Seems like Thursday's will be a regular thing

[SoonToBe]

So - last night I masturbated for Sue (or should I say "in front of Sue"). She encouraged me by saying she was going to be like she is with Brad - naked and letting me see ALL of her! That turned me on and she teased me more to further encourage me. She must have been in a great mood because just as I was going to cum she leaned over and finished me off orally!! Damn that was great and I was in a great mood this morning as she left her usual early on Thursdays. I didn't need to check the bathroom drawer as it's a given. It's actually getting easier for me this week as I don't feel the same angst today.

Then I read Mary's-pet's last 2 posts and it got me thinking. I do see similarities in that Sue seems to have separated sex from love with Brad. But the difference I see is that Sue hasn't separated that with me and the passion we feel together (and believe me, there is no doubt) when we have sex is absolutely enhanced by the love we have for each other. Yes, I can accept that she may scream louder or be more brazen with Brad than she can be at home - but I know that the sex we have together is deep and connective for us. When I look into her eyes as she clutches at my body as I feel her orgasm under me - there is no doubt in my mind.

However, the aspects of more denial that Marys-pet shared are nonetheless very arousing. I would like to experience how it would feel for her to say "not tonight please" on a Thursday when she gets home. I think that moment would be profoundly arousing for me. But more than 2 days of denial would be too much for me at this point.

I think if we can keep open and honest with each other - and still have intense loving sex - that hopefully this will all work out. I haven't seen her this happy in general in years and that makes me feel great. But I will heed the warnings and try to be aware if I see other changes between us.

In the meanwhile - just thinking of them later is keeping me at my desk here at work - I am so horny thinking about it ....

More later

 

[Custer Laststand]

Soon,

So - last night I masturbated for Sue (or should I say "in front of Sue").

*Very* good. Apparently many women like to see a man masturbate at their feet....

She encouraged me by saying she was going to be like she is with Brad - naked and letting me see ALL of her! That turned me on and she teased me more to further encourage me.

....and clearly, Sue is one of them. Perhaps you should consider doing it on your back, nude, lying on the floor in front of her, while she relaxes in a chair fully clothed next time.

When I look into her eyes as she clutches at my body as I feel her orgasm under me - there is no doubt in my mind.

That's good.

—Custer

 

[marys_pet]

Then I read Mary's-pet's last 2 posts and it got me thinking. I do see similarities in that Sue seems to have separated sex from love with Brad. But the difference I see is that Sue hasn't separated that with me and the passion we feel together (and believe me, there is no doubt) when we have sex is absolutely enhanced by the love we have for each other. Yes, I can accept that she may scream louder or be more brazen with Brad than she can be at home - but I know that the sex we have together is deep and connective for us. When I look into her eyes as she clutches at my body as I feel her orgasm under me - there is no doubt in my mind.

However, the aspects of more denial that Marys-pet shared are nonetheless very arousing. I would like to experience how it would feel for her to say "not tonight please" on a Thursday when she gets home. I think that moment would be profoundly arousing for me. But more than 2 days of denial would be too much for me at this point.

I think if we can keep open and honest with each other - and still have intense loving sex - that hopefully this will all work out. I haven't seen her this happy in general in years and that makes me feel great. But I will heed the warnings and try to be aware if I see other changes between us.

Keep in mind that Mary has been cuckolding me for a considerable number of years now, and that our attitudes and our approaches to how to make cuckolding work for the two of us have evolved considerably during that time. Ours is definitely some "talking about it to full on chastity and denial in 2 weeks or less" fantasy like some of what you see posted here. That said, you and Sue are different people than Mary and me, and you will no doubt find your own way through this and end up with whatever approach works for the two of you.

 

[SoonToBe]

Hey again,

I was going to post here that Sue had just called me and said she might be home closer to 7pm instead of 6:30 - but I think she also did it to tease me and get me worked up for the rest of the afternoon.

Custer - I don:t view myself as all that much of a submissive so I don't know that I'd do the "lie on the floor and masturbate" thing - that is, unless Sue wanted me to.

Mary-pet - thank you for the further comments on the unique aspects of your relationship. I don't think I understood the "two week" comment, but I know that what Sue and I are experiencing isn't a short-term quick thing.

I had assumed that your situation evolved over a long time. I cannot know how you feel but in the abstract, it is very arousing to be able to KNOW when your sexual relationship will stop. I do not know how I would handle that, but given your relatively limited sex now, perhaps it is not as troubling as it sounded.

You say you are turned on my Mary having sex with others - can you tell me if you get to watch her at all (or did you in the past)? I have yet to see Sue with Brad and am still not sure I'm ready for that as right now I am very content with our situation without that. I don't think I'm ready for that just yet - but when the time does come, I expect it to be incredible to see in person.

Thank you again for your helpful and supportive feedback. I hope I can keep my mind on work till it's time to head home.

 

[Custer Laststand]

Soon,

Custer - I don't view myself as all that much of a submissive so I don't know that I'd do the "lie on the floor and masturbate" thing

No, no, of course not... it wouldn't be appropriate at all for a man of your stature.

- that is, unless Sue wanted me to.

Hm... on the other hand, maybe you should ask her if she'd like that. You don't seem like the bashful type. You could impress (and turn on) your wife even further if you were to hold a single rose in your teeth while masturbating at her feet....

—Custer

 

[marys_pet]

Mary-pet - thank you for the further comments on the unique aspects of your relationship. I don't think I understood the "two week" comment, but I know that what Sue and I are experiencing isn't a short-term quick thing.

That wasn't directed in any way at you. There's just a fair amount of nonsense posted here sometimes where things go way too smoothly or develop way too quickly to be true to life.

I had assumed that your situation evolved over a long time. I cannot know how you feel but in the abstract, it is very arousing to be able to KNOW when your sexual relationship will stop. I do not know how I would handle that, but given your relatively limited sex now, perhaps it is not as troubling as it sounded.

It is something that I find very arousing to think about. For now, it's far enough that I can push it out of my mind for long periods of time. I imagine that's going to get more difficult to do when the count gets down to 100... then to 50... 25... 10. I wonder how intense it will be on our very last Saturday night, knowing that my cock will never be inside her pussy again.

You say you are turned on my Mary having sex with others - can you tell me if you get to watch her at all (or did you in the past)? I have yet to see Sue with Brad and am still not sure I'm ready for that as right now I am very content with our situation without that. I don't think I'm ready for that just yet - but when the time does come, I expect it to be incredible to see in person.

I have gotten to watch a couple of times, but she much prefers to meet her fuck buddies without me present. She finds that having me there inhibits her, and detracts from her experience of being able to fully open up to them. I do wonder what it will be like in the future, laying awake at night and listening to other men fuck her in what used to be our bed, knowing that I will never have that pleasure again.

 

[casino]

That wasn't directed in any way at you. There's just a fair amount of nonsense posted here sometimes where things go way too smoothly or develop way too quickly to be true to life.



It is something that I find very arousing to think about. For now, it's far enough that I can push it out of my mind for long periods of time. I imagine that's going to get more difficult to do when the count gets down to 100... then to 50... 25... 10. I wonder how intense it will be on our very last Saturday night, knowing that my cock will never be inside her pussy again.



I have gotten to watch a couple of times, but she much prefers to meet her fuck buddies without me present. She finds that having me there inhibits her, and detracts from her experience of being able to fully open up to them. I do wonder what it will be like in the future, laying awake at night and listening to other men fuck her in what used to be our bed, knowing that I will never have that pleasure again.

Marys Pet,

Let me begin by stating I have no frame of reference nor personal experience with the cuckold/shared wife lifestyle. Soon and I have PM'd a few times about things I've picked up in his thread, and I have told him how envious I was of he and Sue, and where they were headed together. Like Soon, and I think you judging from what I read, the primary goal and intent was the satisfaction of your respective spouses thereby strengthening your love.

Again, judging soley on your writings, you both seem like reasonable men with reasonable lives; very much like myself.

In reading your last paragraph, I'm not sure I could emotionally handle that for more reasons than I could write in a short post. I'm not sure I could readily agree to permanently move from "our" bedroom, lie in an adjacent bedroom, and listen to my wife and her lover(s) knowing I'll never have any sexual relations with her again.

Please understand, there is no judgement here, just my assessment of my own perceived failings to accept what now appears to be a not abnormal evolution of events.

Rick

 

[marys_pet]

In reading your last paragraph, I'm not sure I could emotionally handle that for more reasons than I could write in a short post. I'm not sure I could readily agree to permanently move from "our" bedroom, lie in an adjacent bedroom, and listen to my wife and her lover(s) knowing I'll never have any sexual relations with her again.

Please understand, there is no judgement here, just my assessment of my own perceived failings to accept what now appears to be a not abnormal evolution of events.

No judgment (nor offense) taken, and thank you for your kind remarks. Mary and I are well aware that we're heading down a path that would most definitely not be for everyone. I'm not sure how I'm going to handle it either, once it gets closer to becoming part of my reality, but from my current still safe distance I find the anticipation of it to be quite intense.

Also, keep in mind that she won't be moving me "out" in order to move a boyfriend "in". She and I will continue to live as husband and wife, and I expect will remain every bit as in love with one another as we are presently. Her sexual partners will continue to be nothing more than fuck buddies. She will simply have completed the process of replacing me with them as her sexual partner(s) and the source of her sexual satisfaction, and I will be accepting my sexual retirement as an act of love for her.

 

[marys_pet]

I also wanted to add that although this is a decision that Mary has made, and that it's her right to make according to the terms of our relationship, that she's always been respectful of my limits and considerate of my inputs when reaching her decisions. We both believe that the path we're on is the right path for us, although we understand that for many people it would not. If I were to say that I could not handle being sexually cut off from her, I do believe she would accept that, although she would continue to make clear that it was for my benefit only and that she much preferred being sexually intimate with her fuck buddies.

Let me put it this way, and see if it makes it easier to wrap your brain around my thought process. If the only partner sex you were ever again going to have with your wife would be pity sex, would it be worth having sex with her at all?

 

[casino]

Marys Pet,

I was hesitant to post initially for fear that I could/would not adequately articulate my thoughts. I hear what you're saying about pity sex versus no sex, I just don't think I would be emotionally equipped to deal well with that as a definite outcome.

I don't pretend to understand what's going on in your head, Perhaps you are experiencing seome level of inner turmoil that you have found a way to deal with effectively. Maybe it's just acceptance of the inevitable. I have no idea.

I know what I know, and I know what I think I know; but I don't know what I don't know. How I would deal with this same situation would fall into the last bucket. But that's just me.

I admire your positive attitude and approach, and I mean that sincerely. My personal doubt about how I would react is again, not a value statemnt of right or wrong, simply my own self-doubt and possible insecurity.

Rick

 

[marys_pet]

Marys Pet,

I was hesitant to post initially for fear that I could/would not adequately articulate my thoughts. I hear what you're saying about pity sex versus no sex, I just don't think I would be emotionally equipped to deal well with that as a definite outcome.

I don't pretend to understand what's going on in your head, Perhaps you are experiencing seome level of inner turmoil that you have found a way to deal with effectively. Maybe it's just acceptance of the inevitable. I have no idea.

I know what I know, and I know what I think I know; but I don't know what I don't know. How I would deal with this same situation would fall into the last bucket. But that's just me.

I admire your positive attitude and approach, and I mean that sincerely. My personal doubt about how I would react is again, not a value statemnt of right or wrong, simply my own self-doubt and possible insecurity.

Rick

I'm afraid the brevity of my words might be causing me to portray my wife as some cold hearted bitch, which let me assure you is most definitely not the case. Our marriage, and our relationship in general, is very loving.

Let me try one more time to portray where my head is at with all this. You obviously love your wife, and you enjoy fucking her. What if you knew, as assuredly as I know, that you were only going to get a limited number of opportunities to continue doing so? How much more would you savor each and every one of those precious encounters? How much of a rush would it be, knowing that your wife's pussy was a precious resource that, for you, was running out? That's the head trip that I experience, each and every time I fuck my wife. My day of reckoning is still quite a way off into the future, but it is most assuredly coming.

Now, enough about me. It was never my intention, in posting some of my personal story, to hijack SoonToBe's thread. What we're all waiting on bated breath to hear, of course, are details of Sue's rendezvous with Brad this afternoon.

 

[marys_pet]

SoonToBe, we are all waiting anxiously for updates on Sue's Thursday afternoon with Brad, and your reconnection with her afterwards.

 

[SoonToBe]

Marys-pet - you wrote so much - and I'd read a lot of it before Sue and I were intimate Thursday night. As Sue and I went at it, I was thinking of I'd feel if I were you and this was one less time with her knowing what you know.

It was quite intense, to say the least.

I was concerned that my masturbating with Sue on Wednesday might have taken the edge off of Thursday but it didn't, it was almost the opposite as I did let myself go with the knowledge that she preferred me to do that instead of having sex with her. By Thursday night, I was quite ready.

She did get home a bit later. The kids are now used to the routine and ask her how her conference call with overseas went and the whole time she's giving me a knowing smile.

I think I'm quite used to this now and just the knowledge that only an hour earlier she'd been having sex with Brad is now enough to drive me crazy. Sometimes I think I can taste sperm on her breath or on her lips but I am sure it's my imagination. I remember noticing her bare legs and wondered where her thigh-highs had gone to.

We finally said good night to our son about 9:30pm and then we went upstairs. (we think he's figured out now that when we say goodnight early like that, it's because we're going to have sex).

Maybe it was all the stuff I'd read here but I seemed to be very aware of all of her. I can't explain it but as she undressed, I took in every bit of skin, every nook and cranny, and it just turned me on to no end to think that Brad had her like this not 4 hours earlier. Seeing her lay back on the bed and crook her finger to call me to her - damn even now I'm hard again.

It was like most Thursday sex (as I think of it) - she feels so incredible, a silky smoothness that is unimaginable. Knowing and feeling that Brad was in her, maybe even deeper than me, it was driving me crazy. I know she was tired but the look on her face just said to me that she wanted me to have her as deep and as much as she'd let Brad have. At least that was how it felt at that moment. Her pussy opened up and felt just incredible as we both (yes, it does happen for us sometimes) came together. Me, much more intensely than her - but she too came for sure as the sweat on her forehead is a give away along with how her body feels.

We didn't really talk that much till afterwards when she said to me that I seemed to "really" want her tonight and wanted to be sure I was okay. We did talk about stuff, but nothing terribly sexual as we lay there and watched TV. I'd hoped to hear about her time with Brad but she seemed to talk about everything but, so I let it go figuring maybe she'd just had too much sex for one night.

Her diaphragm case seems to have some symbolism for me and seeeing it back in the drawer after her shower Friday morning was like a sign that her time with Brad was over for this week. LIke I said, I seemed to start to notice lots of things.

Last night though we did talk. Again, we didn't head up to bed till after 10pm and as she started to undress, I asked her if she'd tell me about her night with Brad. She asked me if I was sure and I said yes - I wanted to hear. She smiled at that and said okay. As I undressed and we both climbed into bed naked she started.

I'm still horny now as I'm typing this so I'm going to take a break and come back later. She's about to get up from a short nap so I'm going to end here for now.

 

[SoonToBe]

I still have this uncomfortable feeling when she tells me how close she feels with Brad and as she told me what they'd done, those feelings came crashing over me.

Again she started by simply saying she wanted to be naked with him. Just hearing her say that made me feel so aroused and yet, I guess, almost jealous in a way. I'd never thought about it but she told me how they kiss and how it turns her on for Brad to undress her. She was gently stroking my now hard cock as she told me more of how once she was naked, how she undressed him.

I know they kiss. At first I wasn't happy about that - I think I said I was concerned about that - but now, as I kissed her, it turned me on to know that Brad's tongue (among other things) was in her mouth - and how they shared their passion in a deep kiss.

After this though she began to share how intimate they are together. How she sucked gently at his cock or how he at her breasts. I felt like I would die when she pulled her legs back for me and said that was how she "presented" herself for Brad so he could go down on her. And a second later I was doing the same and that knowledge drove me crazy with desire.

Lying next to her naked like that and knowing that is how she is with him just drove me crazy for her. And I felt a challenge for myself to make her cum like Brad had done for her. I swear, thinking of him licking her pussy like I was spurred me on and I too made her scream with delight (though probably not quite as vocally). As her body began to relax I slid upwards and rubbed my cock against her pussy and that seemed to remind her.

She reached around to the nightstand and picked up her diaphragm and the cream and asked me if I wanted to put it in like Brad does for her! Oh my god - I swear my hands were shaking and I nearly came without touching myself as she said that as she put it in my hands. When she saw my reaction she smiled - and a second later when I was ready she said something like "this is how Brad puts it in me" and she proceeded to just spread her legs apart and there it was - her pussy on display. I leaned down and I just knelt there and it seemed like everything was stopped for a second.

This was the reality of the moment of my greatest anguish I've had - the idea that Brad had done this same act with my own wife just got to me. It was like an out of body experience or something because the next thing I heard was Sue asking me if I was okay. It was almost surreal as I folded it in half with one hand and with the other I spread her pussy open. As second later it was in and I was feeling around inside her to make sure it was in the right place. The whole time all I could think was that Brad also gets to do this with her!!!

From there forward it's a blur. She told me what positions they have tried and what each of them likes - but it was how she told it that got to me - as we moved, from me on top of her to her on her knees and me behind her - she'd just say "this is my favorite with Brad" and stuff like that. She'd found a middle-ground where she was teasing me as we were fucking and that really turned me on - hearing how what I was doing was the same as he had done.

I don't know how I lasted as long as I did, but I do know that by the time we were face-to-face with me on top and her legs locked behind me pulling me in as deeply as I could get - at that point, there was no more teasing from her - just deep, incredible loving passion. I swear, at that moment, it felt like we were one - my cock felt like it was huge and it's job was to totally fill her. She'd cum so much already that she just whispered "it's your turn baby" and that was it for me - a moment later as she held me tightly I let loose with what felt like a pint of cum.

After we caught our breath and washed up, we talked some more but it's late enough here that I"m going to bed for the evening and will save our further discussions for another day.

 

[Puller]

I am absolutely speechless!!!!!!!

 

[SoonToBe]

Puller - don't get so psyched up yet.
We talked a lot yesterday and today and, well, lets just say that I have some concerns. She shared some of how she feels about Brad and what they/she says when they're together that have me uncomfortable.
We have Sue's parents coming over for dinner tonight in a bit so I have to be short now.
I think I'm seeing some of the other side of things right now. I'm not concerned about losing her, just about it being too much (I guess, not too soon any more in some ways).
Yes to the sex having been incredible though. She does know how to play with me as I"m seeing.
More later.

 

[Puller]

Ok, you are concerned.

Remember you have gone from being a Wannabe, to having the peak that this particular type of cuckolding can offer in a very short time.

What you have to do is trade off some things against others to achieve a balenced and entertaining lifestyle.

You will always feel on the edge like you do now, but balence that with the incredible sex that you are having. Do you think you could actually function without it?

This was one of the main reasons that several suggested having more than one lover for Sue. A spread of attention is much less worrying and dangerous than only one focus of attention.

These are just a few points and not specific suggestions as you have passed that point ages ago.

 

[marys_pet]

Seconding everything Puller said. Sue has also already made clear that she's starting to figure out what she wants out of all this, and that as she does so she's unwilling to compromise on those things, regardless of your concerns. Your choices are to accept them easily, or with difficulty, but she isn't giving them up.

As Custer is fond of saying, you asked your wife to make you a cuckold, and she did. Now a cuckold is what you are.

You are also a long way past the point of being the one in control of your and Sue's situation. That control now rests squarely with Sue, and she's starting to realize that as well.

Hang on tight, the ride is about to get bumpy. It's one hell of a rush, though.

 

[OneForSure]

I'm adding my 2 cents.
Change is difficult, and you and Sue are going through change. It's change that you wanted, but it still is not easy. As you get used to your role as a cuck, you will be more comfortable. Having said that Sue will probably become more and more dominant. You and Sue are in the midst of a power exchange. Things will continue to change. It's perfectly OK and natural. Just don't be surprised.

 

[Custer Laststand]

Soon,

Seconding everything Puller said. ....

I'll "third" everything Puller said.

Your choices are to accept [what your wife wants] easily, or with difficulty, but she isn't giving up [what she wants].

Doesn't sound like it. I think Marys_pet stated it well.

As Custer is fond of saying, you asked your wife to make you a cuckold, and she did. Now a cuckold is what you are.

I feel called on. "You asked your wife to make you a cuckold. Now, a cuckold is what you are." Actually, that was stated by someone in a different forum. Although obvious, it often seems an appropriate observation.

You are also a long way past the point of being the one in control of your and Sue's situation. That control now rests squarely with Sue, and she's starting to realize that.

I'd say so. And your wife does seem to be coming (so to speak) to that realization.*

—Custer

* Have you masturbated at Sue's feet yet? That will impress her with your sincerity as her cuckold, in addition to turning her on....