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firedrop2007
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I love my wife and I thought I knew what I was getting into before we were married. Having an open marriage was a lot of fun for about a year. After that it got harder and harder watching my beautiful wife flirt with strangers knowing what was going to eventually happen. I know she still loves me and I think it even bothers her that I am no longer active in that lifestyle. She wants me to go out with her when she goes to parties and has even tried to set me up with women. I think she feels bad for me that I am all alone when she goes out or feels guilty about having sex with other men and she is trying to justifying it by trying to set me up with other women.
The idea is foreign to me that you could really love someone however not be sexually attracted to the person. I guess I didn't know how marriage was going to affect me after this long. I have had to accept the fact that the love my wife feels for me runs deep but for some reason I do not sexually satisfy her. I try to think about it as little as possible, we do have sex from time to time however no matter what I do or how hard I try, "it" just isn't there for her when we have sex.
Unfortunately I did start to resent her for seeing other men. She did not want to go to a marriage counselor, she told me I knew what I was getting into when we got married and that I was the one that had changed. What made me mad was she was right I was the one that had turned into the prude. Over the last year my resentment/anger was made worse by the fact that she has started bringing men home and even forcing me out of our marital bed while she is pleasured. I made the mistake of complaining about it and now my wife has made it into a game where she asks me to stay and watch from time to time. Using the word "awkward" is the understatement of the century to describe the feeling when you are sitting in the same room and even sometimes in the same bed when your wife is having intercourse with someone else. It did get a little easier as time went on, I think it bothers some of her partners more to have another person watch when they have intercourse. Every once in awhile she won't ask me to join them or will ask me to leave if she feels it is a problem. However in most cases the men just don't care and just use my wife as they please. From time to time, in the heat of the moment the dirty talk can turn pretty personal, everything from calling her a slut or calling me a cuck or asking me if I "get off" on watching or asking her how a bigger dick feels. She always tells the truth and is never mean spirited about it but I really do think she is sexually turned on when she asks me to watch. Some men will even complement me on how good she was, most are saying it as an insulted directed at me but I think others are just being honest. I do not want to paint the picture that my wife is a slut or that she fucks a different stranger every other day. She does have quite a few different lovers but it is normally a set of 5 to 7 different men she has on rotation. Over time some go and will be replaced with another but she has a routine that I almost have down. From her mood that day and what she puts on before she goes out I can almost guess who she is going to bring home that night. It can be upsetting because some of her partners will leave after intercourse and others will spent the entire night servicing her and when that happens after about the second hour all I want to do is go to sleep but of course that isn't exactly possible. Sometimes I will just fall asleep in a chair but most times I will just sleep in the spare bedroom down the hall. I am still kept awake by all that noise. I do worry about STDs and pregnancy but she is on the pill and as far as I can tell always makes her lovers wear a condom. I guess the cuckold lifestyle is here if I like it or not.
Time passes…
It has been over a year since I wrote that. I am still happily married but I was STILL trying to find my place in this marriage and this one way lifestyle. Up to that point I thought I understood that even though I was acting the part of a "cuck" I knew what being a cuckold was. My wive really did love me and that there is more aspects to love and marriage then time spent in the bedroom.
I didn't notice anything really that different at first but her taste in lovers has changed over the last 3 months. At first I thought she was slowing down because she started going out less often and the number of men that visit have significantly reduced. I did start noticing her lovers penis size start to increase. I would not say I have a small penis, however compared to mine theirs started making mine look like a cocktail wiener. Her lovers have also become more aggressive and abusive towards me. In several cases my wife has had to tell them if they didn't stop she would ask them to leave. It is a real blow to the ego when your wife is the one standing up for you in the bedroom of all places. She has also started dating black men I can't tell if she is turned on more by the whole interracial aspect or the fact that these men have huge penises. I do know that black lovers are much more dominate then most of the other men she brings home. One of these men has a penis that is so large he could easily star in a porno he looks to be just under 12 inches long and a diameter that looks to be the same as a 12 ounce can of soda. I am sure if my wife had to pick a favorite it would be him. He can inflict physical pain during intercourse however my wife never tells him to stop, well not for more then a few seconds at a time before begging for more. On several occasions she has bled a little after their love making sessions, she assures me that it is normal for women to bleed a little after aggressive love making. He is the only man that I know of that has cum in my wife. After breaking almost every condom he has used with her and when she has tried using a female condom his size caused more problems and discomfort so she lets him go bareback this of course is scary due to risk of STDs. At first she made him pull out before he finished but that stopped rather quickly in the relationship. She is still on the pill and I know where we can get ECPs so the risk of pregnancy is low.
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The idea is foreign to me that you could really love someone however not be sexually attracted to the person. I guess I didn't know how marriage was going to affect me after this long. I have had to accept the fact that the love my wife feels for me runs deep but for some reason I do not sexually satisfy her. I try to think about it as little as possible, we do have sex from time to time however no matter what I do or how hard I try, "it" just isn't there for her when we have sex.
Unfortunately I did start to resent her for seeing other men. She did not want to go to a marriage counselor, she told me I knew what I was getting into when we got married and that I was the one that had changed. What made me mad was she was right I was the one that had turned into the prude. Over the last year my resentment/anger was made worse by the fact that she has started bringing men home and even forcing me out of our marital bed while she is pleasured. I made the mistake of complaining about it and now my wife has made it into a game where she asks me to stay and watch from time to time. Using the word "awkward" is the understatement of the century to describe the feeling when you are sitting in the same room and even sometimes in the same bed when your wife is having intercourse with someone else. It did get a little easier as time went on, I think it bothers some of her partners more to have another person watch when they have intercourse. Every once in awhile she won't ask me to join them or will ask me to leave if she feels it is a problem. However in most cases the men just don't care and just use my wife as they please. From time to time, in the heat of the moment the dirty talk can turn pretty personal, everything from calling her a slut or calling me a cuck or asking me if I "get off" on watching or asking her how a bigger dick feels. She always tells the truth and is never mean spirited about it but I really do think she is sexually turned on when she asks me to watch. Some men will even complement me on how good she was, most are saying it as an insulted directed at me but I think others are just being honest. I do not want to paint the picture that my wife is a slut or that she fucks a different stranger every other day. She does have quite a few different lovers but it is normally a set of 5 to 7 different men she has on rotation. Over time some go and will be replaced with another but she has a routine that I almost have down. From her mood that day and what she puts on before she goes out I can almost guess who she is going to bring home that night. It can be upsetting because some of her partners will leave after intercourse and others will spent the entire night servicing her and when that happens after about the second hour all I want to do is go to sleep but of course that isn't exactly possible. Sometimes I will just fall asleep in a chair but most times I will just sleep in the spare bedroom down the hall. I am still kept awake by all that noise. I do worry about STDs and pregnancy but she is on the pill and as far as I can tell always makes her lovers wear a condom. I guess the cuckold lifestyle is here if I like it or not.
Time passes…
It has been over a year since I wrote that. I am still happily married but I was STILL trying to find my place in this marriage and this one way lifestyle. Up to that point I thought I understood that even though I was acting the part of a "cuck" I knew what being a cuckold was. My wive really did love me and that there is more aspects to love and marriage then time spent in the bedroom.
I didn't notice anything really that different at first but her taste in lovers has changed over the last 3 months. At first I thought she was slowing down because she started going out less often and the number of men that visit have significantly reduced. I did start noticing her lovers penis size start to increase. I would not say I have a small penis, however compared to mine theirs started making mine look like a cocktail wiener. Her lovers have also become more aggressive and abusive towards me. In several cases my wife has had to tell them if they didn't stop she would ask them to leave. It is a real blow to the ego when your wife is the one standing up for you in the bedroom of all places. She has also started dating black men I can't tell if she is turned on more by the whole interracial aspect or the fact that these men have huge penises. I do know that black lovers are much more dominate then most of the other men she brings home. One of these men has a penis that is so large he could easily star in a porno he looks to be just under 12 inches long and a diameter that looks to be the same as a 12 ounce can of soda. I am sure if my wife had to pick a favorite it would be him. He can inflict physical pain during intercourse however my wife never tells him to stop, well not for more then a few seconds at a time before begging for more. On several occasions she has bled a little after their love making sessions, she assures me that it is normal for women to bleed a little after aggressive love making. He is the only man that I know of that has cum in my wife. After breaking almost every condom he has used with her and when she has tried using a female condom his size caused more problems and discomfort so she lets him go bareback this of course is scary due to risk of STDs. At first she made him pull out before he finished but that stopped rather quickly in the relationship. She is still on the pill and I know where we can get ECPs so the risk of pregnancy is low.
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