Once a male boytoy, always a male boytoy?

[Tompuss]

I'm a 20 year old male from the Netherlands and I have a story to tell and a confession to make.

When I was 13 I befriended during the summer holidays a group of 3 boys of the same and when school started again we were a inseparable group of friends. I was the smallest of the group and still the most childlike: all the other members of the group were larger, had larger penises, developed already, etc...

Now, during the christmas holidays I was invited for a sleepover at one of the boys' home. At night we played some kind of strip poker and to make a long story short: at the end of the evening I had sucked his cock and was fucked in the ass before I even knew what was happening. He told the others what had happened and I was invited to other sleepovers where I was invited to more of the same... I was a little confused at that time - in the beginning I really didn't like it but I was afraid to lose my friends. And after a few weeks I really began to enjoy it.

For the next 2 (nearly 3) years I became their secret girly slut. They fucked me regularly and I wore or did what they wanted me to do. Once every holiday we had group sleepovers in a stable at one of the boys's home. Then I would wear make-up, nylons, a skirt ... and we had a 'gangbang'.

It ended when all three other boys got a girlfriend - and then I found a girlfriend too. I am happy now... But sometimes I think that I would like to submit my girlfriend and myself to a larger penis than my 13,5 cm. I'va never really been attracted to males, but sometimes I have a gut feeling that it's proper for a 'lesser man' tot submit to a larger man's penis in order to give him pleasure.

Am I wrong?

 

[Ballspanking]

It is not necessarily wrong. Yet, I wonder why you recount the story of you submitting to being fucked by your young friends...
Is it that you enjoyed the larger cocks, and therfore think your girlfriend will do the same?

 

[Custer Laststand]

Tompuss,

Thanks for your interesting post.

Now, during the christmas holidays I was invited for a sleepover at one of the boys' home. At night we played some kind of strip poker and to make a long story short: at the end of the evening I had sucked his cock and was fucked in the ass before I even knew what was happening.

It's not unusual for teenage boys to have experiences of this nature with each other when their hormones are starting to flow, but before they begin to interact with girls and view it as desirable to have girlfriends. It does not mean you're unusual in any way.

He told the others what had happened and I was invited to other sleepovers where I was invited to more of the same... I was a little confused at that time - in the beginning I really didn't like it but I was afraid to lose my friends. And after a few weeks I really began to enjoy it.

If you had sex with other boys repeatedly and you came to realize you enjoyed it, as you say, that may suggest you have some bisexual tendencies.

For the next 2 (nearly 3) years I became their secret girly slut. They fucked me regularly and I wore or did what they wanted me to do. Once every holiday we had group sleepovers in a stable at one of the boys's home. Then I would wear make-up, nylons, a skirt ... and we had a 'gangbang.'

Two to three years of dressing as a "girly slut" for your friends while they fucked you up the ass is quite a while. Thus, this suggests more strongly that you have some bisexual tendencies.

It ended when all three other boys got a girlfriend - and then I found a girlfriend too. I am happy now... but sometimes I think I would like to submit my girlfriend and myself to a larger penis than my 13,5 cm. I've never really been attracted to males, but sometimes I have a gut feeling that it's proper for a 'lesser man' to submit to a larger man's penis in order to give him pleasure. Am I wrong?

First, your 13.5 cm (5.3 inch) erect penis is about average length; you have no reason to feel bad about it. Men with longer, larger cocks are not "better men" than you any more than those with larger noses are "better men." (Keep in mind that by definition of the average, many men have cocks smaller than yours.)

Second, you are not "wrong" to feel sexually attracted to men as well as women. If that's the nature of your sexuality, it's completely natural. Given the nature of your experience when you were 13-15, it would be surprising if you didn't retain some feelings of attraction to the idea of being fucked by other men.

Finally, if you spend some time reading around on these forums, you'll find there are many men who are strongly turned on by the idea of their wives or woman friends fucking other men, sometimes in front of them, and they're also turned on by the idea of their wives' lovers sometimes fucking *them* up the ass as well. It's a form of human sexuality.

You can gain better insight into woman/man relationships, bisexuality and homosexuality by reading "Sperm Wars: The Science of Sex," by Robin Baker, Ph.D. (1996, BasicBooks, 319 pp. [hardcover]). Chapter 10, "One Way or Another," is on bisexuality (and some other topics).

—Custer

 

[duke9555]

odd how big 13.5 sounds here in the USA

 

[Custer Laststand]

Hm... well, the SI convention should of course be considered...

Odd how big 13.5 cm sounds here in the USA.

This raises the question of whether penis size should most-properly be measured in millimeters (mm) or meters (m), in accordance with SI standard practice. 13.5 cm, for instance, then becomes 135 mm, a huge number for the length of one's penis. No doubt this would be preferred by those with... (ahem, how to say this delicately)... less than massive cocks.

Size queens, of course, would no doubt prefer to measure and compare the sizes of their men's penis's in meters. 13.5 cm then becomes 0.135 m, a seemingly-diminutive number but a huge unit. I mean, imagine having a cock that measures in *meters.*

But hey... there are tradeoffs for everything...

 

[greymaster]

odd how big 13.5 sounds here in the USA

About 5.5 inches

For a country who's currency might have always been decimal (I'm sure you'll tell me if I'm wrong) - how did the rest of decimalization miss you? We got lumbered with it here in the UK from the 1970s onwards.

I still regularly scandalize bar staff (or confuse them depending on age) by saying things like "Nine bob for a back of crisps???"

[Translation for those that need it - 'Bob' was slang for 'Shilling', and there were 20 to the pound. So a Shilling became 5 new pence... 45p a bag of crisps]

 

[drackas]

dont confuse them with old money .

 

[drackas]

sorry tompuss .i have never had it up my arse but i have sucked a few bulls but only to keep my wife happy it turns her on