My response to it over arching and long term is just going lower in ages that I was looking for. They less they know the more control I have. And I just don't know to feel any kind of guilt or shame about that, from being rejected. It's definitely on men to be normal and respond normally to a woman being old enough to know what she wants and ask for it. And I know I'm actually more attracted to men my age and older men, much older men, but they don't want me back. So I just mimic their behavior in my selection choice. Because clearly they have the right idea. The lower you go the more obedient of a lover they are. I'd rather be submissive, but I settle on just training someone to be dominant who's a submissive little bitch and just does whatever someone says. That's my current lover. But the most annoying part is how he's so hot looking he almost never initiates touch first, it doesn't make me feel physically attractive because when a older guy does it they act like they need it because they have nothing else. In fantasy because that's still hard for me to find irl