Hey Jen,
Your posts are the only ones I track. Getting pregnant is exciting, titillating and good for one's complexion. Raising a child in our oligarchic republic is arduous, trying and exhausting during the best of times.
Has your husband assumed a parental role to some degree? Hopefully, Kevin feels accepted and loved by the both of you.
"Mostly my fantasies are about black men...sometimes just someone to make me feel fulfilled, to make me feel like a woman again..."
There is no substitute for a good fuck. Don't use words like 'fulfillment'. They are abstract and nebulous. You can't hold abstractions. You can grip a substantive, though, such as, oh say a rigid cock, wanting to explore your body. Leave abstractions alone. Stick to substantives.
Peace and contentment with your part in the human community,
sartor
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