I thought you deserved an immediate response...I think you need it.
First! Why did you cry for the last 2 days, after using the jelly in your ass for the first time. You know you must do it every day, don't you? You know the feelings will get better and better. Were you still saying "Black Cock Fucking Me" as you were cumming? Did you cum harder then you normally do?
You not posting your pic to this board wouldn't have changed a thing. You had already been fantasizing about getting blacked, and you would have carried through on your own. By posting, you've had black men attempting to help, guide and suggest ways you can realize your fantasy, and get blacked. You obsess about black men, because you know in your heart that being blacked would be your ultimate sexing. Depriving yourself would only cause you to become sexually frustrated, and bitter. Are you a slut? NO!! Not in reality, but is being a slut so terribly bad? In my opinion, a slut is someone who enjoys sex more then the majority of people, and I know you want to be one of those people.
I can understand you getting turned on by reading the responses you've gotten, but I just don't underestand you feeling worthless because of them. There's nothing worthless about you. We might get a little raw, and naturally Dominant, but it's all for your own good. We want you to start thinking and doing those things that will prepare you for your ultimate goal. You feel nervous and apprehensive, but that's to be expected, isn't it? You're about to venture on a new adventure, and as of this moment, you can't foresee everything that will happen. And yes, girl.. Your pics have caused many black cocks to get hard, and you can definitely put my 8 inches at the head of the list.....LOL No reason to feel scared and confused. All you should be feeling is sexy, disirable, wanted, and proud. You're not going to fuck your husband anymore, and won't allow his cum in your pussy, so that means what???? You're saving yourself now, aren't you? You've already decided and made up your mind as to what the next cock to fuck you will be, and we all know what that will be. Big Black Cock.
Keep trying to contact Cindy. Believe me, you won't be pestering her, because she's probably as anxious for you to go black, as you are. She's already offered her bf for your first black experience. Just think about that threesome. Your new life will begin there and then.
yeah, girl...wear your shortest skirt, go without a bra, and when a black guy looks at you, smile and really flirt with him. He'll know exactly what you're thinking and wanting. You're not a slave, but you do desire a Big Dominant Black Man, don't you?
Be cool, and post something here every day.....