I agree, it is much easier to be a slut when you are desirable in looks and attitude. You, Dear, are scrumptious. I hope some man makes you his fuck toy and shares you and shares the photos.
I would agree you have to be gay to really love eating another man's cum either from a pussy or directly from his cock. I enjoy being a fag cum eater in front of my woman and the men she fucks. It is definitely gay and it's ok.
I hope they let you clean up even if you aren't allowed in to watch. My ex had guys like that. They'd fuck her alone in our bed and then let me come in and eat their load. I loved it when they would watch me taste their cum and moan with pleasure.
I love to be invisible and just stand or sit back and watch them please each other. My reward comes from that and of course, cleaning up with my tongue and lips.
I've loved it always and could never deny my wife the pleasure of a beautiful cock that makes her cum so hard. Why would anyone deny someone they love such a great pleasure?