Slowly subconsciously becoming

[begnher2]

If you knew me you would never think that I would be a cuckold. I have had to keep up the image of the macho man. I myself was shocked when I first got these fantasies about cuckolding, I am married to black woman so I have had to keep up the tough guy image for get messed with by other men.

I have found that now that I have admitted to myself that I am a cuckold wanna be , and also my wife that I am changing. I have never had a problem getting it up . I have always had a strong sex drive . I am just under 7 inches so not terribly small but not big.

The fantasy of being a cuckold is about being insufficient in the bed room, As time has went on I feel like I have subconsciously been becoming more and more that.

For instance I use to be able to hold back long enough to make her cum at least once. Now I cum in less than 3 minutes about 90 % of the time. It's not for lack of trying either. Another thing is I don't get as hard as I use too or as big in my opinion. My wife is tight at first but after just like a minute I can feel that I am kinda sloshing around in there. I am not feeling her up when she is wet like I use too. Now she has also had three kids. But after the last one she was fine. It all kinda happened about 3 years ago. The youngest was already 5 by that time so I don't think that is it.

I think I am getting smaller. The other night I couldn't get hard. She was even kinda shocked I think. She didn't say anything but it was awkward to say the least. In one position on a different night I just wasn't long enough for her to put me in her. The way we were laying for her to be able to put me in her was she was on her back and I was laying sideways with my hips under her knees. She tried for a while too. But my cock wasn't long enough. It would just slip out. Then I tried the missionary position and it went limp. My cock just kept bending when I would thrust. Finally we just quit. Then the awkward silence again.

The weird thing was that I was very turned on by the fact that she needed more than I could give. The fact that I knew that "she knew" I was inadequate for her in that area turned me on. But my cock still didn't get hard. I just felt it inside. I think my being limp is what turned me on and that's why I didn't get hard. Has any of you experienced this. It's like I am gonna have her see me this way one way or the other . But is it at the demise of my marriage. Am I just sabotaging myself subconsciously ? This didn't start until like 3 years ago. Until I told her about my fantasy. She is ok with it but not # 1 on her list. She has a whole issue with society and the slut image. NOt sure if this is bad for us ?

 

[bbwneedbigdick]

You should find a dude willing to pound your wife silly from time to time.

 

[Nazareth]

I don't know that you have anything to worry about, begnher2.
You may have typical issues that come with aging (blood flow, prostrate, weight gain, not being as physically active, etc.); it could indeed be a psychological issue, or a combination of the 2. Your wife's pussy could be loosening a bit just from age and use.

But I also recall the flood of emotions the first time I wasn't able to maintain my hard-on. It's a helpless feeling, really...until your mind takes over. I've always tried to convince my wife that I should be 'punished' for failing to perform, and my punishment would be for her to bring another man home that can satisfy her needs.

The best advice, I think, is a physical exam. Just to be on the safe side, if nothing else.
This will also give you time to examine your feelings for what you want for your wife and yourself. That is, deciding to explore a cuckold role, approaching your wife about her feelings/reaction, and so much more.

 

[begnher2]

Thanks

I'm with bbw .Lol. Thank you for your time and replies. They all were good advice. Has any of you gone through similar situations ?

 

[missmissy]

I don't know that you have anything to worry about, begnher2.
The best advice, I think, is a physical exam. Just to be on the safe side, if nothing else.
This will also give you time to examine your feelings for what you want for your wife and yourself. That is, deciding to explore a cuckold role, approaching your wife about her feelings/reaction, and so much more.

Second that thought. Diabetes and diet can have same kind of affects to aging men.

 

[Olebarracke]

can we see a pic or two of your wife?

 

[begnher2]

Pics

Here's some . i have posted some before not sure if they are the same.

 

[Custer Laststand]

My fantasy of being a cuckold is about being insufficient in the bedroom. As time has passed, I [have been] feeling that more and more. .... The other night I couldn't get hard. [My wife] was kind of shocked, I think. She didn't say anything, but it was awkward to say the least. ....

There's a good discussion of the erectile dysfunction (ED) problems men experience as they get older in:

Sheehy, Gail, 1995, New Passages: Mapping Your Life Across Time (Random House, New York, 498 pp. [hardcover]).

See Chapt. 14, "The Unspeakable Passage: Male Minopause," pp. 287-317.

Since Sheehy's book was published 17 years ago, you could probably obtain a used copy for very low cost (or check it out for free from a library).

Briefly, it sounds like you would benefit if you were to see a physician and obtain a prescription for Viagra or something equivalent... several alternatives are available.

Thanks for posting photos of your very attractive and strongly-sexual-looking wife.