Before I answer Loveslife's questions, I thought I would jot down some of what she'd shared about last night as it is still making me hard today.
In the past with Don, when she gets home she looks like she's had sex but overall she looks pretty much like when she left that morning - yeah her hair is messed up and such but she usually looks mostly the same. Last night when she came in it looked like she'd taken a shower and not done her hair, it was all flat against her head and most of her make up appeared to be gone.
I knew from when she was with Brad that this day would come with Don too. When she started showering with or without him before she'd come home. Sometimes the combination of sex and sweat was close to too much so I sort of knew as they got more and more physical and comfortable with each other that this was going to happen so I just asked her "did you shower with him?" and she giggled and said "no".
She then proceeded to tell me how, in the middle of the huge thunderstorm, that he dragged her out in the rain into the darkness in just bathrobes and she then told me how he leaned her against a picnic table and how she leaned over and let him fuck her in the rain. She said it was so unbelievable and it happened so quickly. They'd already fucked once and she knew they both wanted a second time so they were lounging around in just bathrobes (she used one of his and she said it was so long it dragged on the wet ground).
The way she said it, he told her he wanted to go out on the patio under the overhang to watch the rain and when they went out there he dragged her off into the wooded area behind his condo. She said she fought him at first but once she was soaking wet from the rain she stopped fighting and as she said "I let him have me the way he wanted.".
I wished I could have been there but I have the most intense picture in my mind of what she must have looked like. I joked that the people in the other condo units must have thought it was an animal moaning in the woods in the rain.
She'd dried off before getting dressed and she even said she joked with Don that I would be turned on by how she looked. Apparently he's stopped asking her about getting cleaned up before she leaves as he'd been used to with other women.
By the time she finished telling me all of this she was down to just her panties which were definitely wet. I know I've seen this hundreds of times now but it never fails to get me wicked hard - whether it's mine or someone elses, knowing it's cum that's making her panties damp is just such a turn-on. I remember she used to tell me when we were first dating that she liked feeling it afterwards. There were times we'd fuck on the way home from work and then we'd go straight to her parents house for dinner. My god - sitting next to her at the table knowing she can feel my cum dribbling out of her slowly was such a turn-on that she knows it still is now, even if it's not mine. Actually, knowing it's Don's is strangely very arousing.
I did go down on her. She asked me to so how could I resist. She said she was "sore and tired" but that she still wanted me. It wasn't all white and creamy but she was so wet and it was unmistakeably cum. There are still times when my mind goes "gay" or "bi" but I don't feel that way - I have no desire to be with a guy at all - but it just doesn't really bother me that it's cum that I'm licking, it's her that I'm licking. She was VERY wet, I know he cums a lot (it's one of the things she really likes about him) so once she got started up she sort of tugged on my shoulders and said something like "your turn now honey".
I will never tire of that sensation. Feeling hot wet and open she is afterwards. It doesn't bother me that another man got her this way - but feeling her like that it is so intense. She willingly pulled her legs back for me opening her up even more. She was so wet it was all I could think about - Don spewing his cum inside her - and her WANTING it and now, her sharing it with me. She pulled her knees back for me and instead of being distant up on my arms and elbows, I leaned down against her and hugged her closely. Feeling my cock as deep inside her as I can get - feeling how open her pussy was and how nestled my cock felt inside her.
She knew it was late and I suppose she knew I would need some teasing to get me to orgasm she began to tell me of how he felt when he fucked her earlier. And she knew from my reaction that she was right - I can just remember her telling me how she loved how big he is and how she loved how he made her feel. I was so close and right at the end she said something like "that's his cum that the tip of your cock is in right now" - or something like that - wow, it was like a lightning bolt went through me and I think I instantly orgasmed. It was like she had hit the 'explode' switch in me.
She pulled me close and we kissed and said the lovey dovey stuff that you usually mumble as you come down from an intense orgasm. And sharing that moment with her - even though I don't think she came herself with me - but sharing that moment, feeling her arms around me, hearing her say she loves me, feeling like we are one at that moment - lets just say that even at her most intimate moments with Brad, I do not believe she felt that.
We did get up and wash up a bit but it was more of a sleepy comedy waiting for the water to get hot and then fighting over the washcloth. We both slept very soundly - she even got up before me and let me sleep in a bit.
We haven't had much time to talk today as the storm last night made a mess of our yard so that's kept my son and I busy most of today.
Now, to answer Loveslife's question. I guess if I had to say what I would like - and I cringe to even write this - but I suspect it is already clear to many. I'd like her to take the denial thing a bit further. Honestly, I would have been turned on as all heck if she'd have said to me she didn't want to have sex with me this past Tuesday night. As a crazy extreme that I don't think I could ever really do for real - the thought of her saying "this month is just for Don" is almost enough to set me off without even jerking off.
I know that them using our bed had bothered me but I also know that it did really turn me on and as I've already admitted, I do think about it when we're lying in bed and it does turn me on. The crazy thing is that even though I did feel it was too close and personal - I am sorry that Don used condoms with her that night and in some ways, I would like to find a way to let them do it again with out them this time. It's crazy to think that but I would like to see him cum in her in our bed. I think I'm more into symbolic kinds of things like that - or when Brad initiated her IUD - or that she would wait for him to be first after her period - that turns me on more than other things.
I know she will never go for it with him as he is too big - but I would love to see her let him fuck her anally. I've done it with her a few times and I know it hurt her but I also know how she felt and how I felt. She said she felt like she'd given me a part of her that was so taboo and so personal that it was like she felt like she'd given me everything. She said that was how she felt when her boyfriend back in college (the guy with the really skinny cock) was really into it with her. I just know I'd go ballistic if she ever came home with the wet spot in her panties further back.
There's more but I need to give myself some time to let me write it down instead of just in my head.
