I’m not proud of it at all. Short version; my wife convinced me she was having an affair she refused to break off, I gave up on us and found a fwb. When I conceded to divorce my wife changed her tune and we “worked it out” (but not really). I had already given up and stayed for the kids only so I kept my fwb for a while. Great sex but I was never happy and would give anything g to be able to say I was honorable in my marriage. Karma’s a bitch!