It Goes On and On and On and On

[kevinsslave]

It made me feel, on the one hand, horny as hell and, on the other, leery. I'd been down this road and while it was fun while I lived it, at some point it lost its luster. Very confusing and conflicting feelings.

I tried to talk with Amber and understand more, but, the conversation seemed to go around in circles. I asked if she could step away from the whole submission thing and she said that if she didn't have some normalcy to fall back on, she didn't think she would go on with Justin. "Really," she said, "he's a jerk." For the 10th time I asked "Then why?" and for the 10th time she said, "Because there is no love there, no feelings, its just pure sex, pure submission. I've asked you before, haven't you ever wanted to have sex with a girl that you hate?" I told her I had but, "Listen, if I submit completely to him, we won't have a normal relationship to fall back on. I mean, you'll see me....humiliated. You won't feel normal about me." She laughed, "Yeah, I will, because I know it's not real, it's fantasy. I know you'll walk away whenever you want." I said, "Yeah, but only after he has me wearing women's panties and sucking his....or God knows what." She laughed and was practically now breathing in my ear, "Just try it. I need you to feel this. We can do this. Let go of whatever you're feeling and just do what he says. Please him and you'll get swept up in it."

The next day, I was summonsed to Justin's apartment with an email. I entered. It was only afternoon, but, he was clearly already *****. "So," he said. "Justin," I said, "What is it that you want me to do? I just don't..." He was loud and somewhat edgy, "The first thing you need to do is show me respect. Get on your fucking knees and worship my cock." I dropped to my knees and slid his underwear and sweats off. His cock was erect and he grabbed my head and thrust it towards his cock. He fucked my mouth, fast and hard. I gagged, at times, but didn't dare pull my mouth off his cock. I sucked and he thrust deeper and deeper in my mouth. After a while, he tensed and blew his load in my mouth. After I had swallowed his seed, he said, "Well....." I told him, "Thank you." He grabbed my hair and said, "Thank you what?" I said, "Thank you, Master."

Now I asked, again, "Justin, why do I need to do this in front of her?" He laughed, "Because, your ***** of a girlfriend needs to see who is in charge all the time. She needs to see that I control the big shot lawyer, not the other way around. You need to see it, too. I'm tired of fucking with you. You're either mine or you're not. Fuck these games you keep playing. You want to leave and never see me again, then go. Otherwise, get used to fucking being my bitch in front of her."

I sat in silence. Now was my chance to once and for all leave. But, I didn't. He had won. He had beaten me down. I was his and now he knew it. "First thing," he said, "I want you in panties from today on. Second, get her some new 'fuck me' outfits, today. She needs to be fucked and fucked hard. Third, I can't fucking trust you two when I'm not around and I'm not always going to be around. I looked online and found some shit you can lock your dick up with." My head swam, my mind raced and my mouth got dry. "Not another chastity device," I thought. He grabbed my chin and made me look him in the eyes. "A cock lock or whatever it's called. Get one immediately. No more fucking her for you and no more coming for you until I know you can play by my rules."

Silence. "You have any problems?" he asked. "No," I said, "and I have a 'cock lock' as you call it at home, I'm sure it still works....." He laughed. "Good bitch. Oh, and she needs to see that I control you completely. All this money you give me, I want her to see you give it to me. Let her see that you pay to suck my cock. Let her see that you pay to have me rule over you and her ***** ass."

Silence, again. "Don't look so sad," he sad, "I'm not so bad to you am I? You love worshiping me and my cock. Tasting my sweat and my cum. Fuck, who wouldn't?" I said nothing. "Come on," he said, "I want you to massage my back before you go shopping. Since you're finally doing the right thing, I'll give you a treat today and let you eat my asshole out." I followed him to the bedroom. I still wasn't sure if I could go through with this, again, but, at the moment, I was helpless. He needed massaged and I needed to lick his ass and submit to him.

More later.

 

[kevinsslave]

Justin had failed as a carpet layer. He'd failed when trying to work construction. He'd failed at college. He'd failed at virtually every job he had tried. He was a shitty waiter. He wasn't particularly witty or smart. I'm one of the top 3 lawyers in my field. I'd succeeded. He had no real dreams or aspirations. As I thrust my tongue into his ass, I thought about this. How could I be that much under his spell? How could this guy (he was good looking) have such a power over me? The strange thing was, after awhile, I just stopped thinking about this. His ass needed worshiped. I needed to do it. I needed to submit completely to him. It made me hard and horny to let him control me. The fact that he had failed in all these areas seemed to turn me on even more. As I licked his ass, truly, I began to think that nothing was as erotic and fulfilling as being his slave. I was the lucky one for being able to do this. He moaned softly and I felt a sense of peace come over me. It would be nice to be, finally, able to again live out my fantasies. No more hiding it from Amber. I could worship him right in front of her. She could see him take control of me.

He finally was tired and told me to stop. I wasn't permitted to satisfy myself. He told me to get shopping. I went and bought her outfits and then ran across the street to the mall to go to Victoria Secrets to buy my panties. I thought I was ready for this, but, as I shopped, that nagging feeling came back again. I was clearly at a crossroads and didn't know which way to go. I knew I had to make my decision that day. Justin was done playing around. It was now or never.

 

[steev]

Sounds like he broke you--just like a wild horse needs to be broken. Very nice! It's a turn on that he put you in panties, I bet you felt embarassed buying them that day.

 

[kevinsslave]

Well, as to buying those panties.......I sat there, outside VS, debating whether I wanted to go down this road again. Funny how your mind plays games with you. I kept thinking about how angry I was at the tail end of the submission/cuckold thing with Kristy. Yet, I told myself, that's because I was in love with Kristy. I wasn't in love with Amber. There was a difference, what did I care if I was humiliated in front of Amber. But, then, I told myself, I liked Amber. I liked dating her, did I really want to be in panties, did I really want to submit to a guy in front of her? Sucking a cock in front of a woman is a huge deal. But, she wanted me to do this. Was she doing this to keep me around? She was afraid of losing me, but, with this, I'd be "tied" to her (so to speak) for a while.

I went into VS and looked at all the lycra/cotton panties. The Boyshorts, the Boyrunners, the lace panties and Boyshorts. The blue and white striped Secret Pink Boyshorts turned me on, the purple lace ones and on and on. Before I knew it, I had picked up 10 pairs. I loved when the clerks ask if I needed help, always wondered if they suspected I was buying them for me. My reservations fell by the wayside and I couldn't wait to get home and put a pair on. I kept thinking of how Justin might grab my panty clad ass and pull me towards him to suck his cock so that he could fuck Amber.

I had doubts on the way home, but, Amber was in a highly frisky and horny state when I got there. She kissed me and rubbed her groin into mine. "I want to fuck you," she said, "but we can't....Justin says..." I cut her off, "I know. It's OK." I went in the basement and returned with my CB 3000 and the unused CB 6000 that I had bought long ago when Kristy was involved with Kevin. Amber asked what they were and I explained the whole chastity concept to her and how they worked. "Doesn't that hurt?" she asked. "Yeah, so can we stop this insanity now?" She was silent, then kissed me, passionately, and said, "No....let's put it on." I was, a bit disappointed, and realized she wasn't going to back out of this and save me the humiliation.

I undressed and showed her how to place the 6000 on me. She personally snapped the brass lock closed. I slid the blue and white VS panties on and then put on sweats and a tshirt. It was time to get her ready and I undressed her and then dressed her in a white babydoll lingerie outfit. I had bought her lacy girly anklets and a pair of new, white, high heel sandals. As I put her shoes on, I was on my knees and kneeled forward and kissed the tops of her socked feet. I was horny and the cage was already causing me discomfort. We kissed and I kept trying to see if she was embarrassed by my panties and cage, but, her eyes showed nothing. She seemed to be in a trance, waiting for Justin to arrive.

He came to the door and I let him in. We went up to the bedroom where Amber was waiting. When we got in, he looked at me and said, "Well?' I slid my sweats off and showed him I was properly attired in panties and the chastity device. He laughed, "Good bitch," he said and my face flushed red with shame. "Next time, wear some sexy shoes or something feminine on your feet." I whispered, "Yes.....Master." Now, he was ready to humiliate me. "I'm going to fuck your girlfriend, but, I thought you might like to suck me and get me hard. Do you want my cock?" I paused and then gave in, "Yes, I do, Master." Again, he laughed.

"First, Amber, get your collar," he said. Amber got up and returned with her collar and her rope. She put the collar on and put the rope on the bed. "While he's sucking me, I want you to play with yourself, get yourself wet." She reached to his lips and kissed him and said, "I'm already wet." He grabbed her ass and said, "Good, get yourself wetter, bitch." She layed on the bed and started to masturbate, watching us.

I dropped to my knees and unzipped his jeans and took them off. I sat him on the edge of the bed and started to kiss his inner thighs. He liked it and grabbed the back of my head and pushed it toward his underwear covered cock. I started to kiss his already erect cock through his underwear. And, then, I stopped, I just didn't think I could do this. He looked at me and Amber looked at me. It was time for my complete submission. I knew if I pulled those underwear off, there was no turning back. I'd be his submissive little slut slave for good. Amber would be his (I wasn't kidding myself, I was in chastity and once he had me there, I wasn't going to be fucking her anytime soon). The thoughts excited and revolted me. I had to choose and choose now.

More in a few minutes.

 

[kevinsslave]

As I looked at his underwear, I wished that I had gotten good and *****, earlier, as it would have made this a lot easier. I slid his underwear down and off his feet. His cock stood erect, before me. In the end, despite all the questions, despite all the conflicting feelings, it was the sight and scent of his cock that did it. I can't explain it, really, other than to say, it's like being hypnotized or being under a spell. I could slightly smell his man scent, I could see the smooth skin of his cock, I wanted to taste it, badly, and I bent my head down and just started to suck him. He grabbed my head and thrust it up and down onto his cock. I gagged, slightly, as he was thrusting deep into my mouth and was pumping fast. I rubbed his calves as I slid my mouth up and down. I went for a minute or two and he pulled my head off him and rolled over and turned Amber onto her knees so that he could take her from behind. I saw him slide her white panties off and thrust his cock into her glistening pussy.

I, of all things, looked at their feet. He was also bent on his knees and their feet were together, toes down, soles out at the end of the bed. She had removed her shoes but her socks were still on and I could see her curl her toes every time he thrust inside of her. She moaned. I moved to kiss her feet and then moved to his legs and kissed up his legs to his ass. As he thrust into her, I used my tongue and licked his ass. He liked it as he started to moan. Man, did he fuck her long and hard. Their bodies rocked forward and back and, unbelievably, he actually brought her to orgasm. She collapsed slightly but he kept pounding her pussy. His groin and lower stomach slammed into her ass as he fucked her. I could her the sound and hear their moans.

Finally, he pulled out of her and rolled onto his back. She went down to start blowing him, but, he tapped her head away. He looked at me and simply said, "Finish me." I crawled up between his legs and started to suck him. Amber put her hand on the back of my head and moved my head up and down. Maybe after a minute or two, he tensed and blew his load into my mouth. I wasn't ready for it and it gagged me a bit. His body spasmed a bit.

They had both had incredible orgasms and I, although horny, was locked up tight. I sat up while they lay back, panting and breathing heavy. Finally, he spoke to me and said, "How did you like my cock?" I just nodded my head. He laughed and lifted his foot near my mouth so I could kiss his foot. I did and he said, "Rub them" and I massaged his feet.

He told me to get him a beer and I went down and got one for each of us. When I got back, he was getting dressed. "I'm going out, I need some money." I got up, went into my office (off the master bedroom) and brought him $200. "Here Master," I said, "I hope that's enough." He just laughed. "Put my shoes and socks on," he commanded. I saw his socks on the floor, but, he had taken his shoes off downstairs so I ran and got them and came back. He was sitting on the edge of the bed holding the chastity key. I placed his socks on each foot and then his shoes.

"I'll be taking this" he said referring to the key. I looked at him and pleaded, "Justin, please, unlock me. I submitted. I'm yours now." He thought for a minute and just said, "No." I pleaded, "Please leave the key here, I have to wash my groin and penis everyday and I can't do that without..." He cut me off, "You can come to my place in the mornings that I'm not here and shower there. I'll take it off so you can shower and then it goes right back on. If I catch you jacking off in the bathroom...." I interrupted, "No, I won't, but...."

I was on my knees before him and he stood up. "You aren't fucking her for a long, long time. She's mine, right?" I told him, "Right." He just grunted and left. When I heard his car pull out of the drive, I stood up and took my panties off. My cock ached which was made worse by the tight fit of the panties. I went to put my men's underwear on and Amber said, "What are you doing?" I pleaded, "Amber, come on, I don't want to wear...." She simply said, "You have to."

I layed next to her in bed and she snuggled over next to me. "Wasn't that great?" she asked. "Sure, I guess, I mean I don't know," I said. She started to kiss my chest. "Baby, I've been thinking, I want to take a few weeks off work, you don't mind do you?" I was puzzled, "Why should I mind?" She smiled, "Well, I mean, I'll need you to help me pay my bills while I'm off and..." I interrupted, "Oh, yeah, sure, don't worry about that. Of course, I..." She rubbed her feet on my legs and said, "You've been such a good boy and I feel so bad for you all locked up like that. Go ahead, you can have my feet." I moved down and started to kiss them. The socks were turning me on. Her scent under the socks was turning me on. I peeled them off her feet and started worshiping her. It hit me then, I was right back where I'd started from. And, then, in the throws of my horniness and passion, I told her, "I love you." She came down and kissed me and said, "I know you do. I really can see that. I love you too." She leaned back and put her feet near my face and I resumed my worship. I had come full circle.

 

[kevinsslave]

I moved from foot to foot. I was horny and caged. She looked tired and happy. Something bothered me. Finally, I just asked her, "Am, why do you want to take off work? I'll take care of you, I just..." She stretched her feet out for me to kiss and lick while she talked. "OK, I know this is going to sound weird, but, I want to try something for like a week." I kissed her feet. "I really want to be submissive to Justin, I.....really, how can I say this, I want to be like a real servant. I mean, wait on him, let him order me around, cook for him, clean for him, service him, worship him...." She reached down and pulled my head to signal me to start kissing her legs.

"I've always wondered what it would be like to totally serve someone, have them totally dominate me." She spread her legs and I moved to her thighs. "He can order me around 24/7, punish me when I displease him, fuck me when he wants to, keep me in my collar..." She pulled my head to her pussy, she was wet and her fantasies as she spoke them, were getting her hot. I started to eat her out. "Oh, God, he can use me however he wants...." she said as she ground her pussy into my face. I ate her out while she ground her pelvis into my face. She was soaking wet and she came within minutes.

She panted and after a minute, she said. "He's going to come back tonight and tell me what needs done tomorrow. I'll be collared. Uhmmm, he wants to bring his brother over tomorrow, too and I guess they'll both get to use me." I interrupted, "Amber, I don't want people here, I told you, I mean this is getting out of control. What's next, you going to want to be bound and gagged and whipped? What the fuck?" She kissed me while rubbing her hand on my inner thigh. "It's just his brother, nobody else, and he was already here the other night." We started to kiss and I said, "I need out of this cage, I need to fuck..." She cut me off, "No, not for awhile. C'mon you can make it a few weeks without sex." I erupted, "A few weeks? No, no way, I'm sorry...." Now, she grabbed my caged cock and it fucking hurt. "Don't fight with me about this, you'll be OK." We layed there for a bit and she said, "Listen, you'll have to sleep in one of the guest rooms tonight....well, maybe this week." I was beaten and got up and went to one of the guest rooms, turned the lights off and went to sleep.

Justin woke me a few hours later. He was *****. Amber must have let him in the house and I didn't even hear him come in. "Tomorrow, do you have to work?" he asked. I told him I did and should be able to get out around 4:00. "When you get done, go to my apartment and clean it. It's filthy. I want it clean. Do laundry, too." I nodded my head. "When you finish, I want you to go grocery shopping for me. Then I need a couple video games from Best Buy. I left a list at my apartment. I need you to pick me up some new underwear and socks. While you're doing that, get something more ladylike for you to wear around here. I don't care if you want to wear tshirts and shorts, but, I want them to be in ladies colors-pink, yellow, whatever. Get some more lube, too, for her ass and yours. Don't forget to leave me money, too." Again, I nodded. "When you're done, you can come home, but, my brother and I are gonna be fuckin' her tomorrow, so if you don't want to see it....." With that, he got up and went to my bedroom and I heard him tell Amber to massage his back. I tried to sleep, but, the sounds of their sex kept me awake. He was smacking her ass, hard, I could hear it. She cried out several times.

I didn't know what I was doing. I knew I didn't really love her and the whole thing was just getting too strange. I could hear Amber moaning now, he must have been fucking her hard. Finally, I heard him moan and then it was silent. Eventually, I fell to sleep. I had to be in court early.

When I woke up, I didn't dare wake him to ask to be let out of the cock cage. I showered and cleaned my dick as best as I could. One day wouldn't hurt, I figured. I had to go in my bedroom to get my suit and some clothes to clean his apartment in later. I slipped on a pair of pink and white panties. Justin was sprawled out on my bed, Amber next to him. She was completely naked and she had kicked the sheets of her. I assumed he was completely naked but he was covered, so I couldn't tell.

I stared at him. He was really just an underachieving, party boy. In any area of life, I had far exceeded his accomplishments. But, with his attitude and his cock, he now controlled me.

 

[kevinsslave]

I had a busy day, but, every time I had a few down moments, I thought of what must be going on at the house. I couldn't believe I had ended up here, again, but, then again, I could see that I craved the submission and humiliation. It was different, this time, because I didn't love Amber. Or did I, even I couldn't tell, anymore.

Around 4:00, I was wrapping up some stuff at the office when my cell phone rang. My home number. I picked up and heard a male's slurred speech. "Hey," he said, "Do you know who this is?" I heard Justin laughing in the background so I figured it was his brother. "Chris?" I said. He howled with drunken laughter. "Hey, do you know what we're doing?" I told him I guessed they were partying with Amber. "You could say that, but, I mean, do you like know what we're doing?' I paused and said, "I know you probably had sex." He laughed loudly. "Dude, you don't mind that we're fucking your girlfriend." What could I say? "No," I said. He laughed and said, "I don't fucking belief it." I heard Justin laughing in the background saying, "I told you." Chris said, "You're girlfriend, she's a little ho, you know that, she can't get enough cock man." More laughter, then he hung up.

My face was red with embarrassment but what could I do? I went over to Justin's, changed and started to clean his apartment and do his laundry. It was a pig sty and it took more than 2 hours to get it clean. As I sorted through his dirty laundry, getting ready to wash it, I held his dirty underwear to my nose and inhaled the scent of his crotch. I wished I wasn't caged because I would absolutely have jacked off. Truth be told, I did try, but, gave up after a few minutes. It just made my cock hurt more.

I went to Best Buy and bought his PS3 games. I stopped at Macys and bought his underwear, some white socks and some woman's xl pink, blue, yellow, lime and orange tshirts for me. I also found some sweats that could pass for woman's and some women's shorts. I saw a beautiful pair of uggs boots and, thankfully, they had my size. I figured, Justin would be OK if I wore a woman's t shirt, panties and the boots around the house. I went grocery shopping next, went back to his apartment and put his groceries away and left his video games by the tv. I left the socks and underwear on his dresser. I then stopped at Chilis for a few drinks and dinner. I drove home around 10:00.

When I got there, Justin and Chris were sitting on the couch with their feet on the coffee table. They were playing with my Wii. Amber was collared and had her chain on. She was kneeling by Justin, rubbing his leg and kissing his thigh. As soon as I walked in, Justin, who was noticeably *****, said to Chris, "Good, he's here, ask him." Chris slurred, "Dude, what are you wearing under your clothes?" Before I could answer, Justin said, "Drop your pants." I did and stood there with my suit jacket, shirt, tie on and pants around my feet. Chris howled at my panties. "Don't you look sweet." Justin chimed in, "Show him the cock lock." I pulled my panties down and they howled at the CB. I was humiliated, but, again, I somehow seemed to desire this.

"Can I go change?" I asked. Justin nodded. I went upstairs, put the lime t shirt on with green woman's shorts and put the Uggs on. I looked like some cheap street walker. When they saw me, they laughed louder. Amber just kept kissing Justin's legs and, I noticed, she wore her sexy schoolgirl lingerie with the lacy anklet socks on. She looked tired but not unhappy. "Get us another beer," barked Justin and Amber rose to her feet and retrieved them from the kitchen. Chris looked at me like I was insane.

"We've been waiting for you, we figured you'd want to see your woman fucked good at least once since you missed the party today," said Justin. With that, he told Amber to take of his pants. He was hard. He told her to get on the floor on her hands and knees and she complied. He entered her from behind while Chris unzipped his pants and leaned back on the couch. She sucked his cock while Justin fucked her. They were not gentle, Chris grabbed her hair and thrust her mouth up and down his cock, while Justin fucked, alternating slapping her ass with a cock thrust. Justin came in her and after a minute or two more, Chris stopped her sucking his cock and said, "I guess I can't come anymore today." They found that hysterical. I watched it all and then asked Justin if he minded if I went to bed. Amber, her mouth fresh from Chris's cock came over to me and kissed me goodnight and I went to sleep in the guest room.

Sometime around 4:00 a.m., I felt a tap. I woke up and saw Chris. He had his hand on my back and said, "I hear you like fucking guys." He was totally smashed and I just sort of nodded and said, "Sometimes." He moved his hand onto my ass and rubbed my panties and ass, taking his finger and rubbing it near my crack. "You want me to fuck you?" I didn't know what to say. He was as good looking as his brother, but, younger. The thought of getting fucked didn't appeal to me and, yet, I sort of was turned on. I went to kiss his neck, gently, moved to his ear, nibbled it, and said, "Sure." I moved to kiss him on the lips and he pushed me back. "No lip to lip, you can kiss me, but not on my lips." I nodded and whispered in his ear, "How about if I just suck you tonight?" He smiled and said, "OK." I laid him down on the bed and started to kiss his neck, his chest, his stomach. He definitely enjoyed it and when I got to his cock, I licked his shaft and balls. I stroked him while I licked. His cock was like his brother's, larger than average. I sucked, licked, stroked until he tensed and blew his load on my face (I didn't know him well enough to swallow). I went and cleaned up and when I came back, he was still in my bed. "Massage me," he said and I rubbed his back. Eventually, he fell asleep. I lay next to him and went to bed myself.

When I woke up the next day, Chris and Justin were gone. Amber was in the kitchen, in her school girl outfit, wearing the socks and high heeled sandals. She had made them breakfast as she was now washing pans. I got coffee and said nothing. I sat on the couch and drank my coffee. She came over to the couch and layed down, putting her feet in my lap. "I've been wearing these socks for almost 2 days. I bet they smell a little. Do you want to kiss them or do you want me to go take a shower..." Before she said anymore, I had moved to inhale her socked feet. That familiar slight odor of leather and sweat. I was so horny. I made out with her socked feet and then, finally, peeled them off and licked and kissed her slightly sweaty and salty feet. I know I was out of control and she laughed. "Take your time," she said, "We have all day. Justin won't be back for hours." She closed her eyes and stretched out. I kissed her feet. And, I planned on doing it all day. That was all I had for now, her feet, Justin and Chris's cocks and, if I was lucky, maybe I would be able to orally please Amber. They had taken over. I was Justin's, I was Chris's and I was Amber's. For the moment, I was going to enjoy it.

 

[duke9555]

hot socks!

 

[steev]

Wow, so much to take in! I will have to read over these last few postings again to be able to reply!

 

[steev]

It seems that they are making you into the "wife" in this relatonship--a feminine role where you serve them both.

Amber is taking an active part, don't you think? Maybe she enjoys this to an extent.

In another way of looking at it, it's like they are the "parents"--having sex, in control--and you are the "child"--under their control, no sex, being told what to do.

How did you feel when Amber said you had to wear the panties when you tried to put on men's underwear after Justin left?

Does Justin ever spank you? How about Amber--has she disicplined you or reported behavior to Justin that he disciplined you for?

Thanks for taking the time to post so much--hope you will post more.

 

[kevinsslave]

Well, Steev, I'm not sure if they were making me into the "wife." I think (particularly Justin) needs to completely emasculate me in front of Amber. He needs to see and needs her to see that I am completely submissive and have given up any traditional male role with respect to my woman. In a sense, I feel like a maid/servant/sex toy. I am to have no say in anything, I am simply to serve to his (and to a lesser extent, her) wishes.

On the one hand, when Amber told me to leave the panties on, it deflated me. She had assumed a new role. She was now his woman, not mine. She made sure his wishes were followed, not mine. In another way, I hate to say, it turned me on. Being submissive to her, as well, and humiliated to boot. There has been no discipline, thankfully, as I went through that in my prior relationship with Kevin and my wife. Getting smacked in the ass with a belt hurts.

So, I did worship her feet, for hours. I saw the slight changes in her, she liked the new controls that were being established over me. To my surprise, I found myself again falling into that void where I craved the humiliation, craved her now superior attitude towards me. As I kissed those feet, smelled them, worshiped them, I started to become incredibly horny and fell under what I think of as "the spell." I told her she never had to go back to work again, that I would take care of her, that I wanted to make her happy. As I said it, I knew it really wasn't what I wanted, but, I couldn't help myself. The thought of serving her while she served Justin was just intoxicating to me. I tried to move up her legs but she gently moved my head back to her feet, "No, Justin says you can't have anything until or unless he says so." I went to say something and she said, "You love my feet, be happy he allows you that." What could I say?

He returned later but without his brother. He was incredibly dominant towards her, ordering her to get his drinks, to rub his feet, to beg for his cock. When he was ready to take her, he decided that I was not to be a part and I was sent to the guest bedroom. He took her leash and led her to the Master Bedroom and as she walked by him, he grabbed her ass and said, "I want your ass tonight." I could hear the fucking once it started, could hear her moans. I could hear him slapping her ass with his hand. More than once, I heard him say, "You fucking little slut" and the fucking went on and on. I shut my door so I could go to sleep. My cock ached in the cage. I wanted out.

The next morning, I wanted to shower and he was up, watching TV in the Master Bed. She snuggled up next to him, kissing his chest. I approached him and asked if he could unlock me so I could shower. "Is that how you ask?" he said. "I'm sorry, please Justin, would you unlock me so I can clean myself?" He laughed. "No." I looked at him and then I bent near his feet, started to kiss them, and asked again. "Sure, I'll unlock you. Or, do you want to worship me some more." I didn't reply, but, instead, continued to kiss his feet. I wanted him to know that I wished to worship him.

Finally, he got up and went in the bathroom with me. I took my clothes off and he unlocked me. My cock was sore. I shaved, but was ****** to leave the door open so they could see me. "You have 2 fucking minutes to get in that shower and wash your dick," he said, "And, then, I'm locking you up again." I turned the water on and it took 30 seconds or so to warm up. I quickly washed my my cock and rubbed it. Soon, he was at the door and I was locked back in. I now took my time and showered.

When I came out, she was kissing his chest and he watching TV. I went to my room and dressed in new panties, sweats and a tshirt. No shoes, but women's ankle socks. For the next 2 days, they lived in their own world. He fucking her and using her in every conceivable way. Her serving him, begging him for his cock. He came in her mouth, in her pussy, in her mouth, on her tits, in her hair, you name it. On the third morning, as I got ready to go to work, he was up and getting ready to leave. "She's been fucked out," he laughed. "I can't think of any other ways to fucking use her." He dressed and told me, "I won't be around for a couple days, so..." he threw the key at me. "You want her?" he said. I nodded my head.

He left and I ran into the bedroom. She was awake and looked exhausted. I had already let myself out and my cock was rock hard. She looked at me and said, "Maybe, later. I'm tired. You can worship my feet for awhile." Deflated, I spent the 20 minutes before I left kissing her feet.

More later.

 

[kevinsslave]

I went to work and it was a long and hard day. I was physically tired, to begin with, and sexually frustrated. Everyday as a lawyer is stressful, that day was particularly rough. I sat in my office around 5:30 thinking I should just jack off and relieve myself, but, I really wanted to feel the inside of Amber and cum in her. A short time later, I headed home and found her sleeping in bed. She had not showered, still, and apparently had not moved. She wanted Chinese take out so I dutifully went and got her dinner. When I returned, still she remained in her lingerie from the night before and still she had not showered. She was exhausted. After dinner, we sat on the couch and I rubbed and massaged her feet. Every time I tried to move up her legs with my lips she gently pushed my head down. I finally gave up, figuring, I'd have a nice night of sex.

I was wrong. Bed time came and we went to bed. Their bed. She snuggled and I could smell the scent of sex, still, on her. I rubbed my cock against her ass but she told me she was still too tired and too sore. She kissed me and said, "I'm sure I'll feel better, tomorrow." Despite my horniness, I could not stay awake and soon fell to sleep next to her.

The next morning, she was up with me. She was feeling better and wanted to go shopping in Cleveland that afternoon. I told her my last hearing was at 11:00 so I could come home and we could be in Cleveland by 1:00 or 1:30. As I dressed after my shower, I went to put my male underwear on. She looked at me and said, "What are you doing?" I sighed, "Amber, I'm not wearing that shit when he's not here, what the fuck?" She just kind of glared at me and said, "Oh, yeah, you are." I told her she was crazy. "Hey," she said, "You made a commitment, you're his now, just like I am." I was getting angry and so was she. "Fuck, Justin," I said, "I'm not..." She cut me off, "Good, I'll just call him and tell him how you feel, maybe, you need to remember who the boss is, maybe, he needs to show you, again, who the boss is." I said, "You fucking bitch, who the fuck do you think..." She started to dial the phone and I froze, "OK," I said, "I'm sorry, I'm just tired and this is all new to me, I......" She relaxed a bit, but said, "You know, we need to work on your attitude. I don't like being called a 'fucking bitch' and I shouldn't have to argue like this with you." I again tried to calm her, "Look, honey, I'm sorry, I'm tired and, you know, sexually I....need release." She smiled and said, "Well, I can understand that but...." I had to leave so I kissed her and told her we'd talk later.

The morning flew by and I rushed home. Amber seemed happy, but, when I got there she said she had thought about how I had acted all morning. She had my cage. "Let's wear it, just for this afternoon, see if that takes your sexual edge away." I reluctantly agreed. What could I do. Besides, I knew we'd have sex later. We drove to a suburban mall in Cleveland and had a fantastic, romantic lunch at a fondue place. The whole way I up, I ached for her. I could smell her perfume, and, she slipped her boots off and I stared at her socked feet. We then shopped and as we walked through the mall, I could smell her perfume, her shampoo, her beautiful scent. Every time she turned or bent, her shirt rose a little, revealing the tops of her pink panties. I dreamed of kissing her back, kissing the tops of her panties and moving to her jean covered ass. She wore boots and, at one point, we stopped for coffee at the food court and she kicked off her boots and had me rub her feet. I was just about to faint from sexual desire. We held hands and she tried on shoes, boots, jeans, tops, you name it. Every stop had me more sexually excited than the last. I was falling under "the spell" again. As we walked, I told her how much I loved her. We passed a jewelery store and I couldn't resist stopping to look at rings for her. We found a gorgeous small diamond ring which I immediately bought. It needed sized but we could do that at home. I bought her clothes, boots, panties, bras and, then, some sexy lingerie. As we walked hand in hand, looking at the lingerie, she'd whisper in my ear, "Will he like me in that?" She'd kiss my ear. I'm sure the sales clerk thought we were just a horny couple and then the outfits were for her to wear for me. On the way home, she took her boots of and stretched her feet on my lap. I rubbed them with one hand while driving with the other.

We dropped the ring off at a jeweler at home and learned we could pick it up late the next day. We went out to dinner and got home around 10:00. We had both had several drinks with dinner. When we got home, we went straight to the bedroom. I kissed her passionately. "I want you, forever," I told her. I kissed her mouth, her neck, her shoulders. I stripped her clothes off her. "Oh, baby," she said, "I'm still too sore, you can wait one more day, can't you?" I was stunned, but, I mean, what could I say. I had just spent all day telling her how much I loved her. "Yeah, sure, but can we take this off" I said pointing to the CB. She cuddled up next to me and said, "You know, I'll feel safer if you just leave it on while we sleep. I want you too, but, I am sore and I do need a break. At least with you locked up, we'll have that as protection against our passion." What could I do? She did fall to sleep and I kept inhaling her scent, dreaming of having sex with her.

All the shit I had learned in counseling, all the lessons I had learned with Kristy, were out the window. Amber was beginning to take control of me and I wanted her to. Hell, I was falling madly in love with her because of it. Again, I felt the submission. I wanted her to control me. I wanted Justin to use and control her. I wanted, craved and needed it.

More later.

 

[kevinsslave]

The next morning, I again rose early and I had a long day ahead of me. Of course, of all the luck, Amber started her period. Leaving me high and dry for at least 5 days when it came to sex. I asked her to unlock me and she did, but, seemed leery. "Listen," she said, "Can I trust you or are you going to have sex with someone." I promised I would not, she was my girlfriend. She kissed me and said, "I'll relieve you later, I promise, so no jacking off," she said with a laugh.

Believe me, that morning was busy, but, the afternoon, I was in my office and I thought of sex a 1,000 times. I tortured myself, watching porn on my computer, rubbing my cock with my hand. She called and wanted to go out to eat so I told her I'd pick her up, we could pick her ring up and then head out for dinner. We did and had a wonderful night of laughter, food and drinks. The ring looked great on her hand and all through the night, she would slip her shoe off and rub her foot on my legs under the table. She told me that she loved how "affectionate" I was becoming. It made me think, but, I'll discuss that later.

Around midnight, we headed home. Horrible to say, but, all I could think of was letting her suck my dick the minute we got home. 5 minutes from home, her cell rang, it was Justin and he was coming over. I was angry and disappointed, but, said nothing.

More later.

 

[steev]

Oh wow, you must have been soooo frustrated, but also turned on since you are still going along with it all. By the way, how long ago was all this happeneing?

It seems she is really getting into making sure you cooperate with the program, were you enjoying being sub to her desires too? I can't wait to hear if she told Justin about your attitude that needed "work".

 

[kevinsslave]

So, we made it home and we waited for Justin to come over. He arrived within minutes and ordered Amber to get him a beer. When she handed it to him, he saw the ring on her hand and said, "Nice ring," he looked at me, "Awww, from you? Where's mine?" He laughed. "Just kidding, I don't want a ring, but, I do expect you to be dressed the right way." I trudged upstairs to put something feminine on. I was too tired to care and just wore sweats and a tshirt with female ankle socks.

When I got back downstairs, she had already taken his pants and underwear down and was stroking his cock with her hand, while licking and kissing his shaft and balls. Something about seeing her hand with that ring touch his cock turned me on. I remembered all the cocks that Kristy had touched with her ring. Eventually, she moved in on his cock with her mouth and he leaned back and spread his legs. She kneeled on her knees in between his legs and moved up and down with her mouth, sucking him, licking him, rubbing her hands up and down his thighs. He tensed, blew his load in her and she swallowed it all, slowly stopping the sucking, but, making sure she swallowed every drop. I was so hard that I was ready to come right then and there.

Finally, Justin spoke, "Well, I can't fuck her now for awhile and if I can't have her, neither should you. Go get your ring." I sighed, softly, my cage was going back on. I brought it down and he had Amber lock me in. He grabbed my panty clad ass with his hand and said, "That's a good girl. Now you two can have your periods, together." Now, he laughed and grabbed Amber's ass, "Her ass is awfully tight for all the cock I've put in her, you have to do a better job of getting her ass ready for me this week. It's too tight for me to fuck." I said I would and he seemed pleased. "Amber likes to feel my cock in her ass, don't you Amber?" he said. Amber smiled and said "Mmmm hmmmmmm" and kissed him, passionately. "Well, I gotta go," Justin said and left.

Amber sat on my lap when he left and open mouth kissed me. I could taste his cock and cum on her but I kissed right back. "Poor baby," she said, "Don't worry, my period usually only lasts 5 days." She now moved off me and put her socked feet near my mouth. It was time to worship her again. I was disheartened at the thought of no release for 5 days, but, kissed her feet anyway.

 

[steev]

She's taking care of him, but leaving you horny. What did yuo think about when she said she loved how affectionate you were becoming?

 

[kevinsslave]

Steev, as to the timeline, my last post put us into mid February. Things changed soon, thereafter, but I'll get to that. I actually keep a diary/journal because, if you can believe it, there are times when I need to remember lies that I'm telling Kristy, Sheila and Amber (like where I was on a certain day or some bullshit explanation I gave to one of them). I keep it at the office so no one but me can see it. I also write some of what goes on in that journal.

I think Amber had figured out that her plan was working. The more subservient that I was to her and Justin, the more I was denied her body, the more I chased after her. The whole thing was/is insane, but, she definitely moved up and I down in the power charts. And, strangely, yes, being submissive to her was an incredible turn on. I cannot enough stress, too, how you start to lose control when you have been denied sexual release for awhile. You'll do just about anything. It's amazing. Everyone here that says its easier to taste a bull's cum before you've cum is dead on right. While in the throws of that sexual ecstasy, you're willing to do just about anything.

 

[steev]

Oh yes, I know when you're horny, your body will lead you into anything almost. The denial, the submission, wow, what a combination.

I bet it made you feel even moer humbled to be submitting in front of her.

 

[kevinsslave]

Humbled and humiliated and, yet, I find it to be incredibly erotic. The act of submission to not only your woman but the guy that now completely controls not only her but you as well. Add to that the chastity and well, to say it is intense is not doing it justice. It's, of course, as always, a mixed bag. Think about it this way, when you're horny and not locked up, it is uncomfortable lying in bed, trying to sleep, reading, you name it. It is amazing that once released how that frustration goes away. But, while horny, all these erotic thoughts go through your mind. When your mind and body can take it no more, you can always relieve yourself. When you're in chastity, you can do nothing. The thoughts of sex almost seem like torture because in the end, you can't do anything to relieve yourself. Nothing. Seems to me, during those times, I'm under a sexual spell, I will do anything. I'll debase myself, I'll humiliate myself, you name it. Like being a drug addict, you crave that sexual, erotic feeling. It can also be terribly frustrating, too. You are constantly either on edge or in the throws of some erotic passion.

Which gets us to that Saturday night. The following Tuesday, I had a counseling session scheduled in Pittsburgh with Kristy. I knew things with Amber and Justin were starting to spin out of control and I knew that I needed to see our good mind doctor on my own. So, I made an appointment for Monday afternoon. I intended to drive to Pittsburgh Monday, see him, spend the night with Kristy and, together, go to counseling the next day.

I had endured another evening (I think Friday) where Justin came to get his cock sucked. Amber was sympathetic in some ways, but, in others, she seemed to enjoy the "new" me, the one that couldn't get sexual release and, therefore, worshiped her no matter what she did or said. Saturday, though, Justin arrived very ***** and in a dark mood. Amber and I, ourselves, were pretty tanked, as well and, eventually, Justin took us to the bedroom. "I need to fuck tonight," he said and ordered me to get Amber's ass ready. I was not thrilled with having to lick and suck her ass while she was on her period, but, he was the one in control. She was on the bed, on her hands and knees, while I tried to get her asshole wet and loose. Eventually, I smeared a little lube on her ass and Justin smeared some on his cock. He inserted his cock in her and her body bucked. He started to fuck her, but, couldn't seem to find a rhythm. "She's too tight," he yelled. He pulled out after a minute and went to the bathroom, disgusted. I could hear him washing his cock and I knew he was angry.

She looked at me with confusion in her eyes. When he came out of the bathroom, he ordered me on my hands and knees and started lathering me and his cock with lube. "Let's see if my other bitch is any bigger." He thrust (and I mean thrust) his cock into me, causing me to let a big breath of air out. He had no intention of being gentle and started to fuck me hard. My head was on the bed and, as I glanced sideways, I could swear I saw Amber looking at me with disgust in her eyes. Maybe my mind was playing tricks, I don't know. He lasted a couple minutes and blew his load all in me and on my ass. I collapsed on the bed, he on top of me. "Goodnight," he said to me and I got up and went to the guest bathroom. I ached and cleaned up and went to bed. I swear that I could hear them laughing.

It was a bad night of sleep. I heard them later, her sucking his cock, him telling her, "Lick my balls, bitch." I woke up late, Sunday, feeling angry, frustrated and horny. I went to the bathroom, showered and dressed. My cock felt was sore (like when you wake up with a stiff neck). He heard me in the bathroom and called me in the Master Bedroom. "You need to clean my place again, today and I have a ton of other errands for you." Amber was snuggled next to him, absent-mindedly rubbing his chest with her hand. "That's cool," I said, "But, listen, I have to go to Pittsburgh tonight and I need you to unlock me." He laughed and said, "Too fucking bad."

Amber looked at me as if I was crazy. I cleared my throat and in a gentle voice, I said, "Justin, Master, please, I've done everything that you want and I'll continue to do that, but, I need to be released, please...." Again, he laughed and said, "You don't call the shots. I said no, now, go get your work done bitch." Amber was, by now, kissing his chest. He started to push her head towards his cock. I was being dismissed, he needed another blow job. I started to leave, but, I thought, how will I ever explain the chastity to Kristy. And, already frustrated, now I was getting angry. I tried one more time, "Justin, I'm begging you, I need that key." He was angry, now, "the only thing you need is to do the shit I told you to do." The key was on the nightstand and I he picked it up. "Get the fuck going, bitch," he said.

I grabbed her head and pulled it off his chest and glared at him. "Give me that fucking key," I said. He stood up and stood chest to chest with me. "Now," he said, "You need an attitude adjustment," and he went to swing at me. I dodged his punch and I throttled him with a right to his face. He fell back to the bed, grabbing his mouth and nose and stood up. "You little cock," he said and pushed me. Now, he again tried to swing at me and I hit him with, first, my left on his jaw and then my right, smack into his face. He fell to the floor, but, this time, kept holding his face. I could see he was bleeding. I reached with one hand and pushed him flat on his back. Then with the other, I dug into his clenched fist and grabbed the key. I stood up and kicked him in his side, causing him to squeal in pain. I wanted to kill him, but, could see his face was bleeding. I went into the Master Bathroom, grabbed the hand towel and threw him. "Do not bleed on my carpet," I yelled.

I grabbed his clothes, which were in a pile near the bed, and grabbed his upper arm, pulling him up. "Get the fuck up and get the fuck out of my house," I said. I pushed him as he stumbled down the stairs. I grabbed his shoes from near the front door, threw them and his clothes outside and then grabbed his coat. I handed that to him, "Listen, you fuck," I said, "Leave and don't come back. If you come back while I'm here, I'll finish this, if you come back while I'm gone, I'll have you arrested and thrown in fucking jail. You can sit there until you make bail and see what happens to a pretty boy like you in jail." He had true fear in his eyes. "Go ahead, fuck with me and see what happens." He left and started to say, "I'm gonna let everyone know..." I grabbed his throat and pushed him against the front of my house and said, "No one will believe you, you little piece of shit and, then, I really will fuck you up." I went to punch him again, but, he winced and turned his head and I just couldn't hit him again. He got in his car and left.

I went back in and Amber was in shock at the top of the steps. "What are you doing?" she screamed. I climbed up the stairs by two and she backed into the bedroom. I unlocked the cage and threw it to the floor. She glared at me and I reached into my pocket and grabbed a couple hundred dollars and threw it at her. "I'll tell you what I'm doing you crazy fucking bitch, I'm taking my life and house back," I said. I was enraged. I have a horrible temper but this was bad even for me. "Take that fucking money and get out....or stay, I don't give a fuck. I'm going to Pittsburgh, when I get back....." I trailed off and glared at her. She started to cry. "Fuck you," I shouted and went and packed a bag for my trip. I could hear her crying, but, I couldn't talk to her.

I went downstairs and she chased after me, "Wait, don't go like this, please, let's talk...." I cut her off, "If that fuck comes back here while I'm gone, I'll kill him. Do you understand?" She nodded. I stormed out.

More later.

 

[kevinsslave]

I was shaking, I was so angry and filled with adrenaline, as I drove. I noticed my right hand was bleeding by my knuckles. I must have cut my hand on his teeth when I hit him. My head was throbbing (felt like my blood pressure was through the roof) so I stopped at CVS to get gauze bandages and Advil. I drove to Dunkin Donuts to use the bathroom, clean and bandage my hand and get some coffee. While I was there, 2 policemen pulled in and, I thought, "here we go. I'm going to get arrested." As it turns out, they were (surprise) just getting coffee. I got on the freeway and swallowed 4 advil and a gulp of coffee.

I was still angry, but, I started to think about the fact that I assaulted this kid (he had swung first-but, I left, so he would be the one to get to the police first) and could be in trouble, professionally and criminally. I reached for my cigarettes and saw my cell phone vibrating. It was my home number (Amber) calling. I didn't answer, but, looked at the missed calls and saw that she had called and left several messages. I listened to them and they all basically said, "Please call." So, I did. She was crying when she answered and asked me to come home. I told her, "no." She pleaded and I said, "Listen, you better make sure he is nowhere near that house." She said, "You don't have to worry about that, he's scared to death. He called me in tears...." I laughed, "Good, that little fucking pussy, Amber, if any of this causes me any problems, I swear..." She cut me off, "No, you won't have any problems, he's not going to do anything. He's scared to death." I didn't know what to say other than, "I'll be in Pittsburgh until Tuesday night, are you going home?" She started to cry, "Can't I please stay here until you get home?" I was silent and then said, "Fine" and hung up.

The ride to Pittsburgh was odd. My mind kept thinking of the events of earlier and I replayed them over and over in my mind. I was out of it and the hour trip passed in seemingly no time. I checked into my hotel, grabbed lunch and went to my room for a nap. I didn't want to call Kristy until the next day. I needed to relax and let the anger burn off. As I lay in the bed, I realized my mind kept drifting off into sexual thoughts. Bizarre, given the day's events. I thought about Justin fucking me, fucking Amber, her almost worship of his cock. I couldn't believe it, I was rock hard. Even more hard to believe, I jacked off and came in about 30 seconds to the thought of Justin, sitting back on the couch, legs spread, smiling, as Amber stroked and sucked his cock. I could smell his scent, her scent and I came in buckets. I cleaned off and fell quickly to sleep.

More later.