Jen I think the decision has been already made, you want more of Jay's or just other black cock. You have already given in so just call Jay and ask him round.
Jen I think that is best for you, your wants and needs should be attended to, but you also must not hurt your relationship with your husband.
If you don't mind me asking how often do you sleep with your husband, and do you get any satisfaction from it?
Well Jen it seems obvious, you want to be with a black man, either Jay or someone else. You are very attractive and damnably sexy so the only obstacle for you to get what you want and need is your inhibitions.
You know you want to fuck a Black guy, so just go out and do what you want to do.
Jen you just have to decide what you want, and since you have come back to Dark Cavern it seems certain that you do want Jay back in your life (and your bed), or at least another black man.
Think about what you truly want, you mentioned before you could not stop thinking about sex with a black...
Jen who knows what went through Jay's head. Perhaps the thought of a child was too much for him, if you do really miss him then contact him, no matter what you will probably feel better no matter how he reacts if it be closure or a new start.