Jack looks across at me with a look that send chills of emotion up and down my back. There, see, we can be good, Barbara. Even if it takes the clock to keep us in the lobby... He grins and then his expression starts to change. Jack looks at me so seriously and his eyes seem to be going right through me. I want you to know something. He starts...sit still and quit jumping around...(is it that obvious how much I need this guy) There is no way for me to tell you how I feel. These emotions are too deep, and way too complicated. I would like to tell you that I am a very straight family man, who has traveled as I do, done the things I have done, had the temptations you would expect, and constantly been on high guard such that trangression never occured. That would not be true...The honest facts are. I have a family in Florida. Did You know that? Yes, Jack, I know you are married and have children. Yes, and that is very important to me. But, here is what you will never believe, but is is as truthful as the day is long...Barbara, I have never trangressed, not because I have been on some high guard or high moral ground, but because I have never been in the company of a woman that was tempting enough...
There was one glance between you and I, one shared glance that turned into a long look of love, that will go down as "the" major emotional moment in my life. That glance caught me unguarded and it was overwhelming. Even though you and I were having a private dinner in my suite, I was not the least bit concerned that I would let the evening become less than professional. First, I had been in similiar situations many times. I own these damn hotels and at the same time like my privacy. Secondly, I was in a great, good, deal with your husband, and great, good, deals are like sex for me. I get so wrapped up in them they consume me. My mind was completely occupied, until your beautiful brown eyes sweep into all my busy thoughts and said here is one very important thing you have got to think about, Jack.
I sit quietly, sort of stunned, this man loves me beyond a demension I have ever known. Love before this just happened. A crush in highschool, maybe two, I cannot remember either. Then college. Graduation. Love just was there. It was right. It fit with family, friends, and the timing of my life. It had no costs what-so-ever, just rewards. It has been good, no lows, no highs, it just works.
Jack..please listen..I do believe you, every word, your eyes that night in that room changed me forever. The look you gave me lives in my heart, Jack. It comes back to me every hour, day after day, it comes to me in dreams, when I try to read, shop, work around the house, in every quiet moment and right in the middle of the busiest times. Honestly. I thought I could never tell you because I thought I was just, school girl nuts, over a guy I should learn to avoid. Jack looks at me, pauses, ..well there you are MISS BARBARA...we have our burden to bear for sure, we both understand it now, but I don' t know that makes it any better. I look over to Jack, his face is filled with emotion and beyond him I see DUTCH and hubby coming across the lobby.
DUTCH is in the lead. He is walking swiftly with hubby about two paces behind. Jack remains seated beside me, but reaches up to shake each of their hands as they approach. Hey you, DUTCH greets us. Hubby steps back a step to allow DUTCH to pass. He comes around the table, I extend my hand, I am convulsing uncontrollably deep inside, he bends, slides under my extended arm, places his left hand under my unbuttoned sweater and gently kisses my neck. As he moves back upright, his hand brushes my DUTCH RING ever so gently. Glad you got here, Jack, I feel the need to get out of this town... He chuckles... I think I have dropped too much money and energy around here..He looks directly at me. Am, I were he "dropped all this energy" My face feels so warm.
DUTCH turns toward the entry... Lets get moving... I need to get to Miami...any snacks on the plane...Hey Jack, I just want you to know, I am going to be sitting in the back enjoying a couple glasses of your fine scotch, while you work you ass off up front...
The four of us move across the lobby. DUTCH is way out in front, like he cannot move fast enough. Hubby walks behind him with his two cases. Jack lingers behind beside me. His head moves, I look to see what he is looking at. We exchange an, all knowing, wonderful glance. His eyes are magical.
Jack stops...DUTCH..just a minute I need to check at the desk... I had a day room so I could get some work..got to let them know I am leaving. DUTCH stops. Work, work, work. that is all you think of man...He turns to hubby...hey go out there and make sure they have that hot rod limo ready to go for us. Hubby move across the lobby toward the door. DUTCH looks as Jack stands in line at the desk. He watches as hubby goes out to the entry. He bends down, opens his briefcase (the kind with a lid on the top, like Jacks') Clearly, no question the little blue panties my husband bought me for our anniversary are right on the top. My insides jump again. DUTCH brings up as small brown envelope. Hands it to me. Tuck that in your little handbag, there, take a look at it later.
Hey GAL..you still have Wednesday blocked out for old DUTCH, right. I hesitate. He looks at me with that look that kills me. I told you to have your pretty little ass all blocked out for me, you remember that. YES! DUTCH Hey, hey sounds like a little attitude here. I want you to pick me up at the airport. KEPISH. YES! I call you tomorrow when I know the times.