Haunting memories of my past

[Niceguytoo]

I’m a married white guy who with kids. I don’t feel bi but occasionally I begin to crave dick!
I think it happens because of my earlier experiences with my buddies.
I believe we all have sexual experiences that shape or desires and for me it was experiences with guys I had a close friendship with.
Anyone care to talk about this subject of how and why we become slanted in a certain direction sexually?

 

[johnmasters]

My first sexual experiences were of being stripped naked and examined by other males. Even though I am married with a large family the desire to submit to and serve other men is always there, it has never gone away.

 

[Nazareth]

Unfortunately, many times sexual abuse as a child is likely the single biggest influence on future sexual behavior.

An older (about 6.5 yrs) neighbor groomed me to eventually make me sit on his dick while he sat on the toilet. I'm guessing he was 14-15 years old at the time, so I would've been 8-9. I don't remember it being traumatic, but I do remember feeling the penetration and me eventually sliding down until he was all the way in. I also don't remember him stroking his dick in and out, just moving it around and making me squirm and wiggle a little.

In any case, I don't feel it had an affect one way or the other. It may have made me more curious as I matured, but it didn't influence me other than that.
Now, I will admit that I like having my ass stimulated and penetrated, but I've never thought it was from this particular incident. It could be and I just don't recognize it, but it's not a worry to me.

I think just about everybody had a cousin they fooled around/played with growing up, ranging from a very young age to teenage years, and some went further than others, of course. Although this may also influence future sexual behavior, to what degree varies greatly.

I had a cousin maybe a year or so younger that was my playmate. On the occasions when beds had to be shard among the cousins, he was always my bunkmate. Probably around the 7-10 year old range, we would hump, touch, and play around enough to make our little dicks get hard, but it never went any further than that.

Again, though, I don't think it had any significant influence or affect on me.

 

[WifeLooker]

Great topic as I often think about this and my experiences are very similar. I remeber the first time being around 8 and staying at my cousins house who was also one of my best friends so I stayed there often. We would sometimes sleep in the same bed and one night we had a bath together, me 8 and him 10 which was a but weird when I think about but when we went to bed, he asked to compare dicks because I was cut and he wasn't. After laughing he asked to feel it and before I know it, he had my dick in his mouth. I think I got hard and he asked me to do the same which I did. It happened once more but then nothing until I was 12 and him 14. By that stage, me and a friend were doing stuff, ht my cousin would creat games where I would always lose and I knew what he wanted so I would go with it. We would jerk each other and give each other head for about a year and then stopped. We talked about in iur early 20's when ***** and just laughed. Probably the more impact full scenario and like others, I'm cool with it, but my older brother and I were home one day in our own, me 13 and him 16. I busted him watching porn and wanking which I giving him shit about. He was annoyed and embarrassed, probably more so because he didn't finish and had no girlfriend at the time. After about 20 mins, he came into the lounge amd asked if I still found it funny to which I said yes and laughed. He stood me up and I was only wearing boxers amd a t shirt and he took my top off and stripped me naked, pushed me onto the couch amd took his shorts off and was hard as. Before I knew it, he was on top of me and dry humped me and made me hard straight away because my friend would do the same. After a bit, he laid back, grabbed me by the head and made me suck his cock. After a minute, pushed me back and lined up his cock with mine and dry fucked me until he came. in my mid teens until my late 30's, I never hooked up with a guy but always enjoyed those memories so have gotten back into. My wife has no idea and I would never let her know

 

[WifeLooker]

Great topic as I often think about this and my experiences are very similar. I remeber the first time being around 8 and staying at my cousins house who was also one of my best friends so I stayed there often. We would sometimes sleep in the same bed and one night we had a bath together, me 8 and him 10 which was a but weird when I think about but when we went to bed, he asked to compare dicks because I was cut and he wasn't. After laughing he asked to feel it and before I know it, he had my dick in his mouth. I think I got hard and he asked me to do the same which I did. It happened once more but then nothing until I was 12 and him 14. By that stage, me and a friend were doing stuff, ht my cousin would creat games where I would always lose and I knew what he wanted so I would go with it. We would jerk each other and give each other head for about a year and then stopped. We talked about in iur early 20's when ***** and just laughed. Probably the more impact full scenario and like others, I'm cool with it, but my older brother and I were home one day in our own, me 13 and him 16. I busted him watching porn and wanking which I giving him shit about. He was annoyed and embarrassed, probably more so because he didn't finish and had no girlfriend at the time. After about 20 mins, he came into the lounge amd asked if I still found it funny to which I said yes and laughed. He stood me up and I was only wearing boxers amd a t shirt and he took my top off and stripped me naked, pushed me onto the couch amd took his shorts off and was hard as. Before I knew it, he was on top of me and dry humped me and made me hard straight away because my friend would do the same. After a bit, he laid back, grabbed me by the head and made me suck his cock. After a minute, pushed me back and

On the flip side of that, I also had a femal cousin ****** me to things when I was young. She was the older sister of my male cousin from above and I was about 14 and she was 17, I would stay over and she would come ***** and sneak me out the room to take me to her room. She would get naked, climb into bed and make me suck her titts and then push me down to eat her pussy until she came. To this day, I love eating pussy, sucking cock and guy dry humping me amd cumming over my cock

 

[Ericsean]

I’m a married white guy who with kids. I don’t feel bi but occasionally I begin to crave dick!
I think it happens because of my earlier experiences with my buddies.
I believe we all have sexual experiences that shape or desires and for me it was experiences with guys I had a close friendship with.
Anyone care to talk about this subject of how and why we become slanted in a certain direction sexually?

I knew something was afoot, freshman year in highschool, having to shower in the big group showers with my fellow students & teammates. The way their bodies were, how they were sexy to me in a way I couldn’t imagine. By the end of the school year, I was taking 4 showers a day. Morning, after practice or games with the team, waiting for all to leave the locker room, then shower & jerk myself off, then go home & shower. It wasn’t long before I would borrow the car & go to adult bookstores for bi & gay porn. Eventually being able to put about an inch and a half of my dick in my mouth & self suck,my 1st taste of cum. I knew I loved it since.

 

[ukcareandshare]

I would imaging that very many of us had same sex experiences while growing up. I certainly did, on many occasions.
I had no interest in what girls had between their legs, until I was about ten years old. I thought penis's were much more interesting. I have never had any involvement with another cock since my childhood, but I have still retained quiet a fascination with them, and I would not rule out playing with someone else's dick if the situation was right.

 

[noway]

I would imaging that very many of us had same sex experiences while growing up. I certainly did, on many occasions.
I had no interest in what girls had between their legs, until I was about ten years old. I thought penis's were much more interesting. I have never had any involvement with another cock since my childhood, but I have still retained quiet a fascination with them, and I would not rule out playing with someone else's dick if the situation was right.

Can so relate and yes was the same.