Warning: Newbie, not to sure how to put this forward, so I'll just gush.
I'm trying to get an idea of how actual cuckold couples regards each other when they are active (and open) in the lifestyle, all while I'm looking/reading into how this lifestyle "operates" and the protocols. I'd love to try this out, as I think it would help me get over my general fear/anxiety of pursuing sex and intimacy from black men (long story).
Even though I'm a tad addicted to it as of late, I know cuckold porn is a -terrible- way to learn about the lifestyle and actual playtime (tying to find a source of REAL experiences to learn from and get motivated by), but just about 95% of all I see involves the hotwife and/or bull either being very cruel or mean to the cuckold (either aggressively or passively), humiliated against his will, and other bad shit. The most I can tolerate is Yogahotwife, but since she's a porn star I'm assuming she's acting and not actually cuckolding someone (if she is, please correct me).
I'm not a mean person in the least bit and never want to hurt someone emotionally. If I had a guy by my side that allowed me to seek out black men then I'd be constantly expressing how thankful, appreciative and respectful of the freedom he would give me, and verbally do so constantly to reassure him that I'm not trying to take advantage of his consideration, despite being in a committed relationship and having sex with other people. I have yet to see any media that has that though. =/ Furthermore, I can't picture having sex in the same room as someone that's looking/feeling pathetic/emasculated.
In short....does wanting not to be a mean/cruel/emotionally abusive hotwife sort of put me out of the cuckolding spectrum? Seems like the kind of relationship I'd want with a cuckold is not the type most cuckolds would want, and I don't want to waste anyone's time trying to pursue if thats the case.
Thanks for reading, hope this is enough info. :3
I'm trying to get an idea of how actual cuckold couples regards each other when they are active (and open) in the lifestyle, all while I'm looking/reading into how this lifestyle "operates" and the protocols. I'd love to try this out, as I think it would help me get over my general fear/anxiety of pursuing sex and intimacy from black men (long story).
Even though I'm a tad addicted to it as of late, I know cuckold porn is a -terrible- way to learn about the lifestyle and actual playtime (tying to find a source of REAL experiences to learn from and get motivated by), but just about 95% of all I see involves the hotwife and/or bull either being very cruel or mean to the cuckold (either aggressively or passively), humiliated against his will, and other bad shit. The most I can tolerate is Yogahotwife, but since she's a porn star I'm assuming she's acting and not actually cuckolding someone (if she is, please correct me).
I'm not a mean person in the least bit and never want to hurt someone emotionally. If I had a guy by my side that allowed me to seek out black men then I'd be constantly expressing how thankful, appreciative and respectful of the freedom he would give me, and verbally do so constantly to reassure him that I'm not trying to take advantage of his consideration, despite being in a committed relationship and having sex with other people. I have yet to see any media that has that though. =/ Furthermore, I can't picture having sex in the same room as someone that's looking/feeling pathetic/emasculated.
In short....does wanting not to be a mean/cruel/emotionally abusive hotwife sort of put me out of the cuckolding spectrum? Seems like the kind of relationship I'd want with a cuckold is not the type most cuckolds would want, and I don't want to waste anyone's time trying to pursue if thats the case.
Thanks for reading, hope this is enough info. :3