I actually love denial of all sexual things, leaving me with useless balls and a penis only good for peeing. The humiliation of knowing I'll never be allowed to feel the inside of my wife's pussy with my penis again is a major turn on for me, especially if she's getting all the sex she wants from other men. I've forgotten long ago what her pussy feels like and she told me that she had no interest iny penis whatsoever and I should forget about intercourse forever. She hasn't touched my penis with anything but her hands for almost 7 years, and my last blow job to completion was in 1983, so I'm doomed to a sex life of hand jobs only given with absolutely no enthusiasm.