i found out i had a cuckold fetish about a year ago and i wanted too keep it a fantasy I've been with my gf for a year and a half I'm 19 and she's 18 so were very young one day she found out about my fantasy but questioning me and i got all embarrassed ever since then we've watched about 7 - 8 vids and she has wanked me off each time. she has always been dominant in the bedroom as i always have a foot fetish, i like wearing her underwear and i love eating my cum, i like being on a lead and treated like a *****.
I am not a weak person or a pushover I have a dick size of around 7 inches and i'm not the wimpy type of character.
Anyway about a week ago she had me on a lead sitting on the floor and put a cuckold video on and started wanking me off, she then wanted me too turn it off and fuck her so as i was fucking her she said did you like that I said yeh and for some reason a part of me opened up and started saying "i want u too have big black dick inside you" and she loved the thought of it and got so horny off it.
A few days later we started discussing it for reality and she knew someone who was black, sexy and had a big dick. The thought of it turned us both on so much and I knew she loved it but one minute she wanted to do it next she didn't and I was the same.
Anyway we both decided we didn't want too do it until she met him that night as she had already arranged it and I was fine with her seeing him although I never used too like him because he likes her and wanted her too be with him, while she was with him I asked her if she was turned on and she said "yeh i can't even looking at him my pussy is soaking", I then literally begged her too call off the agreement about us not doing the whole cuckold thing and she then kissed him that night and told me when she saw me I was so hard and excited and she loved it but she wants too take things slow and train me too become a cuckold.
At the same time I'm scared of people finding out, people have respect for me and I don't want too be seen as some weakling and a little pussy boy, I've tried too run away from this cuckold stuff but I can't everyday I am being more obient for my girlfriend and will do anything she says, she talks about him during sex and how she wants me too suck his dick and take it up the ass aswell when it happens but the guy hasn't replied too her text since the kiss so were not sure whats going on.
I'm scared of this new reality I may be facing I love my girlfriend and she loves me too, she won't go through with it unless I'm 100% but she really wants black dick inside her as she's always had a thing for black people which she has just confessed too me (I am white), although she is happy with me and wouldn't care if we didn't do it because I do satisfy her.
I'm young, I don't want too be burnt and it too affect my real life if anything does happen, my normal self is strong mentally and I'm not the type of guy this should happen too and I don't know how its going too affect my emotions although I was fine with the kiss even though it has been on my mind a bit i've dealt with it well, what if my friends or family found it? what if it made me feel like I'm nothing (although I already feel like i'm not a man and i'm my gfs bitch but I love it).
This is a massive thing and the thought of it has enhanced our sex life so much i never used too want sex that much because I was lazy but I have been constantly hard for the past 5 days, I'm wondering if I was just born too be a cuckold bitch because I can't run away from it I love it especially now she's already humiliated me so much over the past few days and is converting me too her bitchboy, but after the humiliation I find it a bit difficult too deal with for an hour or so and then I'm alright and back too normal.
I don't know whats going too happen from here we have made some agreements and will only involve a bull in who we can trust and we only want too stick too one guy for as long as possible as she doesn't want too be slutty.
One more thing though we think this experience may bring us closer together as we already do feel closer from whats already happened.
I Hope this hasn't been too long too read (sorry if it has) but I'd really appreciate what you guys think about the whole situation and also if anyone could give me any advice id be so grateful.
I am not a weak person or a pushover I have a dick size of around 7 inches and i'm not the wimpy type of character.
Anyway about a week ago she had me on a lead sitting on the floor and put a cuckold video on and started wanking me off, she then wanted me too turn it off and fuck her so as i was fucking her she said did you like that I said yeh and for some reason a part of me opened up and started saying "i want u too have big black dick inside you" and she loved the thought of it and got so horny off it.
A few days later we started discussing it for reality and she knew someone who was black, sexy and had a big dick. The thought of it turned us both on so much and I knew she loved it but one minute she wanted to do it next she didn't and I was the same.
Anyway we both decided we didn't want too do it until she met him that night as she had already arranged it and I was fine with her seeing him although I never used too like him because he likes her and wanted her too be with him, while she was with him I asked her if she was turned on and she said "yeh i can't even looking at him my pussy is soaking", I then literally begged her too call off the agreement about us not doing the whole cuckold thing and she then kissed him that night and told me when she saw me I was so hard and excited and she loved it but she wants too take things slow and train me too become a cuckold.
At the same time I'm scared of people finding out, people have respect for me and I don't want too be seen as some weakling and a little pussy boy, I've tried too run away from this cuckold stuff but I can't everyday I am being more obient for my girlfriend and will do anything she says, she talks about him during sex and how she wants me too suck his dick and take it up the ass aswell when it happens but the guy hasn't replied too her text since the kiss so were not sure whats going on.
I'm scared of this new reality I may be facing I love my girlfriend and she loves me too, she won't go through with it unless I'm 100% but she really wants black dick inside her as she's always had a thing for black people which she has just confessed too me (I am white), although she is happy with me and wouldn't care if we didn't do it because I do satisfy her.
I'm young, I don't want too be burnt and it too affect my real life if anything does happen, my normal self is strong mentally and I'm not the type of guy this should happen too and I don't know how its going too affect my emotions although I was fine with the kiss even though it has been on my mind a bit i've dealt with it well, what if my friends or family found it? what if it made me feel like I'm nothing (although I already feel like i'm not a man and i'm my gfs bitch but I love it).
This is a massive thing and the thought of it has enhanced our sex life so much i never used too want sex that much because I was lazy but I have been constantly hard for the past 5 days, I'm wondering if I was just born too be a cuckold bitch because I can't run away from it I love it especially now she's already humiliated me so much over the past few days and is converting me too her bitchboy, but after the humiliation I find it a bit difficult too deal with for an hour or so and then I'm alright and back too normal.
I don't know whats going too happen from here we have made some agreements and will only involve a bull in who we can trust and we only want too stick too one guy for as long as possible as she doesn't want too be slutty.
One more thing though we think this experience may bring us closer together as we already do feel closer from whats already happened.
I Hope this hasn't been too long too read (sorry if it has) but I'd really appreciate what you guys think about the whole situation and also if anyone could give me any advice id be so grateful.