Hi Mscuckwife,
Welcome to the forum!
mscuckwife said:
I have some things going on and I thought maybe someone from this site could help. I have been married 12 years and have been a good and faithful wife until recently.
That's impressive, but not necessarily admirable depending on whether your marital fidelity resulted in reasonable sexual satisfaction for you.
mscuckwife said:
My husband cheated on me, and so I said what the hell, I will get him back then I fucked one of my friends.
Excellent! That was an entirely reasonable and proper response. No doubt any advice columnist ("Miss Manners," for instance) would commend you for taking advantage of this opening, so to speak, and expanding your sexual horizons, especially since you were a GoodWife for 12 years. I mean, whew!... No GoodHusband could expect more from you.
mscuckwife said:
Well, that was like opening Pandora's box. Now, I can't stop.
I wouldn't think so. Why would you want to stop? I suggest thinking of your "discovery" of the pleasures of making your husband your cuckold as more like finding a chest of gold at the end of a rainbow, and opening it.
mscuckwife said:
I was a ***** in my younger years...
Hey, nothing wrong with that. You were expressing your strong sexuality, like a young man discovering he's a naturally-good basketball player and, for that reason, finding it pleasurable to play lots of basketball.
mscuckwife said:
...and I thought I had put all that behind me.
Jeez... why would you want to do that?
mscuckwife said:
But, now that I [have started fucking] again, that horny girl has come back.
That horny young woman "hiding inside you" never left, Mscuckwife, because she is you and you are her. You were only suppressing your natural sexuality because of patriarchal religious-based social expectations.
mscuckwife said:
I am 47 but I still have a hot body and I look good, so there is no shortage of men. But, my husband stopped [his affair with another woman] and is being "good," so I think I need to do the same.
Why...? You're in a very good position to greatly increase the sexual satisfaction of your marriage, hence your life in a broad sense, by establishing and maintaining a stable of lovers. If your misbehaving husband stopped fucking another woman that's good, from your point of view — in fact, it would be entirely proper and appropriate for you to insist he be faithful to you — but that certainly does not imply you should abandon the pleasures of fucking other men.
mscuckwife said:
I just crave new dick every day.
Yes, of course, Mscuckwife. Your husband should expect this of a strongly sexual woman like yourself.
mscuckwife said:
I don't know whether to give this up or try to bring my husband in on it. .... I just know I love the feeling of that new dick and I don't want to stop.
Well, you certainly should not stop taking lovers because of reticence caused by suspecting your husband might not think that appropriate for "his" wife. A better strategy would be to gradually but steadily bring your husband to openly acknowledge to you (lead him by his penis to say this out loud, and mean it) that it is your privilege and prerogative, as his wife, to date, seduce and fuck whomever you please, while he must remain faithful as your cuckold.
mscuckwife said:
I know he is interested, in a way, because he has asked me to go to a swing club in the past — but I don't really know how he feels.
That was a statement by your husband of how he feels. He was saying — almost directly — that he finds your monogamous marriage too confining. He wants to be able to fuck other women and for you to be able to fuck other men in a way that is unambiguously for "sex only," not emotional involvement. That is, he doesn't want to "fall in love" with another woman, and he doesn't want you to "fall in love" with another man.
Thus, it is time for you to remind him of his proposal and tell him you want to accept. But, because of his affair with another woman (which you did not like), you want him to watch only at the swing club while you fuck one or more other men. If he wants to play with his weenie while watching you being sexually pleasured, that's OK... but you don't want him putting his weenie in any other woman's pussy.
More than likely he'll accept, especially if he feels awkward and embarrassed about you discovering his affair. Then, for your second visit to the swing club, you can negotiate whether you'll allow him to fuck another woman or not... but try to get him to take you there and watch while remaining a passive observer himself. He may find he was so turned on by watching you fuck other men, he'll be willing to accept this constraint.
If you can get your husband to this point — which you should have no hesitation about attempting, given his past proposal to visit a swing club and your discovery of his affair — I suggest you'll have him well down the road toward becoming your self-acknowledged cuckold.
Go for it, Mscuckwife!
—Custer