Hi Good Wife, Thanks for beeing so open about yourt feelings on this. Fit Brotha's advice on how to do your ass trainning is all good. All i would add is, involve your husband in every step; buying the dildos, practicing with them, and doing the musel exercises. Talk about 'A' as you do this [dont just 'live in your head', as you commented, but do your thinking out loud, as though confiding with a 'special' girl friend]. When your husband lubes the dildoes and helps you insert them up your bum, remember this is not a sexual thing between you, this is part of your preperation to make yourself an even better sexual offering to your boyfriend. And you will love your husband all the more for the loveing, tender and devoted help he gives. As a cuckold, this will feed his adoration of you. He will share in the joy of your progress over the days and weeks as your ass whole is stretched to accommodate even the fattestest cock. The first step is getting the head through the entrace to your arse, after that, accomodating the length is just a matter of getting used to it, and relaxing as your lover goes deeper.
Talk to your husband throughout your training; but this is not a converasation of equals: the cuckold is as a sevrvant, honoured to share in the preperation of his mistress in the preperation of an erotic gift for her lover. This shou;ld be playful, teasing and girlie, not stern of domineering. His reward is in knowing that he has contributed to your happiness, and that of your boyfriend. Your husband knows that there are other white wives competing for 'A' attentions, and he will take pride in the knowledge that such a Black Bull has chosen the 'Good Wife' for his sexual possession.
But all this will only develop properly so long as you control the emotional relationship with your cuckold. The jealousy, hummiliations and emptyness are both the pain and the joy of the cuckold. he will not only endure, but relish these as long as he knows he is loved and cherished as your pet and that you will never send him away.
Think how much fun it will be the first time you will be able to go on all fours and take your boyfriend in your arse. Not just the immediate pain as he pushes through the outer ring of your ass, but riding you to the hilt. Mounting and thrusting into you with the ease he now takes your pussy...!!! [wow]. How proud you will be that you have been able to give him somthing that his other white wives cant... How he will brag to his friend that he is now fucking you in the ass...and next time you're in a club with 'A's friends, you will be walking on air knowing that everyone knows your the prize slut who takes even the fattest cocks up your ass. But share the joy with your husband, be exited and girlie when you tell him about it, tell him how grateful you are for his help in training you, how much you love him for loving you. "...it was so good...darling,..and he came loads in me...I couldn't have done it without your help... Im so proud of you...are you proud or me..??". "...I think some of 'A's friends want to fuck me in the arse now..[giggle...giggle]...were really progressing, aren't we hubby...your such a lovely cuck...i love you to bits...[mwah mwah air kiss..giggle giggle]. The more you show you love him, like a pet girl friend, the more he will be your adoring submissive and passive cuckhold.
I've gone on too long, GW, and I meant to ask more about the teasing little hummiliations with of hubby in front of your close girl friend... thats a whole new area to develop...but more about that net time...
lots of love
Celine xxx
PS: I know that 'A', as your boyfriend, is the centre of your world right now, but in the end , the passion will fade, and he will move on to own other white wives... so be consious that you position yourself and your husband more broadly as a slut wife for black cock. There is no going back for either of you.