I gave into my urges about 10 months before I met my current wife ( over 25 years ago), so there really wasn’t any “ guilt” regarding her at the time. There was more of “ I did something I was told that was bad for me since as long as I could remember “. It took me about 48 hours to get over it & actually want to have more, do more. After several times of doing the Saturday night sex with my future wife before we were married, I’d take her home & wideup at an adult bookstore or theater to really get off. For me, even after all these years , with one exception ( nearly a year long affair with my 1st wife about 2-3 years ago, who still is the one & only in everything ), it’s nothing to do with feelings of emotional attachment, basically if I’m not crying about missing you, than there’s no real connection. I look at everytime I’m with a man, woman or tgirl, that it’s only a physical connection, almost like a sort of workout, only the end of the workout is people are shooting cum & not grabbing a water bottle. The need to workout, to stay fit, stay healthy…same sort of thing.