ottawatv69 said:
[She's my] girlfriend, not wife. ....
Ah... I see. Thanks for the clarification.
ottawatv69 said:
You have some good advice and these things have been on my mind. But, I am also very turned on by the lack of control I have over this entire situation.
I understand (and, you're welcome).
ottawatv69 said:
I haven't showed [my woman] the picture [I took of her and her lover] because I don't want to force "a situation." I am submissive after all.
Well, as a submissive budding cuckold (I refer to you as such because your woman has not, as yet, seen fit to request your hand in marriage), I can certainly see why you don't want to risk displeasing her.
ottawatv69 said:
I am very happy she is being fucked since I obviously can't do the job.
And it's proper, of course, for you to be happy for your woman that's she has found a sexually-satisfying bull.
ottawatv69 said:
She isn't as discrete as she used to be, and I think she is getting to the point that she no longer cares if I suspect or know.
That sounds positive. Do you think it would help your woman feel it should naturally be among her privileges and prerogatives to date, seduce, and fuck other men, while her regular partner (you) commits to remain faithful as her cuckold, if you were to send her... perhaps by e-mail... these links:
Musings of an incidental hotwife (and other links):
Musings of an incidental Hotwife: Why he doesn’t want other women & how to KEEP it that way
Susan Gower on natural cuckolding of husbands by married women:
The Science of Cuckoldry Cuckold Couple
Dr. Cherry Lee on the cuckold husband / hotwife phenomenon:
The Cuckold Phenomena Cuckold Couple
along with a tactful note to the effect that "you thought she might find these articles of interest"...?
ottawatv69 said:
We are more like roommates these days.
It isn't unusual for a woman's sexual interest in her regular partner to decrease (sometimes to zero) when she takes a lover who turns her on heavily...
ottawatv69 said:
[My woman and her lover] didn't see me, [while they were fucking,] masturbating [outside] in the car. You're right! My little cock spurted after about 10 seconds! ....
See "Rules every man should know:"
FemDom Hotwife Cuckold Interracial • Rules Every Man Should Know
ottawatv69 said:
I haven't permanently lost my keys [to her house] but she does insist I leave them sometimes when I go out. She giggles that she doesn't want me disturbing her but will never say why. As a submissive male I can't really refuse.
That sounds more reasonable...
ottawatv69 said:
And it also tells me when she is planning something with her lover so it gives me an opportunity to maybe see them together again. ....
I suppose that's a modest plus...
ottawatv69 said:
The house is in her name.
It's more than reasonable, of course, for the house one lives in with a woman to be in her name only if one is a self-acknowledged submissive male. That makes it more likely she'll view herself (properly) as the head of her household.
Do you have an explicit agreement with your woman to be submissive vis-a-vis her and that you will always submit to her wishes...?