I have never been cuckold in the truest sense, more like "Hot Wifed". I have had 2 girls in my life who brought me cock and "made me" suck it, and another who allowed me to suck cock in front of her -it did not really excite her. But I had had occasional MM encounters since about age 12. After reaching "maturity"these MM always occured when I was between girls and very hungry for sex.
I enjoy sucking cock almost as much as sucking pussy and getting fucked in the asspussy by an enthusiastic guy (with 8 to 10 inches) is mind blowing especially when he fills my pussy full of cum. To enjoy cock with my girl present is truly satisfying and really brings out my feminine side. To seek out men for MM -as I have frequently done the last few years- certainly proves that I am bi sexual.
I am currently in a VERY satisfying MF relationship which has been, so far, monogamous -her choice. She knows I wear panties, and in fact, that I like to cross dress. She thinks this is HOT! I cross dress and we go to the local alternative bars. HOT! I fuck her while dressed as a girl. HOT! She calls my ass my pussy and fucks me with her BIG strap on. HOT!
She also knows that I am bi sexual. That's ok, goes with my feminine side. She also knows that I have had group sex. Not so hot. Not so much because she is grossed out by MM but because she firmly believes in monogomy.
So anyway, I thought it may be interesting to trace the thoughts, fantasies and experiences that led me to be a cock sucker. To retrace the fermentation process that produced a very masculine, conservative mid-western guy that is very turned on by this thread -She is going to make me suck his cock.
Why do I get such a thrill out of having a girl dress me up in girls clothes, call me a sissy, call me her bitch, call my ass a pussy and make me suck cuck and take it up my pussy?
I have been masturbating since I was about 5 and, of course, masturbation requires fantasies. Fantasies and masturbation. Addiction and taking it to the next level. Read on, fellow normal perverts.
I had never known the definition of cuckold until recently, but I was always very turned on over the years by the thought of my girl(s) fucking and/or sucking other guys, the more the merrier. Some of the early forms, such as Penthouse, occasionally carried stories about that and it made me crazy but I could never bring it up to any of my girls.
Such as us going to the pool hall (billiards), her in a short skirt & low cut blouse and driving all the guys crazy. Then, one by one, she takes them to the parking lot and gives them blow jobs. Or we go to the strip club and do the same thing. At the end of the evening we would take one or two home with us and we would all fuck her, maybe a stripper as well.
Then the letters started to appear about girls "punishing" guys by making them suck cock. That was about the hottest thing I had ever thought about. Actually having a girl humiliate me by making me suck cock and taste another guys cum and then make me say that I liked it and that I wanted more cock and that I was a sissy.
The third theme of the fantasy letters was anal sex; girls with strap ons. I knew before I reached puberty that my ass was an erogenous zone; when I was about 13 I started sticking a finger up my ass while I masturbated and had the best orgasms.
And then of course, the ultimate punishment/humiliation: Making me dress up like a girl and having her boyfriend fuck me in the ass and shoot his load in me.
Then the 4 scenes started to blur together: and each time my girl would return from giving a BJ in the parking lot she would give me a big French kiss in front of everybody so I would taste the cum. At the after hours party at our house, she would pretend to "get tired" of sucking cock and make me do it.
She would take charge, dress in her dominatrix outfit and make me dress up like a girl in front of the other guys, wearing a bra and panties with make up and humiliate me, make me act like a sissy and wait on them all, bringing them drinks, cleaning her pussy and ass and their cocks each time one of the guys would fuck her.
At that point it was all about her, but then, in my fantasies, I wanted to be the cum slut. So the fantasy became she would bring guys over for me to suck and for them to fuck me while she called me a sissy and made me clean the guys cocks after they fucked me and came in my "pussy". Then she started liking girls and would have her girlfriends over. The girls would only play with the girls and order me to service all the guys. In my fantasies, I had become the cum slut and the thought of being made to dress as a sissy in panties, bras and stockings and to wear makeup and a wig and to get gangbanged, filled and covered with cum and humiliated in front of girls blew my mind.
But that was the key - being humiliated by doing it in front of girls. And without a girl to share this with, I began to question my sexuality - am I gay?
As you all know, roughly 10 years ago, the Internet really began to explode with sites such as this one and other fetish sites. It was then that I discovered I was not alone and probably not gay, just very open minded and most definitely bisexual. Lots of people were at least talking about these alternative sex fetishes, whether or not they were acting on them is not as important as the talk, because talking about something taboo will tend to soften the stance against it and make it less of a taboo, less of a shock.
For instance, saying "he/she is gay" hardly has any negative meaning today. And to give you a preview of what’s to come with my fantasies, When I was an adolescent (I am 43 now) calling a guy a cock sucker was fightin' words. Now, I am proud to say I have sucked cock and if someone called me a cock sucker, I would correct them to say, "No, I am a very good cock sucker".
Well about 7 years ago, I moved to Southwest Florida and began to meet people who were more open minded. I will continue on another post.
So to continue, I will share with you a true story about one of my favorite girls, Melissa.
On the next post.