Finally some time to catch up here. It has been a crazy week.
Even now, 5 days later, I'm still trying to sort out how I feel.
We, Sue and I, are very much still enjoying the after-effects. I won't say I feel differently about her at all, more that I have a different, very different, perspective on things. Right now it's not good or bad, just another view of what has always been there, us together.
That said, I have to say that the images I still can see so vividly anytime I close my eyes, are incredibly arousing in many ways. As Sue has said to me several times since last Friday, it is what I wanted. And I don't regret it, at least not yet.
As far as Kevinsslave's posting that it's not sustainable. I think that largely depends on the people who are involved. Sue seems to have chosen well with Brad as he is clearly not interested in anything more than a good fuck (as Sue has said to me herself when I have raised issues about how far she lets herself go with him). I do see risks, the next guy could touch her in a different way and yes, could cause things to change. If there's a next guy - she's said some things about being satisfied with an occasional time with Brad at times and yet at others she has said she wants something more.
Once I got over the initial "shock" of seeing her give herself to him and once I was able to breathe again, it seemed to be easier but still just not what you can adjust to right away. I mean I knew what they did - but seeing it in front of me made it real instead of just something she shared with me. As it started to sink in that this was real, I started to sort of get into it. At least in terms of wanting to see it all.
At some point I moved closer but still on the darker side of the room and I stayed quiet. Not that they were all that noisy - but Sue isn't really that noisy until she's close to orgasm. I think what gave me the most surprise was just how comfortable they were with each other. I know it's been about a year already they've been at it, it just didn't register that I'd see him being so casual with her in the same way that I am with her.
She just took his cock in her mouth and started sucking him hard. Now that was a heck of a turn-on! She can't deep-throat or anything like that but she looked incredible licking and sucking away at what she could. I remember thinking at the time that she can probably taste him already.
I loved how she looked so proud of her accomplishment when he was big and hard - I even felt good for her! It was obvious from how she was with it - her eyes closed - one hand between her legs at times rubbing away at her clit (she does that with me too) that she was enjoying it. I said before that I felt proud of her - and I'll say it again, it was totally hot watching her get Brad all worked up and watching him get her going. I remember noticing her nipples were hard too - another sign she was horny.
It was just like a porno movie. I think Brad said something like "are you ready?" and her answer was a yes and that was it. The moment of my most intense fantasy was about to begin.
She never looked over at me, neither did Brad. But I will never forget the sight of my wife lying on her back and spreading her legs for another man. Her pussy was visibly wet from where I sat quietly. It was wild watching her masturbate as Brad climbed between her spread bent knees.
And that was only surpassed by the sight of him rubbing the tip of his cock up and down Sue's spread open pussy! I had a thought of stopping it - for some reason as he did this a part of me just wanted to yell out stop and to push him away. But then I heard them - I heard Sue in this sexy sensual voice that I only hear when she's totally into fucking - she said something like "stop teasing already" and a moment later I watched something that both made me sick as well as made my cock throb wildly - Brad started to push into her.
Sue asked me later on why I stayed so far away at first and I told her I didn't want to freak them out to which she told me that after the first time when I didn't go postal on Brad, that he was okay with it and that they'd talked about how it was a turn-on for me so they were expecting me to move closer. I was going to ask why she didn't tell me to come closer but I knew she wasn't thinking about me at the time.
Seeing him push into her like that - seeing her want him like that - seeing her pull her knees back and seeing her arch her back to let him in more. Wow - it's getting me worked up just typing this. Yes, there was definitely pain at watching this - despite how beautiful and clearly enjoying herself she was - it did hurt to see it actually happen. Even now, if I could remove one moment it would be these first few seconds/minutes - something about the tenderness and intimacy of them at that moment that just eats at me.
Every time I've fucked her since then I've thought about that moment. Despite the hurt (and that's not the right word as it's not something bad that I feel) it is the most intense turn-on I can imagine. Seeing her let him into her pussy - seeing her open up for him and then - oh god- then encouraging him to take her. That was intense but didn't hurt - seeing her encourage him to do her harder. I don't remember what she said but she was clear to him that she wanted him.
It was almost like watching 2 animals mating - not my wife and her lover. I remember going to adjust my pants and thinking that I'd better be careful so I ddin't just cum in my pants.
She said she gave all of herself to him and as they continued there was no doubt. She let him hold her legs back - pushing her knees almost back to her breasts and her pussy was facing almost straight upwards - and the whole time he's fucking her. Right in front of my face - her pussy is so wet and open and clinging to him.
It seemed like it could go on forever and I could watch forever. I've seen other people fuck but never like this - and certainly never where it was Sue on her back like that. They did get louder - moans accompanying each time their crotches meet. What struck me was the sounds - wet sticky sounds.
Sue had cum several times - some bigger than others. She is very multi-orgasmic (why else would she do this if she weren't?) - always has been with me and she says it only happens (happened before me until now?) when she's really comfortable with the guy.
I knew what was coming up (ha ha). Strange to say even now that after watching them for a few minutes, I actually found myself actually wanting him to finally cum in her. It felt like watching a movie and wanting to see the ending. But for as much as I thought I was prepared - there is just something incredible about seeing it for real that first time.
Sue had told me many times how Brad likes to "plunge deep" (as she says) several times as he cums in her (every time she tells me that when we're fucking I almost cum immediately!). This was it for real. He had her legs held back by his extended arms and she was still thrusting herself upwards as he was downwards and I saw his back muscles start to tighten up - his rhythm changed for a second and then I saw him do it - my god did he plunge into her enough that she gasped out loud. Her pussy looked so raw and so swollen open for the second he pulled back and then he drove into her again.
A part of me wanted to cry - but holy shit - the other 99.99999% of me was totally into it. It seemed to me as if Sue was somehow trying to give even more of her body to him the way she was thrashing up at him.
A split-second later he pushed all the way back into her and this time he stayed and as I saw him pull back and then push in like 2 or 3 times and then pull all the way back - I knew he'd just started to cum in her. He let out a sound I can't describe and drove himself back into her and she squealed as he stayed deep in her. As I stared at him on top of her he just kept sort of grunting and thrusting gently. Sue moaned away as I just sat there looking - knowing he was cumming deep in her.
It took every bit of strength I had to not break it out and jerk-off right then and there.
I guess I got lost in that moment because the next thing I knew was that they were kissing and hugging and enjoying their moment. I wasn't even paying attention as all I could keep in my head was what I'd just seen. And I know the first thought I had when I realized my mind had wandered off was "did he pull out of her yet?" and suddenly that just became something I had to see - almost as if seeing it would be evidence that it did just happen.
And sure enough - a minute later, Brad moved back upright onto his knees. The sight of his cock slipping out of Sue's pussy and leaving a trail of cum behind is just wild to think about now.
I wanted to move over and look but I stayed still and it was a good thing because Brad leaned over and kissed her and then said something quietly to her and he walked into the bathroom, still not really looking at me. She told me later that he said that she should make sure I was okay while he was in the head. I didn't know that - all I saw was Brad walk towards the bathroom and her roll over and she quietly said "do you hate me?". I knelt next to her bed and kissed her and said "no - I'm jealous of you!". She gave me that giggle again and called me crazy. I gave her a gentle kiss one more time as we heard Brad come out of the bathroom.
More tomorrow.