Hello, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to everyone.
I did say I would come back and post some updates at times and I will bring you all up to date for now.
It seems that moving away from posting here allowed me to get myself more together and further in-sync with Sue.
She recognized it too - even rewarded me with a few blow-jobs that were both welcomed and surprised.
We achieved her goals, with me willingly encouraging her (she appreciated that) to go and enjoy herself on Dec 24th with him.
I think I had shared that this was our first Christmas that we did not have sex together at all - we talked a lot about that and she was happy to hear me tell her that it turned me on. I told her I was wholly behind her reset she'd been wanting between us.
We talked a lot during that week - I was off from work and we had a lot of time. After seeing how content I was - and how her blow-jobs had become more and more intense - we talked a lot about how I felt being beta. She knew whatever was happening was good for us and I admitted comfortably that I was really happy. We talked a lot about my feelings about her now request to me to continue to use condoms with her and how I told her that it somehow felt "right" to me. She did begin to truly understand how something like that could turn me on, the denying me something could heighten my arousal around it.
She continued to tell me that she wanted to still "make love" on New Years Day and that to her, it felt even more special that we would. I told her that hearing and feeling her wanting that with me was a turn-on and that I would surely be there for her. She teased and giggled that I would have to be sure to wait till then.
He did spend New Years Eve with us - well, with her. She insisted I stay and be-with/watch them. They fucked several times, he came deep in her the first time and then seemed to enjoy letting me watch and show me several more times after that how he could get hard again and fuck her and make her cum. We opted for robes when they took a break and Sue took a second with me and teased me that I should be sure and wait to have her the next day.
I did manage to hold off and not masturbate on New Years Eve - even with my cock leaking away most of the night, I managed to stave off my arousal. They returned to our bedroom shortly before midnight were we all watched the ball-drop in Times-Square on TV before they began ringing in the new year one more time. I managed to watch them orgasm one last time before I was asked to leave them alone. Before the door opened the next morning I could clearly hear them one more time - after which Paul emerged fully-dressed. He thanked me and told me again how lucky I was and then he teasingly patted me on the back and said that she was waiting for me.
I gave her some time to sleep before crawling into bed beside her. She was soooo warm. I was naked when she felt me behind her and she reached back and felt my cock which I had already wrapped in a condom and she snuggled back against me. She smelled sweaty and also of sex. I was tentative at first but she guided my hands to her breasts and when I felt her allow me to get her nipples fully hard and I heard her breathing get deeper, I started to relax as did she.
I do not know how I didn't cum already but I was soooo hard. We spooned for a bit longer but when she turned to face me, it was no longer cuckold/cuckoldress - we were husband and wife for a period of time.
We had talked and I had told her I was worried about my performance and how turned on I was. I did move slowly and she did the same. This time it felt wonderful when she lay onto her back and spread her legs for me. I licked her first - also something we talked about that I absolutely wanted to do. I brought her close to orgasm and clearly could taste how she'd spent the prior 12 hours - but we also talked and had agreed that she would prefer to orgasm during intercourse with me and not orally (I can have that anytime if I wanted with you is how she put it).
The first time truly making-love to her was just amazing. I cannot find the right words beyond that to describe how it felt to once again penetrate her so initimately. She was a little tight at first but the little bit of lubricant I'd applied to the outside of the condom made it easier. She wasn't shy about rubbing herself as we both watched my cock enter her for the first time (well virtually) in 365 days. Feeling her warmth envelop my cock was nothing short of heavenly and I actually just wanted to lie perfectly still with her once I was fully in her. But that was a fleeting thought. Her asking and teasing about whether she felt any different inside really pushed me - and my cock was soooo hard and big - my god it felt sooo good to me to just feel it like that and to feel her pussy gently surrounding it.
She admitted that she was far hornier for me than she'd thought she would be. She had several mild orgasms building to a huge one.
I managed to hold on - feeling her legs around my back and her moaning started finally pushed me over the edge. She squealed and I could feel her pussy gushing around my condom-covered cock as I felt her body let go - finally feeling her body tremble beneath me and feeling her pelvis thrusting up and down driving her over and over the edge. Despite her passion at first she continued to tease me slightly and as I sank into her fully she hissed about whether she felt any different "being where Paul is so much now". I told her it felt too good for me to think about anything else.
I lasted long enough to feel her tremble and pull me in tightly to her with her legs around my back and literally a moment later, as I felt her come-down from her orgasm I let loose myself. Apparently she said my cock throbbed intensely and with some of the gentle thrusting that accompanied it, she admitted she'd orgasmed again at the same time as I did.