Hey everyone.
I posted this in cuckold chat forum but I realize it might be more appropriate here ?
It's a long post but I genuinely do need help and advice on what to do or if a cuckold relationship is even viable anymore with current partner.
Both my now ex wife are 42 years old. We met and got married at 25. We raised a 20 year old who now lives with his dad and we now have an 11 year old living with us.
I was a Virgin until I was 19 years old, when a 25 year old woman I worked with at the fast food restaurant seduced me after we closed one night and ended up giving me a bj in my car and I had sex with her behind the dumpster.
As silly as it sounds, I was smitten and really thought I was in love. Was going to drop out of college and leave home to get an apartment for us.
Thankfully a year into it I found out she was cheating on my with a coworker. We broke up but I didn't want to leave as give them the satisfaction, so I worked with them almost another year.
During that year I'd catch them making out, having sex, laughing at me, looking st me and giggling. Eventually everyone else started doing that. I found that I would often masterbate to the idea of her having sex with him and doing all the stuff she did with me with him, and eventually rhe ridicule of all of them started to turn me on too, to the point where I'd struggle to hide my boner at work when they would start snickering etc.
Fast forward to 2016, so 16 years later. Wife and I are about 36. For years our sex was ok, she wasn't very adventurous and she was 240lb and had hygiene issues, so we never really could do much except missionary and very rarely doggy . Eventually we found out we were both into "hotwife" and "slut wife" talk and we'd both dirty talk how she wants to be a slut, fuck other guys, etc, and we both loved that.
At end of 2016 we decided to try it. She left one night to have sex with a firefighter while I waited at home. I dont remember how it went save we did it once and done.
Fast forward to January 2022. We are about 40 or so now and our sex life is somewhat dead. But when wr do have sex, we would do the dirty talk fantasies or we watch gay porn together (she loved gay porn and really wanted me to have sex with men).
I dont remember who brought it up, i think she did but she insists I did, but we decided to try her sleeping around again. Only rules were no attachments , no real names, and no spending the night. We made ads on doublist and we shared the email account so we both saw it.
As time went on, she created tinder and Hinge and AFF and Match and a slew of other accounts. I had no access to those accounts and her chats there but she assured me she told me everything and I had no reason to doubt her.
She had so much sex. By the time we were done 8 months later our list showed 30 men she fucked in less than a year.
We bever got into thr humiliation aspect at all even if I subtly hinted at it. No chastity cage, but we did try pegging once and she even convinced me to get fucked a couple of times by men which I honestly enjoyed. She never let me go down on her after she had sex with them either, but ee always had sex after she was done and I loved feeling their cum mixed with mine.
Our usual routine is have a man come over and get in bed with her while our son slept in his bedroom and I waited in living room, but she often would go to their house too. A few times we went to adult theater, got a booth, and 3 men fucked her one after the other while i watched . These were only times we used a condom for obvious reasons.
Around April (so 3 months into it) a guy who lives about 7 hours north responded, saying hr will come for work 4 months later in August. He was super enthusiastic and started chatting with her everyday all day about work life etc. I would get mad and demand she shows me her texts but more than once saw she clearly deleted some things despite our agreement not to. We would argue and I'd constantly warn her " don't get to close to anyone , I wouldn't wish that feeling of being torn between family and a lover on my worst enemy" . She would laugh and say she isn't stupid and she just needs to talk to guys a little before fucking them.
Fast forward July and me and her went out of town. In our hotel room we started talking dirty and in that talk, the guy coming next month came up. She kept telling me how dirty it will be when she goes to his room etc, but I csn feel she was nervous about something. I kept asking her to tell me everything and eventually she said "I decided im going to spend the night with him"
I csnt describe the rage I felt at that moment at her disrespect, but once I started to fight back she kept insisting she wants and "needs" to do this and she will do it and her insistence turned me on so much I laid back down and eventually had the best orgasm of my life. Even she was amazed and she was soaking wet. While she was jacking me off and repeating how she's excited she's going to spend an entire night with him, and kept asking me to agree and say I want her to, which I eventually did. The whole situation was a definite change in our dynamic of thr relationship. Something changed in that moment and next morning during breakfast we were both quite and obviously thinking about it.
Come August, thr guy checked in his hotel room in downtown area. I got annoyed with her because she postponed her monthly brazilian wax to a few days before he came down, but insisted it was her lady that postponed it because her apartment flooded or some crap.
So thr big night came. She took a long shower, shaved her legs, wore one of the short mini dress tanktops I got her but she rarely wore with me, and let her hair down, makeup, oiled her legs, etc. To this day i still tell her that was the hottest she'd ever looked. I remember her sitting down at rhe stool in our front door to put on her sneakers amd looking down at her ******* cleavage (40DD breasts) and smooth shiny legs, I remember feeling trepidation and almost stopped the whole thing. She must have noticed so immediately hugged me and told me dony worry this Is just fun and for 1 night and he will be gone forever.
She text me a lot when she paeked, he met her, walked her up to elevator and his room, sat down to drink, and eventually she told me she has to go and to please jack off all night thinking about this.
I didn't sleep that night as you can imagine.
I dont remember what happened next morning but obviously she came back. She tried downplaying it saying it was "ok" but she's glad she's back home to me etc.
She kept hooking up the next month or so. Always on her phone texting guys etc which can get annoying since I get tired of randomly asking her to show me her phone.
Around end of September wr had a huge fight because I told her I've had enough and we should stop, but she just looked at me and said "no" with a smirk. I remember thinking "what the hell did I create" and had a panic attack, she eventually laughed and said ok we can stop.
Next 10 days we barely talked. She wss in our room watching tv (supposedly) and i was in living room. I was pissed because I assumed she was upset we stopped her sleeping around so I decided to play along and not talk to her either. Around October 9th, I was on my way to bathroom when is saw her in bed typing on her phone with a smile. I got pissed how she didn't even notice me or seemed to care wr don't talk anymore, so I blew up and told her if she wants to keep talking to other men then she's welcome to do it somewhere else and not under my roof (house my sole property).
She got mad and called me paranoid etc.
I dont remember exzxt details, but the days after thst she suddenly seemed really distraught and nervous and sad, to the point where I softened up and would constantly sit by her and try to ask her what's wrong.
Then came October 10th, 2022. I went in bedroom to sit by her in bed and again ask her what's wrong and she can tell me anything. She burst into tears and I kept naming things I thought were bothering her: her parents dying last couple of years, argument with her sisters, work etc. She kept shaking her head to all that.
Then it happened. I asked her if there was another man.
She nodded with tears flowing down her face and her lips trembling.
I felt the ground fall out under me. I named as many guys she slept with ans she kept shaking her head, until it came to the guy who came in August ans she spent night with (let's call him Brad on here)
She nodded. I was shocked but very calmly reminded her I also had an affair 10 years ago ao can hardly attack her over this. I was gently and hugged her and told her it's going to be ok. She told me he made her feel things I never did etc which was like a dagger to the stomach, but I brushed it off.
Next morning it's as if nothing happened. We were completely back to normal. Hugging, kissing, and took kids out to family breakfast. It's as if everything was back to exactly how it was.
Later thst night, she went in room again to watch TV. I stayed in living room but got paranoid. She has an apple phone and I have an Android so jnow nothing about Apple phones, but looked up online that even if someone hides an app, it will still show up under the iTunes app store.
So I went to bedroom and asked her to show me her iTunes. Immediatly she knew what I was looking for. She started stalling and fumbling on her phone and I got more angry and told her to stop deleting things ans JUST GIVE ME THE PHONE.
She eventually yelled if she did, I would for sure leave her. At that point I called my parents to come pick up our 11 year old because me and hee agreed if we ever have a bad fight he shouldn't be here anymore. My parents were at dinner with friends but immediately left to come.
Entire time i was standing over her sitting on bed arguing over her phone. Things got heated. Right at the moment my son let my parents In, she finally handed me the phone, and what I saw on the Google chat app floored me.
She was still talking to Brad. They both laughed at me when she told him I told her Brad doesn't love her.
She told him she's dying not being able to talk to him . And everything I made love to her she will be thinking of him.
I had no time to see more because the chat history was so long and went on foe months. Turned out thr hookup app she showed me was a decoy and their real talk happened on this hidden Google chat app
Naturally I lost it ans my mom came in to separate us. In my rage I gave my mom the phone to show her and mywife yelled and cried. My dad thankfully took my son outside, but my wife blurted out to my mom how I "made her sleep with other men".
My mother is a very conservative ,semi religious woman. Very old school in her beliefs in marriage etc, so have her hesr that broke my heart.
Wife stormed out but eventually I called hee to come back.
Unbelievably, we made up and denied to fix everything. First month was amazing ans she was so loving and attentive. I even got her a replacement ring for the one I threw down toilet in our bad fight.
But....a month later she started antidepressants. Her personality suddenly changed and I later found out SSRI antidepressant can cause emotional blunting and dopamine imbalance , making people become manic, aggressive, cruel, unfeeling, and often stsrt gambling or being promiscuous and losing all love for ther spouse.
As she grew distant. She cut off sex ans intimacy completely. Became completely cold and with zero emotion. My mom insisted she was cheating again but I insisted there was no way.
My wife was so eager to get s divorce and move out. Secretly talked to a lawyer, wanted this one apartment she loved. She would sit next to me and show me all the furniture she wanted and how she wanted to decorate her place. It's like I wasn't even a human being who was broken and trying his best to hold on to his wife and marriage.
6 months into this hell it finally came to an end. She came back one day from work, told my 20 year old step son to pack his stuff as he's going back to his dad, and sat our 11 year old between us to coldly tell him we are divorcing. I'll never forget how he was excited showing us his new toy but once his mom told him he looked down and lost all light in him. I teared up, but looked up at her and there was zero emotion on her face.
She called her niece amd moved in with her until her new apartment is ready in 2 months. Lots of fighting and arguing happened i felt like my life wss over
About 2 weeks after she moved out, I was on my way to my first therapist appointment when she text me and asked if someone tried logging in her text messages on our son's iPad. No idea what she meant but I went to check, and almost at a hunch, I went into settings and synced fhe picture gallery with her icloud.
I found ti all. The entire six months she was talking to Brad daily. Vidoes , texts, toktols about forbidden love, how she's never been loved, video chats, he even called her and sang her happy birthday as I waited in car to take her to bday dinner.
I drove to firdt therapist appointment in utter shock. I called her and unloaded at top of my lungs ans she constantly apologized.
I found out later that night she met him at Tahoe with her closet friends for the trip I got her to help make her happy. Her friends saw hee cheat on me an entire weekend in a room and car ans trip I paid for.
I learned he basically ghosted her the minute she left me. Found videos of her crying for him to respond to her. It's like I was dead.
At any rate, she moved into her new apartment in June. She had no credit so I cosigned with her, paid her first month's rent, gave her money etc while I finalized our divorce. She left our son with me and I kept my home since I was my sole legal property. She didn't want alimony and I found out later it wss necuase Brad told her she won't need anything from me as he will move in with her after he tells his wife and kids etc.
It was a hard year but soon enough I started hooking up and having so much fun. The best hookups wss this older lady who wss REALLY into pegging and pegged me hard and fisted me and it was a blast.
The best one was this incredibly promiscuous woman who was sleeping with multiple guys every week and literally wvery night. I shaved my body and cross dressed for her in stocking and thongs and a wig and a chastity cage. She came by before her sex date and we roleplayed I was hee cuck husband getting her ready etc. She LOVED the cuckold relationship I wanted and constantly degraded me in text etc.
But.... right before we could do all that again, my ex wife made up with me and she moved back in. After a year of barely talking until last couple of months, she was back.
We weren't married anymore and our families were estranged to us and each other, but she was relieved to comr back as she was struggling every day to even eat since the guy basically ghosted her and never followed thru.
Everoybt tells me she doesn't love me and is just back for the safety and security of my paycheck . She also continued not wanting to have sex with me except very rarely and blamed hee new wygovy weight loss meds, since she was no off her antidepressants and back to "normal"
We are now 5 months since she moved back in full time. She basically blames me for "making her" sleep around and our sex life is basically non existent. No more dirty talk, and our only intimacy is watching gsy porn while she uses her vibrstor and then lazily giving me a half ass hand job to make me cum in a minute
My love language is Touch. Hers is words of affirmation, which is how Brad flattered her to death.
We argue a lot over lack of sex. She makes me feel like a perv for even being upset over this and not understanding jts her meds. Problem is before she left she stopped sex for months "because she didn't love me anymore" and now it's the meds.
Thus the point of all this. I really think I have 3 choices at this point:
A) break up with her and she moves out again. Find a woman into pegging, cuckolding etc and try to find real love.
B) come clean to her fully about being a cuck. Show her chastity Cage , tell her she's free to date completely now (which she kind of wanted the first time we started this and I said no). I dont know how she wll take this. She might like it even if just because she doesn't have to have sex with me. I might even ask for just pegging or fisting .
C) take her at hee word and wait until she's done with her wgovy meds and hope her already low sex drive comes back which wasn't much to begin with.
If you read this far I commend you. Sorry for the long write up. There's a lot more I left out since it was a span of 2 years since I found out about Brad and now, but this is rhe gist of it.
Please let me know your thoughts and advice !
I posted this in cuckold chat forum but I realize it might be more appropriate here ?
It's a long post but I genuinely do need help and advice on what to do or if a cuckold relationship is even viable anymore with current partner.
Both my now ex wife are 42 years old. We met and got married at 25. We raised a 20 year old who now lives with his dad and we now have an 11 year old living with us.
I was a Virgin until I was 19 years old, when a 25 year old woman I worked with at the fast food restaurant seduced me after we closed one night and ended up giving me a bj in my car and I had sex with her behind the dumpster.
As silly as it sounds, I was smitten and really thought I was in love. Was going to drop out of college and leave home to get an apartment for us.
Thankfully a year into it I found out she was cheating on my with a coworker. We broke up but I didn't want to leave as give them the satisfaction, so I worked with them almost another year.
During that year I'd catch them making out, having sex, laughing at me, looking st me and giggling. Eventually everyone else started doing that. I found that I would often masterbate to the idea of her having sex with him and doing all the stuff she did with me with him, and eventually rhe ridicule of all of them started to turn me on too, to the point where I'd struggle to hide my boner at work when they would start snickering etc.
Fast forward to 2016, so 16 years later. Wife and I are about 36. For years our sex was ok, she wasn't very adventurous and she was 240lb and had hygiene issues, so we never really could do much except missionary and very rarely doggy . Eventually we found out we were both into "hotwife" and "slut wife" talk and we'd both dirty talk how she wants to be a slut, fuck other guys, etc, and we both loved that.
At end of 2016 we decided to try it. She left one night to have sex with a firefighter while I waited at home. I dont remember how it went save we did it once and done.
Fast forward to January 2022. We are about 40 or so now and our sex life is somewhat dead. But when wr do have sex, we would do the dirty talk fantasies or we watch gay porn together (she loved gay porn and really wanted me to have sex with men).
I dont remember who brought it up, i think she did but she insists I did, but we decided to try her sleeping around again. Only rules were no attachments , no real names, and no spending the night. We made ads on doublist and we shared the email account so we both saw it.
As time went on, she created tinder and Hinge and AFF and Match and a slew of other accounts. I had no access to those accounts and her chats there but she assured me she told me everything and I had no reason to doubt her.
She had so much sex. By the time we were done 8 months later our list showed 30 men she fucked in less than a year.
We bever got into thr humiliation aspect at all even if I subtly hinted at it. No chastity cage, but we did try pegging once and she even convinced me to get fucked a couple of times by men which I honestly enjoyed. She never let me go down on her after she had sex with them either, but ee always had sex after she was done and I loved feeling their cum mixed with mine.
Our usual routine is have a man come over and get in bed with her while our son slept in his bedroom and I waited in living room, but she often would go to their house too. A few times we went to adult theater, got a booth, and 3 men fucked her one after the other while i watched . These were only times we used a condom for obvious reasons.
Around April (so 3 months into it) a guy who lives about 7 hours north responded, saying hr will come for work 4 months later in August. He was super enthusiastic and started chatting with her everyday all day about work life etc. I would get mad and demand she shows me her texts but more than once saw she clearly deleted some things despite our agreement not to. We would argue and I'd constantly warn her " don't get to close to anyone , I wouldn't wish that feeling of being torn between family and a lover on my worst enemy" . She would laugh and say she isn't stupid and she just needs to talk to guys a little before fucking them.
Fast forward July and me and her went out of town. In our hotel room we started talking dirty and in that talk, the guy coming next month came up. She kept telling me how dirty it will be when she goes to his room etc, but I csn feel she was nervous about something. I kept asking her to tell me everything and eventually she said "I decided im going to spend the night with him"
I csnt describe the rage I felt at that moment at her disrespect, but once I started to fight back she kept insisting she wants and "needs" to do this and she will do it and her insistence turned me on so much I laid back down and eventually had the best orgasm of my life. Even she was amazed and she was soaking wet. While she was jacking me off and repeating how she's excited she's going to spend an entire night with him, and kept asking me to agree and say I want her to, which I eventually did. The whole situation was a definite change in our dynamic of thr relationship. Something changed in that moment and next morning during breakfast we were both quite and obviously thinking about it.
Come August, thr guy checked in his hotel room in downtown area. I got annoyed with her because she postponed her monthly brazilian wax to a few days before he came down, but insisted it was her lady that postponed it because her apartment flooded or some crap.
So thr big night came. She took a long shower, shaved her legs, wore one of the short mini dress tanktops I got her but she rarely wore with me, and let her hair down, makeup, oiled her legs, etc. To this day i still tell her that was the hottest she'd ever looked. I remember her sitting down at rhe stool in our front door to put on her sneakers amd looking down at her ******* cleavage (40DD breasts) and smooth shiny legs, I remember feeling trepidation and almost stopped the whole thing. She must have noticed so immediately hugged me and told me dony worry this Is just fun and for 1 night and he will be gone forever.
She text me a lot when she paeked, he met her, walked her up to elevator and his room, sat down to drink, and eventually she told me she has to go and to please jack off all night thinking about this.
I didn't sleep that night as you can imagine.
I dont remember what happened next morning but obviously she came back. She tried downplaying it saying it was "ok" but she's glad she's back home to me etc.
She kept hooking up the next month or so. Always on her phone texting guys etc which can get annoying since I get tired of randomly asking her to show me her phone.
Around end of September wr had a huge fight because I told her I've had enough and we should stop, but she just looked at me and said "no" with a smirk. I remember thinking "what the hell did I create" and had a panic attack, she eventually laughed and said ok we can stop.
Next 10 days we barely talked. She wss in our room watching tv (supposedly) and i was in living room. I was pissed because I assumed she was upset we stopped her sleeping around so I decided to play along and not talk to her either. Around October 9th, I was on my way to bathroom when is saw her in bed typing on her phone with a smile. I got pissed how she didn't even notice me or seemed to care wr don't talk anymore, so I blew up and told her if she wants to keep talking to other men then she's welcome to do it somewhere else and not under my roof (house my sole property).
She got mad and called me paranoid etc.
I dont remember exzxt details, but the days after thst she suddenly seemed really distraught and nervous and sad, to the point where I softened up and would constantly sit by her and try to ask her what's wrong.
Then came October 10th, 2022. I went in bedroom to sit by her in bed and again ask her what's wrong and she can tell me anything. She burst into tears and I kept naming things I thought were bothering her: her parents dying last couple of years, argument with her sisters, work etc. She kept shaking her head to all that.
Then it happened. I asked her if there was another man.
She nodded with tears flowing down her face and her lips trembling.
I felt the ground fall out under me. I named as many guys she slept with ans she kept shaking her head, until it came to the guy who came in August ans she spent night with (let's call him Brad on here)
She nodded. I was shocked but very calmly reminded her I also had an affair 10 years ago ao can hardly attack her over this. I was gently and hugged her and told her it's going to be ok. She told me he made her feel things I never did etc which was like a dagger to the stomach, but I brushed it off.
Next morning it's as if nothing happened. We were completely back to normal. Hugging, kissing, and took kids out to family breakfast. It's as if everything was back to exactly how it was.
Later thst night, she went in room again to watch TV. I stayed in living room but got paranoid. She has an apple phone and I have an Android so jnow nothing about Apple phones, but looked up online that even if someone hides an app, it will still show up under the iTunes app store.
So I went to bedroom and asked her to show me her iTunes. Immediatly she knew what I was looking for. She started stalling and fumbling on her phone and I got more angry and told her to stop deleting things ans JUST GIVE ME THE PHONE.
She eventually yelled if she did, I would for sure leave her. At that point I called my parents to come pick up our 11 year old because me and hee agreed if we ever have a bad fight he shouldn't be here anymore. My parents were at dinner with friends but immediately left to come.
Entire time i was standing over her sitting on bed arguing over her phone. Things got heated. Right at the moment my son let my parents In, she finally handed me the phone, and what I saw on the Google chat app floored me.
She was still talking to Brad. They both laughed at me when she told him I told her Brad doesn't love her.
She told him she's dying not being able to talk to him . And everything I made love to her she will be thinking of him.
I had no time to see more because the chat history was so long and went on foe months. Turned out thr hookup app she showed me was a decoy and their real talk happened on this hidden Google chat app
Naturally I lost it ans my mom came in to separate us. In my rage I gave my mom the phone to show her and mywife yelled and cried. My dad thankfully took my son outside, but my wife blurted out to my mom how I "made her sleep with other men".
My mother is a very conservative ,semi religious woman. Very old school in her beliefs in marriage etc, so have her hesr that broke my heart.
Wife stormed out but eventually I called hee to come back.
Unbelievably, we made up and denied to fix everything. First month was amazing ans she was so loving and attentive. I even got her a replacement ring for the one I threw down toilet in our bad fight.
But....a month later she started antidepressants. Her personality suddenly changed and I later found out SSRI antidepressant can cause emotional blunting and dopamine imbalance , making people become manic, aggressive, cruel, unfeeling, and often stsrt gambling or being promiscuous and losing all love for ther spouse.
As she grew distant. She cut off sex ans intimacy completely. Became completely cold and with zero emotion. My mom insisted she was cheating again but I insisted there was no way.
My wife was so eager to get s divorce and move out. Secretly talked to a lawyer, wanted this one apartment she loved. She would sit next to me and show me all the furniture she wanted and how she wanted to decorate her place. It's like I wasn't even a human being who was broken and trying his best to hold on to his wife and marriage.
6 months into this hell it finally came to an end. She came back one day from work, told my 20 year old step son to pack his stuff as he's going back to his dad, and sat our 11 year old between us to coldly tell him we are divorcing. I'll never forget how he was excited showing us his new toy but once his mom told him he looked down and lost all light in him. I teared up, but looked up at her and there was zero emotion on her face.
She called her niece amd moved in with her until her new apartment is ready in 2 months. Lots of fighting and arguing happened i felt like my life wss over
About 2 weeks after she moved out, I was on my way to my first therapist appointment when she text me and asked if someone tried logging in her text messages on our son's iPad. No idea what she meant but I went to check, and almost at a hunch, I went into settings and synced fhe picture gallery with her icloud.
I found ti all. The entire six months she was talking to Brad daily. Vidoes , texts, toktols about forbidden love, how she's never been loved, video chats, he even called her and sang her happy birthday as I waited in car to take her to bday dinner.
I drove to firdt therapist appointment in utter shock. I called her and unloaded at top of my lungs ans she constantly apologized.
I found out later that night she met him at Tahoe with her closet friends for the trip I got her to help make her happy. Her friends saw hee cheat on me an entire weekend in a room and car ans trip I paid for.
I learned he basically ghosted her the minute she left me. Found videos of her crying for him to respond to her. It's like I was dead.
At any rate, she moved into her new apartment in June. She had no credit so I cosigned with her, paid her first month's rent, gave her money etc while I finalized our divorce. She left our son with me and I kept my home since I was my sole legal property. She didn't want alimony and I found out later it wss necuase Brad told her she won't need anything from me as he will move in with her after he tells his wife and kids etc.
It was a hard year but soon enough I started hooking up and having so much fun. The best hookups wss this older lady who wss REALLY into pegging and pegged me hard and fisted me and it was a blast.
The best one was this incredibly promiscuous woman who was sleeping with multiple guys every week and literally wvery night. I shaved my body and cross dressed for her in stocking and thongs and a wig and a chastity cage. She came by before her sex date and we roleplayed I was hee cuck husband getting her ready etc. She LOVED the cuckold relationship I wanted and constantly degraded me in text etc.
But.... right before we could do all that again, my ex wife made up with me and she moved back in. After a year of barely talking until last couple of months, she was back.
We weren't married anymore and our families were estranged to us and each other, but she was relieved to comr back as she was struggling every day to even eat since the guy basically ghosted her and never followed thru.
Everoybt tells me she doesn't love me and is just back for the safety and security of my paycheck . She also continued not wanting to have sex with me except very rarely and blamed hee new wygovy weight loss meds, since she was no off her antidepressants and back to "normal"
We are now 5 months since she moved back in full time. She basically blames me for "making her" sleep around and our sex life is basically non existent. No more dirty talk, and our only intimacy is watching gsy porn while she uses her vibrstor and then lazily giving me a half ass hand job to make me cum in a minute
My love language is Touch. Hers is words of affirmation, which is how Brad flattered her to death.
We argue a lot over lack of sex. She makes me feel like a perv for even being upset over this and not understanding jts her meds. Problem is before she left she stopped sex for months "because she didn't love me anymore" and now it's the meds.
Thus the point of all this. I really think I have 3 choices at this point:
A) break up with her and she moves out again. Find a woman into pegging, cuckolding etc and try to find real love.
B) come clean to her fully about being a cuck. Show her chastity Cage , tell her she's free to date completely now (which she kind of wanted the first time we started this and I said no). I dont know how she wll take this. She might like it even if just because she doesn't have to have sex with me. I might even ask for just pegging or fisting .
C) take her at hee word and wait until she's done with her wgovy meds and hope her already low sex drive comes back which wasn't much to begin with.
If you read this far I commend you. Sorry for the long write up. There's a lot more I left out since it was a span of 2 years since I found out about Brad and now, but this is rhe gist of it.
Please let me know your thoughts and advice !
