First off, let me clear this up: I'm not trolling or trying to ruin anyone's fun, but this is not a fun thread (unless you find inner conflict and introspection arousing)
I've been trying to deal with my sexual urges my whole life and even tried to seek counseling but I wasn't able to share it with another in person.
I hate it. I can't come to terms with it. I've tried and I can't accept myself in the position I find myself in my fantasies, which include "cuckolding" "sissification", transvestism, masochism, humiliation, etc. and I will go through any means necessary to rid myself of it, including suicide if I have to.
Has anyone been in the same situation? How long have you been feeling like this? I've had the need for humiliation since I've been 5 or so. Has anyone tried to seek help for it? I've been institutionalized once but I was too much of a coward to share the true reason of my torments.
Does anyone have any links to research/primary sources which on this pathology? Does anyone know the medical reasons/roots for the anomaly?
Once again, don't get offended and please don't try to explain why it's normal or common, because that doesn't matter to me. Also, I've given this a lifetime of thought, so please keep the pseudo-intellectual pondering to yourself (I've read some theories on here which included evolution and acknowledgment of the cuckold's biological inferiority but that's obviously a part of the fantasy and it does not apply in my case either way)
Please help!
I've been trying to deal with my sexual urges my whole life and even tried to seek counseling but I wasn't able to share it with another in person.
I hate it. I can't come to terms with it. I've tried and I can't accept myself in the position I find myself in my fantasies, which include "cuckolding" "sissification", transvestism, masochism, humiliation, etc. and I will go through any means necessary to rid myself of it, including suicide if I have to.
Has anyone been in the same situation? How long have you been feeling like this? I've had the need for humiliation since I've been 5 or so. Has anyone tried to seek help for it? I've been institutionalized once but I was too much of a coward to share the true reason of my torments.
Does anyone have any links to research/primary sources which on this pathology? Does anyone know the medical reasons/roots for the anomaly?
Once again, don't get offended and please don't try to explain why it's normal or common, because that doesn't matter to me. Also, I've given this a lifetime of thought, so please keep the pseudo-intellectual pondering to yourself (I've read some theories on here which included evolution and acknowledgment of the cuckold's biological inferiority but that's obviously a part of the fantasy and it does not apply in my case either way)
Please help!
