The “N” word is probably the most controversial term in the modern U.S. English vernacular and for good reason. Generally, speaking it has a negative connotation, mostly due to its use during times of overt hostility towards black Africans brought over as laborers in the new world. Further contributing to this controversy is the racially selective use of the word by different members of society in which people like Donald Sterling and Paula Deen are ostracized while black entertainers are given a pass to use it as part of their acts to acquire wealth. Fair or unfair, this is the current climate of pop culture as it relates to the use of the term nigger. However, there is an alternate reality where the word nigger conjures up unfettered erotic emotions to a sub-culture of sexual deviants like many IR lifestylers.
Let me explain, a few years ago I would cringe at the use of the word nigger in online forums such as this one and other media like porn sites or movies where the word was used during the sexual acts. Looking back, I’m now of the opinion that my visceral reaction at the time was probably the result of a conditioned response developed over time. In other words, if a white person uses the word nigger, my conditioned response is to react hostilely. It’s not clear if this is the result of learned behavior from media images, my environment or just not allowing myself to be racially disparaged. Either way the result is the same.
As I have evolved as a person and experienced participant in this lifestyle, I realize that one plus one is not always equal to two. It can be argued that the “black-bull”, hot wife, and cuckold lifestyle is at the very least both sexually and racially exploitive without meticulous examination. The premise being a physically dominant black male with a voracious appetite for the most coveted female in the social hierarchy, the white woman, who in her feeble and unchaste mind is unable to resist the advances of the opportunist black bull for it not for the cuckold husband. Now the cuckold in this scenario is perhaps the most complex of characters as he exists on a continuum from wary to benevolent to envious to homoerotic while living vicariously through the black bull and thereby preserving his power via control of the ultimate symbol of power in this dynamic, namely the big black cock. In short, it’s the culmination of hundreds of years of pinned up racial and sexual tension all played out in a sex act first, then lifestyle where organic actors meet to consciously deal with subconscious notions and poorly comprehended intrinsic motivations.
In regards to the word nigger in all of this. At some level, there seems to be a liberating and cathartic effect when the word nigger is used in the context of this lifestyle, specifically during sexual encounters. To prove my theory, I conducted a small experiment with my playmates over the last few years and here is what I found.
First, this exercise came about rather serendipitously. I was with a cuckold couple and during the heat of the moment and while I was in a good rhythm, I could see that she was enjoying herself to the point of climax. Seemingly from nowhere, I whispered in her ear, “you love this nigger dick, don’t you”. In that instance I could sense that she was processing what I just intimately uttered in her ear. I repeated, “you love this nigger dick, don’t you” and she said nothing. “I know you want to say it, now say it”, You love this nigger dick!” yes “I love your nigger dick”, she replied. At this time, I could see that it really turned her on so I increased the intensity while simultaneously fucking her deeper and harder. In typical call and response fashion, we continued, “Say fuck me nigger”, I demanded, “fuck me nigger” she replied. Before long, she didn’t need me to prompt her any longer, she was liberated and very comfortable using the word nigger. The more she said it, the more engaged she seemed, returning my thrusts with thrusts of her on. Finally, she starting calling me her nigger, and slapping my ass like a prized thoroughbred. “Fuck me harder nigger” she begged. With a primal scream, she came so deeply and uncontrollably over and over again, thrashing about the bed as if a demon was being torn from her soul. Her married white cunt wrapped my dark member in a tremendous vice, pleading to my charged nigger balls to unleash their stores of fertile seed. In a daze of immense eroticism mixed with disbelief, I lost my way in her hungry and wet white pussy. Before I could vocalize my next utterance, my body seized, balls contracted, and my big black cock recoiled as I soiled her battered white pussy with a hot geyser of fertile black seed, filling her to the point where my balls splattered the excess jizz draining from her pussy over her ass and hotel sheets. As I relaxed my corpus, I glanced over at the cuckold who was also in disbelief, mouth gaping with a look of uncertainty in his eyes. None of us said a word to each other about what had transpired and just went about the usual recovery period in typical fashion with hot showers, hydration, and the usual obligatory closing remarks, handshake and a hug and kiss between the black bull and hot wife. Follow up emails expressed the deep gratification for it all and that night was declared the hottest encounter for them to that date.
As I drove home the usual post-coital chest pounding was replaced with deep reflection, what the fuck? I had just had an incredible encounter augmented by the use of the word “nigger”! Could this work again? So I put it to the test and sure enough, same results. Over and over again, same thing 100% of the time so far, they fuckin love it. Now it’s a part of my black bull armamentarium. But why?
My theory is that just like the notion of black male and white female interracial sex is still very taboo to a large segment of society, it’s also taboo in the minds of participants in this lifestyle, experience be damned. The word nigger in this context is just an extension of this. In other words, as alluded to in the opening paragraph, most whites won’t dare use the word publicly and some even privately for fear of being thought of or validated as a racist. But they want to! Simple human nature I guess, that which is denied is equally desired.
So in closing, I’m certainly not advocating for the use of the word nigger as a modus operandi for the population at large. Nor do I subscribe to considering myself a nigger, however in the proper context, I certainly understand how the word can be used to help play out the mysterious and psychic energy that drives many of us in this lifestyle.
Let me explain, a few years ago I would cringe at the use of the word nigger in online forums such as this one and other media like porn sites or movies where the word was used during the sexual acts. Looking back, I’m now of the opinion that my visceral reaction at the time was probably the result of a conditioned response developed over time. In other words, if a white person uses the word nigger, my conditioned response is to react hostilely. It’s not clear if this is the result of learned behavior from media images, my environment or just not allowing myself to be racially disparaged. Either way the result is the same.
As I have evolved as a person and experienced participant in this lifestyle, I realize that one plus one is not always equal to two. It can be argued that the “black-bull”, hot wife, and cuckold lifestyle is at the very least both sexually and racially exploitive without meticulous examination. The premise being a physically dominant black male with a voracious appetite for the most coveted female in the social hierarchy, the white woman, who in her feeble and unchaste mind is unable to resist the advances of the opportunist black bull for it not for the cuckold husband. Now the cuckold in this scenario is perhaps the most complex of characters as he exists on a continuum from wary to benevolent to envious to homoerotic while living vicariously through the black bull and thereby preserving his power via control of the ultimate symbol of power in this dynamic, namely the big black cock. In short, it’s the culmination of hundreds of years of pinned up racial and sexual tension all played out in a sex act first, then lifestyle where organic actors meet to consciously deal with subconscious notions and poorly comprehended intrinsic motivations.
In regards to the word nigger in all of this. At some level, there seems to be a liberating and cathartic effect when the word nigger is used in the context of this lifestyle, specifically during sexual encounters. To prove my theory, I conducted a small experiment with my playmates over the last few years and here is what I found.
First, this exercise came about rather serendipitously. I was with a cuckold couple and during the heat of the moment and while I was in a good rhythm, I could see that she was enjoying herself to the point of climax. Seemingly from nowhere, I whispered in her ear, “you love this nigger dick, don’t you”. In that instance I could sense that she was processing what I just intimately uttered in her ear. I repeated, “you love this nigger dick, don’t you” and she said nothing. “I know you want to say it, now say it”, You love this nigger dick!” yes “I love your nigger dick”, she replied. At this time, I could see that it really turned her on so I increased the intensity while simultaneously fucking her deeper and harder. In typical call and response fashion, we continued, “Say fuck me nigger”, I demanded, “fuck me nigger” she replied. Before long, she didn’t need me to prompt her any longer, she was liberated and very comfortable using the word nigger. The more she said it, the more engaged she seemed, returning my thrusts with thrusts of her on. Finally, she starting calling me her nigger, and slapping my ass like a prized thoroughbred. “Fuck me harder nigger” she begged. With a primal scream, she came so deeply and uncontrollably over and over again, thrashing about the bed as if a demon was being torn from her soul. Her married white cunt wrapped my dark member in a tremendous vice, pleading to my charged nigger balls to unleash their stores of fertile seed. In a daze of immense eroticism mixed with disbelief, I lost my way in her hungry and wet white pussy. Before I could vocalize my next utterance, my body seized, balls contracted, and my big black cock recoiled as I soiled her battered white pussy with a hot geyser of fertile black seed, filling her to the point where my balls splattered the excess jizz draining from her pussy over her ass and hotel sheets. As I relaxed my corpus, I glanced over at the cuckold who was also in disbelief, mouth gaping with a look of uncertainty in his eyes. None of us said a word to each other about what had transpired and just went about the usual recovery period in typical fashion with hot showers, hydration, and the usual obligatory closing remarks, handshake and a hug and kiss between the black bull and hot wife. Follow up emails expressed the deep gratification for it all and that night was declared the hottest encounter for them to that date.
As I drove home the usual post-coital chest pounding was replaced with deep reflection, what the fuck? I had just had an incredible encounter augmented by the use of the word “nigger”! Could this work again? So I put it to the test and sure enough, same results. Over and over again, same thing 100% of the time so far, they fuckin love it. Now it’s a part of my black bull armamentarium. But why?
My theory is that just like the notion of black male and white female interracial sex is still very taboo to a large segment of society, it’s also taboo in the minds of participants in this lifestyle, experience be damned. The word nigger in this context is just an extension of this. In other words, as alluded to in the opening paragraph, most whites won’t dare use the word publicly and some even privately for fear of being thought of or validated as a racist. But they want to! Simple human nature I guess, that which is denied is equally desired.
So in closing, I’m certainly not advocating for the use of the word nigger as a modus operandi for the population at large. Nor do I subscribe to considering myself a nigger, however in the proper context, I certainly understand how the word can be used to help play out the mysterious and psychic energy that drives many of us in this lifestyle.
