Okay here is my situation/story. Any advice or guidance would be greatly appreciated.
I am white male married to a black female, and desire her to be with other men. When I was with my first wife, we did this quite a bit; however, it did end our marriage as she left me for one of her lovers. (However, it is okay second wife is better).
I thought my desires would go away when I got married to my current wife, but they have not. Therefore, here is my story and the point I am currently in.
I have made subtle hints and not so subtle hints so I will break them down each time.
First time, the subject of cheating came up, as we talked, I said "well I don't have to worry because I love you and want to be with you forever, so if you did I would stay with you, shoot it would might even turn me on. Her response: indifferent.
2nd time: I had a picture of a vagina on my phone (downloaded by accident from porn site), she thought a female sent it to me, and she got mad. (I was leaving soon as my job takes me away quite a bit for long periods of time). Her response: Oh, you can bet our ass I will do something when you are gone. (She calmed down after I explained it to her).
3rd time: during a conversation guys penius size came up, she said "I heard midgets have some of the biggest penius of all men" I asked her where she heard it from and she said a friend. I jokingly said sure you know from experience. Her response, laughed, never really denied it.
4th time: during a conversation, topic came up of white men and black men, she stated it is different because I do not mind her talking about past sexual experiences, and black men do not even want to think about them.
5th time: I was getting ready to leave again, it was more stressful this time due to other circumstances, so I told her to she can do whatever and anything she wants to relax and enjoy herself when she can. Her response "oh don’t worry I will do what I need to do.
Sixth time: There is this guy near her sister who is fucking anybody in the neighborhood who he wants to, I guess he has a huge cock and is good in bed (I have heard these women talk about it. One day I was joking around with her sister that she wanted this guy, she told me that he offered but she turned him down. Then one day me and the wife were there, she was talking to her friend (girl), she said she couldn’t come down here often cause her bf would get jealous, after she left, she said she only down to be with the guy with the big cock, we then drove by him, and my wife made sure to tell him hi and wave, I could of swore it was in a flirtauous voice, when I said something she said no they were related (cousins), and she could talk to him anytime she wanted. (Remember he came on to her sister), now mind you they have different dads so maybe.
7th time, when we were dating I went on a long business trip, come to find out when I was gone she went to the club almost every weekend but stated she never did anything, she did not tell me when I was gone, but told me the week I came back, I asked she said she never, did anything with anyone and as much I want to her to have done something, I believe her.
8th time: the going to club topic came up again (me trying to find more info), I told her I would not have minded as I was gone for a long time and would have understand her needs, she said well I wish I would have known that back then.
9th time, at the beach we were in the room changing, she told me to put on her bathing suit, I was so shocked (I didn’t I was nervous), (her values are in line with what the bible says about homosexuals), I did not know how she would respond to her husband wanting to wear her clothes.
10th time, took a huge chance, she calls her vagina Lucy, and I am away on a trip again and sent a text message called five thoughts about Lucy. I stated 1. I am glad you call her Lucy. 2. I like it when Lucy grows her hair out (it is what I like) 3. I cannot wait until the day Lucy’s physical stature matches her name (meaning she is loose), 4. I like to lounge kiss Lucy, 5. I hope Lucy has a fun and exciting summer and has lots of visitors. She did not reply.
11th due to a medical condition (nothing serious) we have not had sex since may, before she was cleared by doctors I left I will gone the rest of the year, this week she is cleared, talking on the phone I said hey good news you get to have sex this week, to my shock she said I know in a sort of exciting voice, then changed the subject.
My dilemma I think I am close, 1. How do I close the deal and ensure she wants to do it, at the same time letting her know I want her to 2. If she does do something, how do I get her to tell me about or 3? I am just stretching normal conversations too much and thinking things or there because I want it when it is not there.
I am white male married to a black female, and desire her to be with other men. When I was with my first wife, we did this quite a bit; however, it did end our marriage as she left me for one of her lovers. (However, it is okay second wife is better).
I thought my desires would go away when I got married to my current wife, but they have not. Therefore, here is my story and the point I am currently in.
I have made subtle hints and not so subtle hints so I will break them down each time.
First time, the subject of cheating came up, as we talked, I said "well I don't have to worry because I love you and want to be with you forever, so if you did I would stay with you, shoot it would might even turn me on. Her response: indifferent.
2nd time: I had a picture of a vagina on my phone (downloaded by accident from porn site), she thought a female sent it to me, and she got mad. (I was leaving soon as my job takes me away quite a bit for long periods of time). Her response: Oh, you can bet our ass I will do something when you are gone. (She calmed down after I explained it to her).
3rd time: during a conversation guys penius size came up, she said "I heard midgets have some of the biggest penius of all men" I asked her where she heard it from and she said a friend. I jokingly said sure you know from experience. Her response, laughed, never really denied it.
4th time: during a conversation, topic came up of white men and black men, she stated it is different because I do not mind her talking about past sexual experiences, and black men do not even want to think about them.
5th time: I was getting ready to leave again, it was more stressful this time due to other circumstances, so I told her to she can do whatever and anything she wants to relax and enjoy herself when she can. Her response "oh don’t worry I will do what I need to do.
Sixth time: There is this guy near her sister who is fucking anybody in the neighborhood who he wants to, I guess he has a huge cock and is good in bed (I have heard these women talk about it. One day I was joking around with her sister that she wanted this guy, she told me that he offered but she turned him down. Then one day me and the wife were there, she was talking to her friend (girl), she said she couldn’t come down here often cause her bf would get jealous, after she left, she said she only down to be with the guy with the big cock, we then drove by him, and my wife made sure to tell him hi and wave, I could of swore it was in a flirtauous voice, when I said something she said no they were related (cousins), and she could talk to him anytime she wanted. (Remember he came on to her sister), now mind you they have different dads so maybe.
7th time, when we were dating I went on a long business trip, come to find out when I was gone she went to the club almost every weekend but stated she never did anything, she did not tell me when I was gone, but told me the week I came back, I asked she said she never, did anything with anyone and as much I want to her to have done something, I believe her.
8th time: the going to club topic came up again (me trying to find more info), I told her I would not have minded as I was gone for a long time and would have understand her needs, she said well I wish I would have known that back then.
9th time, at the beach we were in the room changing, she told me to put on her bathing suit, I was so shocked (I didn’t I was nervous), (her values are in line with what the bible says about homosexuals), I did not know how she would respond to her husband wanting to wear her clothes.
10th time, took a huge chance, she calls her vagina Lucy, and I am away on a trip again and sent a text message called five thoughts about Lucy. I stated 1. I am glad you call her Lucy. 2. I like it when Lucy grows her hair out (it is what I like) 3. I cannot wait until the day Lucy’s physical stature matches her name (meaning she is loose), 4. I like to lounge kiss Lucy, 5. I hope Lucy has a fun and exciting summer and has lots of visitors. She did not reply.
11th due to a medical condition (nothing serious) we have not had sex since may, before she was cleared by doctors I left I will gone the rest of the year, this week she is cleared, talking on the phone I said hey good news you get to have sex this week, to my shock she said I know in a sort of exciting voice, then changed the subject.
My dilemma I think I am close, 1. How do I close the deal and ensure she wants to do it, at the same time letting her know I want her to 2. If she does do something, how do I get her to tell me about or 3? I am just stretching normal conversations too much and thinking things or there because I want it when it is not there.
