Let's try this again. I posted under "she agree now what" and didn't receive the information I needed. I am looking for help and experiences so that we can better make the decision. I have been reading and commenting for the past couple weeks and have gleaned a lot of info but it still isn't enough.
Even though the title says not a cuck or bull. I realize that I have been cuckolded by my wife in the past. Now that that is over, let's continue.
I am closer to a Bull in personality but have no desire to be either. I thought I would like to be cuckolded but reading what it takes I just don't find it appealing. Instead I would like to investigate hot-wife'ing or swinging.
I just can't get in to being subservient to another man, let alone while he is fucking my wife. And as for being a Bull, I have no desire to humiliate another man while fucking his wife. I have no desire to fuck another mans wife even. I just really want to see my wife enjoy a big, thick cock that isn't made of rubber. I know, selfish of me, bad husband.
It's not that I don't satisfy her. I'm average length and girth and I satisfy the hell out of that pussy. Even get her to squirt often which is a total turn-on for me and awesome orgasm for her. But the grass is always greener right? There is always someone out there, bigger, stronger, faster, more satisfying, etc. And before she met me, she was a bit of a slut and could never stay faithful in a long-term relationship. So although it hurt like a bitch, it didn't surprise me that she cheated.
Anyways, she has cheated on me three times in the past and each time our sex life gets better. We figured out that I thrive on the competitive feeling it creates in me. I try harder than ever to satisfy her.
And she thrives on the sexual control she takes. She has stated during our entire relationship she never felt fully in control of the sex. I had taken it when I wanted like the stupid ape I am. She says that she has always had control, starting at about 14 when she blossomed in to a C-cup and the grade 12's were drooling over her. She said that part of the reason is because she wanted that control back and to punish me for not being able to manipulate me using her sexuality. All I really know is she gets more aggressive and dominating in bed every cheat.
She says she is not sure she wants to fuck anyone else anymore as she is getting what she always wanted now. I think it's either because she would be fucking them on my terms, not hers, or she thinks it will do irreparable harm to my ego, our relationship and our family unit as a whole(we have two children) and just isn't worth it.
I know, bad hubby again, second-guessing the wife's true intentions, but I am not gonna lie, that last cheat destroyed the complete trust bond because of the way it went down. But strengthened the other bonds which confuses the hell out of me sometimes.
I was also thinking that it's because it's not as taboo as it was when it was behind my back. I told her by definition she has already made me a cuckold and it turns me on. Which is partly true. Sometimes in the heat of RP I get "diamond in an ice storm" hard. But out of the bedroom I am anywhere from "extremely aroused" to "any man touches my woman, they ain't getting that appendage back" angry. And I have told her that, which I guess then another reason would have to be fear of me going "bull in a china shop" ballistic. That is a hard one to get past as there have been incidents in the past where men had to be taught some respect. But age and surviving cancer has mellowed me considerably.
How do you suggest I get her off the fence? Or do you even suggest I move her at all and just let her stay there and RP till she makes the move? I'm not gonna push her. I love my wife, flaws and all. And she has already stated that she would reluctantly do it if I really wanted her to. I know she thinks about other men. And just recently we watched a porn where the woman was GB'd by seven guys, and that night she had a dream that she was that woman, grabbing at their cocks, slapping them against her body, but no penetration, no sucking and no cumming, which kinda disappointed us but she said she also felt bad while doing it. I asked naughty kinky bad or sad bad, she said sad bad. Don't know if this gives any insight to where she is mentally with all this.
PS-I have posted some pics of my loving wife and personal porn starlet on my profile, enjoy.
Even though the title says not a cuck or bull. I realize that I have been cuckolded by my wife in the past. Now that that is over, let's continue.
I am closer to a Bull in personality but have no desire to be either. I thought I would like to be cuckolded but reading what it takes I just don't find it appealing. Instead I would like to investigate hot-wife'ing or swinging.
I just can't get in to being subservient to another man, let alone while he is fucking my wife. And as for being a Bull, I have no desire to humiliate another man while fucking his wife. I have no desire to fuck another mans wife even. I just really want to see my wife enjoy a big, thick cock that isn't made of rubber. I know, selfish of me, bad husband.
It's not that I don't satisfy her. I'm average length and girth and I satisfy the hell out of that pussy. Even get her to squirt often which is a total turn-on for me and awesome orgasm for her. But the grass is always greener right? There is always someone out there, bigger, stronger, faster, more satisfying, etc. And before she met me, she was a bit of a slut and could never stay faithful in a long-term relationship. So although it hurt like a bitch, it didn't surprise me that she cheated.
Anyways, she has cheated on me three times in the past and each time our sex life gets better. We figured out that I thrive on the competitive feeling it creates in me. I try harder than ever to satisfy her.
And she thrives on the sexual control she takes. She has stated during our entire relationship she never felt fully in control of the sex. I had taken it when I wanted like the stupid ape I am. She says that she has always had control, starting at about 14 when she blossomed in to a C-cup and the grade 12's were drooling over her. She said that part of the reason is because she wanted that control back and to punish me for not being able to manipulate me using her sexuality. All I really know is she gets more aggressive and dominating in bed every cheat.
She says she is not sure she wants to fuck anyone else anymore as she is getting what she always wanted now. I think it's either because she would be fucking them on my terms, not hers, or she thinks it will do irreparable harm to my ego, our relationship and our family unit as a whole(we have two children) and just isn't worth it.
I know, bad hubby again, second-guessing the wife's true intentions, but I am not gonna lie, that last cheat destroyed the complete trust bond because of the way it went down. But strengthened the other bonds which confuses the hell out of me sometimes.
I was also thinking that it's because it's not as taboo as it was when it was behind my back. I told her by definition she has already made me a cuckold and it turns me on. Which is partly true. Sometimes in the heat of RP I get "diamond in an ice storm" hard. But out of the bedroom I am anywhere from "extremely aroused" to "any man touches my woman, they ain't getting that appendage back" angry. And I have told her that, which I guess then another reason would have to be fear of me going "bull in a china shop" ballistic. That is a hard one to get past as there have been incidents in the past where men had to be taught some respect. But age and surviving cancer has mellowed me considerably.
How do you suggest I get her off the fence? Or do you even suggest I move her at all and just let her stay there and RP till she makes the move? I'm not gonna push her. I love my wife, flaws and all. And she has already stated that she would reluctantly do it if I really wanted her to. I know she thinks about other men. And just recently we watched a porn where the woman was GB'd by seven guys, and that night she had a dream that she was that woman, grabbing at their cocks, slapping them against her body, but no penetration, no sucking and no cumming, which kinda disappointed us but she said she also felt bad while doing it. I asked naughty kinky bad or sad bad, she said sad bad. Don't know if this gives any insight to where she is mentally with all this.
PS-I have posted some pics of my loving wife and personal porn starlet on my profile, enjoy.
So I know she likes the way other guys look at her as a sex object ... sometimes. 
