Lately, I have been feeling like my cuckold fantasies have been dominating my sexuality. It seems when I have sex with my girlfriend I am either always discussing cuckold issues with her or at least thinking about them. I think I fuck worse because of it. I fuck better when I think of myself as the Alpha Male who is rocking her world. I also think the constant cuckold themes lessens our intimacy. Raunchy is good to spice things up, but I think this constant diet of raunchy can create a bit of a disconnect.
I have tried to analyze why I have these fantasies. Here is what I came up with: As a child, my first masturbation sessions were focused on fantasies of being naked around girls ... kind of a CFNM theme. I also remember watching an episode of MASH where the two main male characters (Hawkeye and Pierce) get their clothes stolen from the shower by one of their female rivals. They end up having to run back to their tent, only to discover it is filled with a bunch of women sitting in chairs when they enter. The women hoot, holler, and embarrass the naked guys when they get inside. I found this WAY exciting.
So, I think the female dominance / male embarrassment idea started to grow as a sexual fantasy. Fast forward to end of high school ... I had a girlfriend and we ended up being split up by distance once the summer hit. We were still "dating", but we were already beginning to see how the distance was creating cracks in our relationship. She mentioned in a letter (this was before email!) how some guy was hitting on her. This mad me so mad and jealous ESPECIALLY because we really didn't have a practical way to call each other on a regular basis. I had to deal with this simple statement in a letter and then my mind started racing with all of the horrible things that could be happening. I got so jealous and frustrated I didn't know what to do. After several hours of spinning myself into a tizzy, I decided to relieve stress by masturbating (best solution for everything ... lol ). My mind somehow took my jealousy and started to convert it into a turn on ... just a way bigger fantasy than being naked and embarrassed around girls ... it was about her being fucked by another guy.
This fantasy grew and then I found myself in a relationship in college where my cute college girlfriend had joined a sorority, and was constantly being hit on by some of the good looking fraternity guys who they did a lot of Greek functions with. My mind naturally used by cuckold fantasy as a coping mechanism. However, this time I verbalized the fantasy with my girlfriend who really seemed to enjoy the kinky aspect to it and we had lots of great fuck sessions ... this was probably 50% of our sex revolved around these nasty discussions. She did end up fucking a guy but it was during and on again / off again period when we were headed towards a break up.
Fast forward to today. My current girlfriend is VERY sexy. Beautiful face, long legs, round ass, etc. Trophy wife material. She always gets attention from guys and has a sexual energy about her. She is flirtatious, but naturally attracts guys wherever she goes. I also believe that she has "Pretty Girl" syndrome - meaning that she much of her life experience has been shaped by her attention from men. Her high school years were about wearing skimpy cheerleading outfits, parties she went to, being popular, guys she slept with, etc. College much of the same stuff. Her first job was filled with getting the best assignments out of the gate from her male supervisors (nothing sexual, and she was very qualified, just got ahead quicker from day 1), getting hit on by her co-workers, even fucking one of her clients. Many of her everyday life stories always seems to have some element of male attention somehow. Today she gets free drinks, free appetizers, free oil changes, a spot closer in the grocery store line, doors opening, extra cable channels from the service guy, etc. This all comes from males who dote on her. It doesn't happen 24/7, but all of these perks are about 10X what the average joe or jane could ever hope for. This is just from her sexual presence WITHOUT flirting. If she flirts, all of this stuff gets even more intensely with more overt sexual advances. Combine this with the fact that she was very promiscuous in her past life, has had numerous lovers and one night stands, and it is SUPER easy to start to get insecure and jealous. So, now my cuckold fantasies have went into overdrive I believe.
Anyone have a similar line of thinking?
I have tried to analyze why I have these fantasies. Here is what I came up with: As a child, my first masturbation sessions were focused on fantasies of being naked around girls ... kind of a CFNM theme. I also remember watching an episode of MASH where the two main male characters (Hawkeye and Pierce) get their clothes stolen from the shower by one of their female rivals. They end up having to run back to their tent, only to discover it is filled with a bunch of women sitting in chairs when they enter. The women hoot, holler, and embarrass the naked guys when they get inside. I found this WAY exciting.
So, I think the female dominance / male embarrassment idea started to grow as a sexual fantasy. Fast forward to end of high school ... I had a girlfriend and we ended up being split up by distance once the summer hit. We were still "dating", but we were already beginning to see how the distance was creating cracks in our relationship. She mentioned in a letter (this was before email!) how some guy was hitting on her. This mad me so mad and jealous ESPECIALLY because we really didn't have a practical way to call each other on a regular basis. I had to deal with this simple statement in a letter and then my mind started racing with all of the horrible things that could be happening. I got so jealous and frustrated I didn't know what to do. After several hours of spinning myself into a tizzy, I decided to relieve stress by masturbating (best solution for everything ... lol ). My mind somehow took my jealousy and started to convert it into a turn on ... just a way bigger fantasy than being naked and embarrassed around girls ... it was about her being fucked by another guy.
This fantasy grew and then I found myself in a relationship in college where my cute college girlfriend had joined a sorority, and was constantly being hit on by some of the good looking fraternity guys who they did a lot of Greek functions with. My mind naturally used by cuckold fantasy as a coping mechanism. However, this time I verbalized the fantasy with my girlfriend who really seemed to enjoy the kinky aspect to it and we had lots of great fuck sessions ... this was probably 50% of our sex revolved around these nasty discussions. She did end up fucking a guy but it was during and on again / off again period when we were headed towards a break up.
Fast forward to today. My current girlfriend is VERY sexy. Beautiful face, long legs, round ass, etc. Trophy wife material. She always gets attention from guys and has a sexual energy about her. She is flirtatious, but naturally attracts guys wherever she goes. I also believe that she has "Pretty Girl" syndrome - meaning that she much of her life experience has been shaped by her attention from men. Her high school years were about wearing skimpy cheerleading outfits, parties she went to, being popular, guys she slept with, etc. College much of the same stuff. Her first job was filled with getting the best assignments out of the gate from her male supervisors (nothing sexual, and she was very qualified, just got ahead quicker from day 1), getting hit on by her co-workers, even fucking one of her clients. Many of her everyday life stories always seems to have some element of male attention somehow. Today she gets free drinks, free appetizers, free oil changes, a spot closer in the grocery store line, doors opening, extra cable channels from the service guy, etc. This all comes from males who dote on her. It doesn't happen 24/7, but all of these perks are about 10X what the average joe or jane could ever hope for. This is just from her sexual presence WITHOUT flirting. If she flirts, all of this stuff gets even more intensely with more overt sexual advances. Combine this with the fact that she was very promiscuous in her past life, has had numerous lovers and one night stands, and it is SUPER easy to start to get insecure and jealous. So, now my cuckold fantasies have went into overdrive I believe.
Anyone have a similar line of thinking?
