened but that it did turn me on to think about. She giggled and said "kind of exciting to think about this swelling from another man" and she rubbed her belly. Then she leaned over to me and said "does it turn you on to think about me giving that to another guy? to make a baby in me?" and before I could answer she swooned that "it makes me wet to think about it". When I groaned back and said that it did and that I thought it would have been crazy to see her give birth to another mans baby she moaned back that she couldn't ever let herself enjoy this kind of fantasy before and she turned to me and said "but you did, didn't you?". I nodded and she said that men were weird that way, but that she was understanding it more and more. She looked at me and said "you know what else turns me on" and when I shook my head no she said "I couldn't ever let myself think of it before ...." and she waited a second and then said "... you know, going to a party..... and..." she said hesitatingly and then blurted out "doing it with lots of guys". My eyes widened and despite my suddenly dry mouth I said something like "you mean a gangbang?" she blushed a million shades of red and her neck and chest turned bright red as I knew that was what she meant. I took her hand and I said in a soft voice to her "you'd be beautiful". She threw her arms around me and said that she loved me and loved that she could tell me something like that much less think it to herself. I asked her if she thought about that "you know.... when you're.... doing it". She giggled and said "might as well just say it... yes, oh god yes.... sometimes it's the thought that makes me let go...". She pulled away from me and looked me in the eye and said "are you okay with this?" with this concerned look on her face and in her voice. I touched her face and said "do you see this" and pointed to my cock which was still rock hard and throbbing there without my even touching or stroking it for the past few minutes. I told her that I loved that she had a "dirty mind" and that she was finally not ashamed to let it out.
I didn't tell her that I thought she had the same sort of epiphany feeling that I did in my admission about wanting to let Paul be the alpha-male for her, that finally accepting that it is what it is and that it does turn you on is okay.
She giggled and said "see, that ski-trip fantasy of yours turned out to be something that now sounds hot to me" to which she added "don't get your hopes up, it's just a fantasy". I didn't say it but I thought it "for now" as I lay back onto the bed and started to stroke again. She giggled and said "how did that go?" and then said "oh yeah....." and she proceeded to give me her version of the fantasy. Of course her version had less guys and was a bit less graphic and extreme, nonetheless, she spared little detail about how she felt she would be sharing herself with "two hunky college guys in the next unit". It was obvious that just as I knew my version chapter and verse (which I'd shared with her long ago) but she had hers including telling me how she thought about being with both of them at the same time that really got to me. Of course she didn't describe it in the way I would have, but her viewpoint was just as beautiful of how she felt being pleasured and filled repeatedly "all weekend by two young studs". I filled in the visual details where she lacked - while she gushed about how they'd feel inside her and how she'd scream with them - yes, my visual was of each of them fucking her and leaving her gaping and dripping in between and when they were done.
What I hadn't noticed was that as I was about to cum, she was right there too, her hand had slid into her panties and I hadn't noticed - but now as she regaled how she was going to feel herself lying limp and worn out when they were finally done - I saw clearly how she was frantically fucking herself and as I let myself go to how she might look lying there as she'd described, feeling her motions next to me brought me to a huge gusher of an orgasm myself. When the first spurt started I heard her moan but I more felt her shiver and shake gently next to me as she too came right beside me.
It felt good sharing that moment with her. And I felt good that we would still share these same times even after New Years.