Well, things are certainly continuing on their course of change here.
We did have sex this past Friday night as that's something that Sue has indicated she wants - at least one night a week for us to still connect sexually for now - and also made it clear that she would let me know if she wanted more than that. Indeed, as we lay in bed Saturday night I was still horny about everything including the long weekend. As we watched TV I felt like a kid as I saw out of the corner of my eye that her night-shirt had ridden up and that I could see her pussy. It took a while but she eventually noticed and and I wasn't sure how she'd respond - surprisingly she looked at me and said something like "you can see more if you want" and with that she pulled her night-shirt up more and let me see all of her from the waist down. When she saw my interest rising (as well as my cock) she said that all I could do was look and that she did not want any sexual contact from me, and then added that if I was horny that I should take care of it myself.
She is quite horny today - and we've already decided that we'll find a way for her to go see Paul tomorrow afternoon/evening, likely alone so I can come home and do dinner with our kids. As I mentioned, we've been talking a lot and yesterday she again told me how she was liking how things were between us - that we can be close and even somewhat sexual with each other and it doesn't have to lead to sex. She told me how happy she's feeling and has again told me that she'd never really noticed it before but now that it's not there, that she says there was always this tension she felt, that if she was acting sexy and I was horny, that she said she'd also felt almost an obligation to have sex with me and now she doesn't feel that at all. She looked at me and said "even you no longer assume we'll just be having sex because you're horn" and she said how liberating that feels.
Far2, it will sound crazy but the craziest most weirdly satisfying feeling was how I felt driving home last Tuesday with Sue knowing she'd had sex with him twice and that as she sat next to me, that she was undoubtedly still enjoying the afterglow of having been with Paul. But if I had to say the part that touches me the most is how comfortable and even eager she when she's with him. This last time, seeing just how she was as they kissed and caressed and then - I can't explain it but seeing her lie back and basically spread her legs for him - and then yes, watching him enter her - that to me is the most intense thing to be a part of, seeing her give herself to him and accept him.
I try not to look at Paul too much but as he kneels between her legs and so comfortably rubs his cock up and down her pussy, how it spreads open for him as he rubs her wetness (and his) all over. Theres's something just so incredible to see her eyes - so glassy and deep looking staring at him or looking down at where he's about to enter her. Yes, seeing her feet point upwards as she feels him.
I guess for me that is just the first point that really turns me on. But I will admit that even when I can't see her clearly, that it's just Paul I can see blocking or lying against her - that yes, seeing his motion, knowing in my head that with each movement, she's feeling him deep inside her. And yes. As a cuck I will also admit openly that the arousal and excitement of that pales to what I feel at the end when yes, even I can tell he's about to cum in her. Perhaps the craziest thing is that even I can now tell clearly when he's almost there and I find myself almost rooting for him - maybe one day I'll be able to say it out loud to them - but in my head at that moment, I'd be lying if I said that I couldn't wait to see him start to thrust deeper and deeper and yes, then to see that one last time followed by his now familiar grunt.
What I do need to share is that I am starting to definitley feel more of what Suqirming and others have posted about. Even our Wednesday nights, certainly this past one, feel much closer for me. She touches me more and will lie closer to me - and she is clearly much more open about teasing and talking to me. I had, as others here asked, mentioned that I would at times like to hear more from Sue about her time with Paul. She seems to have begun to do just that. It's not totally perceptible but she definitely talks about him more and will tell me many times how wonderful he makes her feel.
However, what I will end on for now is something we have talked about before, but she is adamant that she doesn't feel like she loves Paul and she is quite surprised at herself for that. In fact, she's almost made it a point to emphasize that - and she's told me that she thinks it's part of what's maybe making this happen faster. We talked a bit just last night and she said that she doesn't feel pressured to feel like she "has to love him" to feel what she wants. She said that the changes in me, specifically "accepting my desires", have been something that's been huge to her and she said "it's as if it's what I needed from you to make it okay" for her.
I asked how she's managing to only see him once this week and she giggled and said that she'd wanted to talk to me later this week but when I brought it up she kissed me and smiled and said "well, we were hoping to make up time next week" and when I asked her what she meant she told me that she wants to spend 2 nights with him next week at his place. I gulped and she kissed me and held me and said "lets talk about it more this week, okay". She hugged me and said again "I think you'll be okay with it, but lets talk more later this week to be sure". If you could have been there to hear the concern/care in her voice and how honestly she talked to me, you would probably understand why all of this is seeming easier for me.
